littlred67’s BodyBlog

So I’ve kind of said I was in a difficult transition phase and the first Huge part is finally about to come to an end. I have been really excited but this last week my nerves have been a mess.  I’m moving me and the boys across the country - to the South.  The housing has been a mess so the house didnt sell as quick as I needed so I’ve rented it out which has been a blessing since I feel really good about the tenents.  We were pulling a uhaul and driving - til the engine blew up on my Durango about 3 weeks ago. Thats been okay too - It could have happened on the road which thankfully it didnt. Apparently this isnt a new problem with this vehicle.  I’m still working out the details with that since I still owe on it but the good side is since I still have my house - I have a place to park it .  This changed everything though - Ive had to ship only the most needed or treasured. Its been sad - going thru all my things and getting rid of a lot of stuff I love but it wont ship well.  I did discover where all my money goes though. Most people buy stocks , bonds , real estate - me - I apparently buy toys, video games and systems and youth athletic equipment..:).  I’ve quit my state job of 15 yrs - another huge thing but work in a field where there is always open spots and have the  applications all in and set up so I feel comfortable about the job situation..Its just been months of planning and replanning as things come up. Anyways - 5 days to go and we are flying out.  I have to find a new gym which will be a chore since I am pretty picky.

So…My months of having little appetite which made leaning out pretty easy have come to an end. Now I’m HUNGRY.    All the time…for the last two weeks. A lot of times I try and listen to my body because I feel like if you pay attention to how you really feel it will help guide what your body needs to intake. But I just cant believe my body needs a Whopper with cheese ( okay - so I didnt even make it a large ) or M&M’s or Pizza Hut Supreme Pizza. I am so bad - that I know the calorie content on most of my cheat foods so I can evaluatehow much I want them against what they have in them and then work them into my calorie count.  Cheat days for me are usually three days a month - then end of story. Not this month though. I am really not believing that nutritionally I require the Garlic fries at Red Robin’s but if I listen to my body thats what it is talking about. What I dont get is why its lasting so long. Its like I woke up one day and my stomach decided I had been starving it- but I had been feeding it well for months - just good stuff. So my head is at war currently with the rest of me - which is currently demenading a Bagel…yum..with some I Cant Believe Its Not Butter - topped with Peanut Butter ( thats good for me right..the PB..lol).  I think I wil just have to go to bed soon - if I stay up I’ll lose…My glutes are asking if theres any Raspberry Jam left……

Where to start??..HHHmmm  So my spiral to the bottom started when they banned me for a couple of days for a "Naked Butt" pic as my Avi. Now, you might ask yourself why that same pic was not taken off my photo gallery, I know I wondered. Ive found that things can be pretty subjective here and so I try not to let it bother me anymore.  After I was allowed  back on - my computer freezes whenever I try to repond to comments, which I tried to do often as I think if someone has taken thier time to write to you , its only good manners to reply back. It takes about a minute and a half a comment.  I just dont have that kind of time right now so I want to thank everyone for thier comments and please know that I’m trying to figure out what is going on . …..Does anyone else have this issue?

So I am in a huge transition right now and things are so chaotic.  Everything is scheduled to settle down in a couple of months so I am just trying to get by. Someone suggested trying marital arts as a new activity and when things get back to normal for me I am going to look into that. 

So just as I was starting to really get into this.. Getting my workouts tracked in, digging into forums more, learning ,making connections to increase knowledge - they ( persons soemwhat unknown) start pulling down profile pics.  This amazes me. My pics are no more or no less then many others up here - they just seem to be kind of enjoyed by others. So I am really wondering what is going on wiht all that. I am not here to be Sponsored or to be Discovered or to enhance my career.  Familes and children really dont care what thier social worker looks like - only that thier lives get better. I’m not making a mid life career change…So it would be nice if I could enjoy the use of this site like everyone else and not be bothered. I’ve heard from some others on here its like this but now that I have experienced it first hand - its very disappointing.  Hopefully things will change for the better SOON…

So I got to experience my first nasty couple of comments yesterday. Some people should find more things to fil thier life then negative vibes.  So many people are so nice and supportive.  I got offered to do a photo shoot which for a someone like me - single mom who works and goes to school- is pretty exciting. I dont think it will lead to some great career but it will be fun and something I have never done. I would really like to be in more contact wiht some of the women on the site though. I think there is so much we can learn from each other.  My boyfriend has been so supportive about my hobby ( lifting) but he’s a guy and there are just some things he can’t relate too.

Welcome to the Bodybuilding.com BodyBlogs. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!