liven_fitness’s BodyBlog

I mean that was prolly one of eminems worst songs but who cares. I am baccck… Realized I have to do this alone. I can’t have someone telling me what to do. Besides the fact, I get lazy if that happens. Nope… no more!! Lets get this party ssttaarrtteedd

watch in 2 weeks for progress pics!!

I thought about it all day at work. Thoughts Become Things.

Think Fat. Be Fat

Think Sick. Be Sick

Think EVERYONE WANTS TO BE ME BECAUSE I AM SO LEAN! Than everyone wants to be me because I am THAT lean!

Think abs. Get Abs!

Every day is going to be a challenge but I’m sick of this time of year alwys worrying and stressing. A friend of mine says Dorian Yates goes into his store a lot and buys bison burgers. Yes that is a random fact. But this boy is so possitive but cannot gain an ounce of muscle bc he’s on roids! And he keeps sayen he wants to be just like DY! You can’t do that if your on roids, sir! (no wonder i broke it off with him lol) It’s the same concept. I can’t look like that 40 year old woman in my Spin Class if I keep thinking "damn she’s tight" or "her abs are awesome"… I need to apply everything to myself.

Damn I’m tight! Damn I got awesome abs! I might laf about it for a bit bc we know it’s not true. but then one day. BAM… i WILL be TIGGGGHHTTTTERRRR then everyone. And I WILL have tight asss Absssss!!!

ahh ok whatever i’m over it…going to the gym bye

I do what I am supposed to do. I wake up.. do my workouts and cardio.. go to class go to work eat right 90% of the time. I drink my water i go to bed early and I start the process all over again. but… Here is the kicker…

My waste is not getten any smaller and my weight is just getten bigger.

2 years can’t be that much for your metabolism to change. i am eating exactly what I was eating 2 years ago when i was in the best shape of my life. I mean now I add a lil ketchup. That CANT be the facter in my unhappiness.. can it? Whatever. And to make matters worse. SuperMaine wants my size calculations.. AND I CAN’T FIND A TAPE MEASURE ANYWHERE!

I want to cry. But if i cry then the universe will give me more things to cry about and with Mom going in for surgery today and Dad got surgery last friday, I don’t want to give the universe a reason to give me more reasons to cry

grr shower and class

Number one IDK if that is spelled right haha. Number two. The last two days I have been soooooooo extremely tired! I did start eating 15-1800 cals and kept my carbs in meal 1 and 3.. but I hit 5pm and I am ready for bed. Maybe i am not eating enough. Maybe I am miscalculating my cal intake. Alls I know is it’s 9pm here in Jersey and 4 hours ago I got out of class and took a nap til 8 went to shop rite and came back and am going to bed.

Any Suggestions with the exhaustion? I mean.. i AM sleeping. And the funny thing is… The last two night i slept through the night and only woke up once so IDK what is wrong with me. Maybe SuperMaine has really boosted my metabolism and I need to eat more then 1600 cals.. idkidk Leave feedback!

Have  a great night!

Well Well Well. Guess who has been perfect with her diet for 2 days and already can fit into her jeans better because the bloating is going down? I always get to that point where it’s like okay..I am looken bloated but I gained weight so it will take forever to lose it. No no. One cheat meal takes like 72 hours to get out of your system completely. And I am carb sensitive as it is. and ate nothing but carbs for like a week..

My sister has the book "burn the fat feed the muscle" and i saw her for the first time in a month Sunday, DAMN HOMIE! Bytch looks awesome! Well her bum looks smaller and her belly has shrank and is still covered by that layer of hardest to burn fat, but its nice and tight. Her upper bod, shall we say, is not up to speed with me lol. I love my upper body and the moment i lose BF the already-cant-pinch-skin arms and back that I have will display beautiful tone. But i asked her if she could make me up meal plan and such as the book says and if i can read it. The last 2 days, I have had energy and stamina! My workouts and cardio have been nothing but this random act of intensity that I didn’t know I could have. And all that weight, so to speak, i gained from overlaoding carbs (even though healthy, shouldnt have been eaten every hour lol) seems to have dropped so quickly. You know I didn’t gain a pound of fat, but rather water and carb intake just BAM made me huge lol

anyway.. Jeans are fiten better. And after my sister played with my love handles on Sunday and told me "oh Jen you gained weight didn’t you" haha I was like F*ck! I bought a blender, tape measure and calipers yesterday so I can track everything. (and make these awesome protein meal replacement smothies she sent me a recipe for!) I figured that the reason why I a,=m not losing BF was bc I don’t plan out meals, I don’t know exactly how much carbs, pro and fat i’m eating and I don’t know my BF % or my cal intake. So now.. She owes me from training her in 07 and she’s guna make my food out fo rme.

this week is jus awesome. ANDDDDD I know you guys always wonder haha i have a hot hot hot date thursday. And he already knows NO DRINKING even though us and a buncha friends are going to a bar. I will sit there with BOTTLED water.. Hell if he’s guna take me on a date then he is def guna spend money on me! even if it is on 3 bottles of water instead of beers and liquor haha. You boys don’t get off that easy. And bet your bottom dollar if we go to dinner first, I won’t order chicken n broc. I will order a huge steak! I am not going to allow him to think that just bc i need to drop BF that I am a cheap datehaha..
I am sorry for ranting and Prolly won’t get anyone to read it lol. But I am just super happy!

