litlebit’s BodyBlog

I can’t believe I’m 53!  I remember in my 20’s thinking I never want to be old LOL (anything past 25 I thought was old, so 53 would have been ancient!).  I can honestly say that I have never felt better in my entire life, and I certainly look better!  I’m not a beautiful woman so I’ll take just being fit and healthy.  I have so much to be grateful for.

I started this journey November 30th 2006.  I was a fat/skinny person and had been my whole life.  I am amazed at what I’ve been able to do with my body in just 2 years with no bg whatsoever, no gym (just my son’s equipment), and no trainer!  I wish I had both of those things but can’t afford them or the supps.  I can only imagine the possibilities if someone was training me!  Anyway, I am happy with what I have managed to accomplish so far, I want more in 09!!!!

I want to thank those of you that have given me support and encouragement, because I didn’t do it entirely alone, there were days when I wanted to give up but you wouldn’t let me…TY!!  Have a wonderful, healthy, prosperous New Year!!!

Hey everybody, I’ve been working really long shifts and I had a talk with my boss about it.  When I was hired I was supposed to work every other w/e one day, a 14 hour shift.  She asked me to pick up 2 extra in Dec.  I told her I would help out but that I needed to get back to my one day in January.  I also did not get meal breaks, so I have only been eating 1-2 meals when I work and those are the ones I get in before going to work!  So I pulled up the new schedule last night and noticed she has me on for 2 shifts of 14 eo w/e….needless to say I was pi$$ed!  I told her that she had my resignation effective immediately!  I also told her that I was reporting the clinic to the wage hour and labor division for violation of employee meal breaks!  I almost passed out 2 weekends ago when my blood sugar dropped from no food!  The NP I was working with told me to just get used to it and keep a few pieces of candy in my pocket!  Can you believe that shit!  WOW!  So anyway I’m now job hunting, my health and well being are more important to me than any job.

So today I’m going to get my meals in and regain my strength, workout, and get some badly needed rest!  I have lost 5lbs. in the last week!  It took me two years to put on that weight!  Anyway I’m getting back on track and I’m looking forward to my 53rd b-day tomorrow night!

Ok rant is over and now I’m smiling!  Time to move on to bigger and better things!  Have a fantastic day everyone!!!

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First of all I’d like to apologize for not getting back to anyone today.  I have had a tough weekend and today things came to a head.  I went to see my daughter this weekend…it’s was hard to see her in such tough shape, she is really struggling to hang on.  She suffers from depression and severe anxiety and her Doc is trying different meds to get her stabilized.  Anyway her and I had a falling out which was extremely painful for me.  I will be ok, I just need to feel through it and I will be here for her when she’s ready.

One of the other things I’ve been thinking about today is how people say they won’t let people in or allow themselves to love someone because someone else hurt them once.  I have a problem with that because I don’t believe in making everyone else pay because of an individual.  When I was raped I only made one person responsible because not "all" men did that to me.  When my ex husband cheated on me I did not take on the attitude that all "men" were like him, had I done that I never would have experienced a love that produced two beautiful children!  I just think it’s sad that people do that to themselves, because they really are missing out on what life has to offer.  I have been hurt many times throughout my life, and I know I have also been the source of some pain but it’s those experiences that have taught me what it is to be human….to feel good, bad, or indifferent, all of those feeling have a place and make me who I am today.  Don’t get me wrong I don’t enjoy emotional pain…however it reminds me what the great stuff feels like which in turn makes me want to work that much harder to be a good person, to treat people the way I wish to be treated.

Ok enough rambling!  I just felt like sharing my thoughts.  I hope everyone has a great night and who knows…maybe I even made someone think?!

Some of you know that my daughter went missing before Thanksgiving.  I finally got a call from her today and my worst fears were not without merit.  She was hospitalized for severe alcohol poisoning and hemorrhaging.  She said the Doctor didn’t think she would survive.  Her blood was so thinned out that besides the alcohol she almost bled to death, her BP was dangerously low and her heart rate barely palpable, they had her in the hospital for 6 days.  She was told after she was detoxed and more stable that she may need a liver transplant, they also told her that she lost the baby!  She did not even know she was pregnant!!  OMG a parents worst NIGHTMARE!!

She has been put on an anti-anxiety med and is doing better, her last liver enzyme tests came back better, the Doctors can’t belive she survived and that her liver though damaged can function, however they told her if she evers drinks again that she better plan and pay her funeral in advance because she won’t live through next time.  I’m just so grateful I didn’t have to bury my first born…I am still in shock over all of this and I will making arrangements to go see her.  She is now dealing with the loss of a pregnancy that she didn’t know exsisited and so am I!  She has told me that she is in therapy and will do her best to get back on track, I just let her know that I’m here for her and that I love her, that she is not disposable!

To those of you that had sent prayers our way, please keep them coming, she has a long road ahead of her and there is so much power in prayer.  Peace, and God Bless!!

I will try to be in in touch with everyone as soon as I can…I have had so much happening in my personal life it has been a tough go.  I’m still hitting the weights 1st and foremost, I will not let anything interfere with that!  I’ve worked too hard to get here!

I will start posting my workouts again as soon as I have the time.  If you don’t hear from me right away it’s not that I’m not thinking about you…it’s that my time is limited.  So know that I do check on my fav people to see what ur up too!  Have a fantastic Monday!!!    Peace