It’s so hard sometimes…..
I have had a really devastating week, I don’t wish to share any details….however I learned a few truths about myself and it was really hard to accept. I have been in a relationship/marriage for the past 31 years and I ended it…I have had very little social life all these years as I was devoted to my relationship….when I got a taste of freedom I didn’t know how to handle it….kind of like a kid…I did some things that probably weren’t the wisest to do, I made some not so smart choices and it cost me a beautiful friend as well as my self respect….I paid to high a price! I couldn’t handle anything so I went to see one of the pastors at church, I’m so glad I did…he helped me put things into perspective and helped me see what I was doing to myself…it was very hard for me to admit and a very humbling experience…I have tried to explain to my friend and I did apologize…I don’t know if I’ve been forgiven or not, I do know that I am still trying to forgive myself….life is so hard and painful at times, but I have picked myself up and brushed myself off because I have to keep trying to get it right….everything that life is is a gift…even the hard lessons….and I know from experience that without pain there can be no growth….my biggest problem was that I was trying not to feel the pain, I guess that’s part of being human too. So now I will work hard at improving myself, not just my body…because what good is a rockin bod if everything else is not healthy?! God willing I will be healthy enough and ready to compete in 2010!!
July 18, 2009 at 2:23 pm
Hey Little red, If only decisions came with a warning label like cigarettes… Any way, I’m glad to hear you’re doing well and that top is HOT
July 20, 2009 at 3:53 pm
Just take the hits my friend and keep moving forward.
July 20, 2009 at 4:01 pm
you have a great attitude with the situation. keep you’re chin high. bad things happen, we have all been there. its the people who don’t let those bad time consume them that become better people because of it.
Stay strong in both mind and body, i have complete faith that God will lend you his merciful hand to help you along your path in life.
Good luck in everything you do!
July 25, 2009 at 8:57 am
keep your head up, life has a way of wearing you down with bad moments. Just keep the faith and remember to focus on the good moments.
We are all here for you!
July 25, 2009 at 9:07 am
Well friends don’t come with an instruction manual so you have to be careful of their feelings a lot more than you are willing to admit. But our life has an istruction manual. Its called The Bible. I find myself going to it a great deal when i’m down. I’ll be here for ya gal. You know that