OMG I almost forgot! SuperMaine! His stupid 100 rep workouts he gave me for 2 weeks might have kicked my ass and I might have called my mom crying every night, but I am lifting more in the last 2 workouts i had. Like for example.. i normally v bar press down like 20-25 for 4 sets of 12… Yesterday.. drum role please.. baaadddaaadddaaa… I press downed 35! Like it was NOTHING!! I could have used more but didn’t want to over-do it!

So there. You all should hit him up! I gotta go to work and shyt I’m late of course..

Have a beautiful day!!!

Wel. Today in dirty Jersey was a beautiful sunshiney 60 degree day and even though I was stuck at work all day long, I still made the best of it! I even got a 30 min break because it was so dead to go to ShopRite! I got my shyt for the week and am in FULL DIET EFFECT! So please, do not put chips and dip in my face haha! In fact I am about to go make my foods for tomorrow even though its 11:30 at night. I want to be ready. No more excuses. I re-read the Secret in a nice bubble bath tonight and everything came rushing back to me why I was able to stick to diet and Supps 2 years ago. Because it was all new to me and i followed everything to the books thinking that one taste of even ketchup would ruin my progress. So guess what? I am starting to be insanely rediculously no-need to be this hard core, HARECORE–again! That which don’t kill me will only make me stronger and Life is wonderful the last few weeks so why not make it just perfect by getten my will power back! Ha! Just waiten on my weeks training routine and I am set. Hope it gets to me before I go to bed in an hour!

Well… Have a great day tomorrow every one! Happy Monday! And Lets go Chicken and Green beans!

Oh you say you have some chips for One Tree Hill and Gossip Girl time tomorrow? No thank you, I think I will have my Yummy Yummy handful of almonds or maybe a teaspoon of penut butter. MM MM Good.

Good night Neverland! erm.. BodySpace!

I finished this week of hellish reps. 100 for every set! Today was Triceps and Biceps. Let me be the one to tell you… doing 4 total exercises (2 for each) killed me. Before I went to do cardio, i was just chillen by the dumbells catching my breath so to speak and i couldn’t put my arms down. The pump I had from that workout was insane! It was unbelievable! I used the weight I normally use for 18-20 reps. I was able to do 50 of everything until I needed to stop for a sec… But my arms looked huge when I went to do cardio. I hope theat they start to grow more.

So about this diet shyt. I have to go to ShopRite tomorrow and It’s time that I start having will power!!!! I have decided. I am NOT going to go anywhere by snacken a little at night. And girlscouts don’t help. I went to Wawa to get a waterbottle after my workout and outside were those little girls in brown uniforms. Damnit. I bough a few boxes of things I didn’t like so I will not eat them and tkae them hometo my family for my mom’s bday next week. I still supported but don’t get to enjoy it lol.oh well No Worries.

But this diet thing.. I know it’s obvious but you have to eat lean to look lean. And I am getting tired of having sick a$$ arms and a nice back and crap for a midsection…

It’s time to get theball rollin and take control of my life! I do not want to turn itno my parents.

I"m also thinking about not going to law school and getting certified as a PT instead. This way I can work in politics and the fitness arena and maybe get law school paid for? idk idk we will see what happens

SHOWER i stink!

Just Stick To My Gosh Forsaken Diet?! I go the entire day through school, classes, hw and studying… then work… And I am fine!! I feel great and I have energy!! Then I get back to la escuala… Change out of work clothes and into something comfy… and BAM it’s like a light switch turns on and EVERYONE piles into my apartment drinking and shyt. I don’t drink… So I sit there with my water bottle and refilling it countless times.. And then.. it starts… one chip… chex mix.. ‘u kno what lemme make some eggs’ and it goes… nothing but carbs and eggs.. not good carbs.. chips.. for 3 days now!! no wonder i am so BLOATED!!

can someone give me appitite suppressing foods I can eat after my last meal or with it so i DONT keep doing this?! i am getten fed up with the lack of will powerrrr!!!

