littlred67’s BodyBlog

So I’ve kind of said I was in a difficult transition phase and the first Huge part is finally about to come to an end. I have been really excited but this last week my nerves have been a mess.  I’m moving me and the boys across the country - to the South.  The housing has been a mess so the house didnt sell as quick as I needed so I’ve rented it out which has been a blessing since I feel really good about the tenents.  We were pulling a uhaul and driving - til the engine blew up on my Durango about 3 weeks ago. Thats been okay too - It could have happened on the road which thankfully it didnt. Apparently this isnt a new problem with this vehicle.  I’m still working out the details with that since I still owe on it but the good side is since I still have my house - I have a place to park it .  This changed everything though - Ive had to ship only the most needed or treasured. Its been sad - going thru all my things and getting rid of a lot of stuff I love but it wont ship well.  I did discover where all my money goes though. Most people buy stocks , bonds , real estate - me - I apparently buy toys, video games and systems and youth athletic equipment..:).  I’ve quit my state job of 15 yrs - another huge thing but work in a field where there is always open spots and have the  applications all in and set up so I feel comfortable about the job situation..Its just been months of planning and replanning as things come up. Anyways - 5 days to go and we are flying out.  I have to find a new gym which will be a chore since I am pretty picky.

So…My months of having little appetite which made leaning out pretty easy have come to an end. Now I’m HUNGRY.    All the time…for the last two weeks. A lot of times I try and listen to my body because I feel like if you pay attention to how you really feel it will help guide what your body needs to intake. But I just cant believe my body needs a Whopper with cheese ( okay - so I didnt even make it a large ) or M&M’s or Pizza Hut Supreme Pizza. I am so bad - that I know the calorie content on most of my cheat foods so I can evaluatehow much I want them against what they have in them and then work them into my calorie count.  Cheat days for me are usually three days a month - then end of story. Not this month though. I am really not believing that nutritionally I require the Garlic fries at Red Robin’s but if I listen to my body thats what it is talking about. What I dont get is why its lasting so long. Its like I woke up one day and my stomach decided I had been starving it- but I had been feeding it well for months - just good stuff. So my head is at war currently with the rest of me - which is currently demenading a Bagel…yum..with some I Cant Believe Its Not Butter - topped with Peanut Butter ( thats good for me right..the PB..lol).  I think I wil just have to go to bed soon - if I stay up I’ll lose…My glutes are asking if theres any Raspberry Jam left……

Where to start??..HHHmmm  So my spiral to the bottom started when they banned me for a couple of days for a "Naked Butt" pic as my Avi. Now, you might ask yourself why that same pic was not taken off my photo gallery, I know I wondered. Ive found that things can be pretty subjective here and so I try not to let it bother me anymore.  After I was allowed  back on - my computer freezes whenever I try to repond to comments, which I tried to do often as I think if someone has taken thier time to write to you , its only good manners to reply back. It takes about a minute and a half a comment.  I just dont have that kind of time right now so I want to thank everyone for thier comments and please know that I’m trying to figure out what is going on . …..Does anyone else have this issue?

So I am in a huge transition right now and things are so chaotic.  Everything is scheduled to settle down in a couple of months so I am just trying to get by. Someone suggested trying marital arts as a new activity and when things get back to normal for me I am going to look into that.