:(

I keep getting inquiries about SuperMaine. If you want to work with him, please send him a PM or wall post. I am SURE he will be happy to assist you in any questions or what-not that you have. I am not a certified anything and I can’t answer your questions. All’s I will continue to tell ya’ll is that I am in my second week with him and it’s going good and I am happy to be working with him and I cannot wait for the next few months to fly by to see what I can make of myself with his help.

Secondly… The darn man has me doin’ one set of 100 reps for everything this week! Like.. WTF haha. I went to bed super early last night because today is Legs and I was freaking out I almost cried to my Best Friend thismorning at 4am (i didnt know how long it was going to take to do the routine so…). But I couldnt sleep due to my roomate and her bf snoring. So I decided not to work out in the morning like I usually do. So I was awake until 5am crying to Amy on the phone how scared I am that I won’t be able to do the workouts this week and espeically tomorrow (today) bc I have zero sleep and am on the most uncomfy dorm couch ever. She’s little miss girlie girl so all she was saying is "Make sure you don’t use too much weight bc I don’t want a butch best friend, I miss skinny Jen." haha thanks Ame. I used to be mad skinny bc I got sick before I met her and lost all my muscle from not eating for 2 weeks and when i got better, i was training hard and had nothing but muscle, but there was barley any of that. I was tooo skinny. but shes like living with ‘gota look like a model’ in her head…

But anyways. I went to class came back and chilled a little bit and around 7:30 headed off into the unknown. The gym was packed with little HS students not even going through the motions but rather pretending to use things and talking by them instead of actually exercising. But that’s besides the point.

I had to do squats, lunges, deadlifts and leg extensions. All one set of one hundred reps. I didn’t know how much weight to do on squats. I didn’t want to do too little and breeze by the workout, and I didn’t want to do too much where every 10 reps I was breaking. So I did moderate weight. I did 55 reps before I had to stop. So I thought that was a good weight after all. I did 25 more and then fifteen and then ten…(I did 105 by accident because when I did the first 55 I restarted cointing at 50 instead of 55 idk why) I felt horrible but great. I did the rest of the workouts with confidence and pushed through each rep until I couldn’t do anymore and followed the ‘rest rules’ I was given. I lunged last because they are my hardest leg workout in mass repititions. I hate them. I only used 10 weights because when i used to do 15’s during my 18-25 rep scheme last year, I wouldn’t be able to finish my sets. (and normally i use 20’s for lower rep schemes) I would just go through the motions. I didn’t want to use more weight and slack off. I think SuperMaine would be proud of the way I pushed trhough it all.

Swiss ball sit ups one set of 100. Not hard, but felt good. But It was funny. I was doing them in front of the mirror and I would look at myself every time I crunched up and my quads were full and big from the work out! I mean, if I didn’t have that layer of fat over them, I am pretty sure that You would have been able to see every littl muscle tone in my legs. THAT"S how big they were! haha I culdn’t walk down the stairs to the locker room. So in that case, I knew it was a good work out.

Sorry, Elijah, for freaking out. I can’t wait to finish the rest of the weeks routine. Cardio tomorrow will kill due to tonights legs. Butttttttt No Worries!!

I hope everyone is doing great! And enjoy this crispy and beautiful night!

All thoughts become things… and I am thinking this week is going to cont to go great!

peace and mad love!

Ok well first and foremost You All should contact SuperMaine. I am just about through with my first week with him (it’s sort of a trial week to see what I can [and possibly can’t] handle). Between his support and his personal tips for the day’s training to me, I think that this ‘trail’ week has been the best week of weight training and cardio that I have had in 2 years. Not that it is difficult but it’s intense. I squeeze every rep with the utmost concentration! I feel the burn and KNOW i am doing everything correct rather then feeling a little pain and questioning my abilities.

By eating 95% clean (hey.. I got bad will power) and performing the way I am with HIS total help I feel I can reach my goals a shyt load sooner than I thought it would take. haha I evern told my professors that I need NEED need to eat in class bc I have to for my diet. Not like it matters cuz its college lol and they all know me anyway. But it’s just funny when i used to walk int class with Tea, fries and a wrap. Now i walk in with grilled chicken, brn rice, and green beans… almonds.. my protein powder… it’s too funny the looks I get from the boys who are like "why is this girl healthier then me."

Moving on. With that said, I have been getting more and more PM’s supporting me and letting me know that I am going to go far and with all these possitive words, one can do nothing but scream THANK YOU!! You all look more amazing that I could imagine looking! But you supporting me and following me for the few weeks I came back to BB.com has helped me gian control of my life and my health!

I love you all! And please keep up your awesome work so I can cont to comment on you as well lol!!

have a beautiful weekend everyone!

–peace and mad love–