lisawannadance’s BodyBlog

For the record, if you dont know me well, allow me to fill you in a lil bit……..

I seriously have the worst luck out of anybody you will ever meet in your lifffffe. Im talkin bad luck with EVERYTHING. Cars, money, dancing, work, men, family, friends, timing……EVERYTHING! It is amazing that 1……….i am still alive. (hahahah) and 2……….i have gotten as far as i have in life. Everything i have ever gotten and everything i have now, i have worked my butt off for. FATE and LUCK, do not apply to me. Nothing has ever jus fallen out of the sky and landed in my hands, i have busted ass for every last bit of everything i got.

As some of you know…i have recently been having back problems. Let me go ‘head an tell you why……

Awhile ago on a dance gig, i tweaked somethin in my lower back. (ok…it happens to everybody). It was a slight ache for the longest time. Then the ONE NIGHT that it snows here and roads are bad, who gets in an accident? …Of course I do! Since then snows been gone and its been relatively nice. …Of course it has! It came for its one day to handle its bizness wit me and it was gone. Anyway…..that accident made my injury worse. Turns out i tweaked my sciatic nerve. And do you know why i tweaked my sciatic nerve and can’t even walk normal? …Thats right, because I had a very important audition to go to! Of freakin course this would happen to me, does every muf***in time! I usually am pretty good bout finding ways round these "bad luck" incidences, but unfortunately…..not this time. I am too banged up to go to the gym and the studio, i jus wont be ready in time.

I am extremely bummed. I was really wanting this. Out of my whole dancing career and everything i have ever done, this is the one thing i have always wanted to do the most. A huge tour with a big named artist. And that alone would open up so many other doors for me.

I have fought many battles, i have had my heart broken, and i have learned to deal wit rejection over time. I get over things so unbelievably fast now days. But jus because i get over it, doesnt mean i still cant cry over it. Im tired of hearing the phrase "shit happens". Dont tell me that! Thats my goddamned life motto. You think i dont know that already!?  …….Bring on the shit! Cuz i’ve come to accept it.

Shit happens quite often, im a spittin image of that. And yes, emotions will kick in. It really does help. Cry! Hit a wall! Drop kick your cat! Do whatever you need to do…..then get the hell over it!

It all jus makes me push harder. My next auditions in March, and as God is my witness……i WILL make that one. I dont give a crap if i gotta roll up onto that stage in a wheelchair an jus nod my head an wiggle my arms. There will be some dancin goin on!

Now if you’ll excuse me, emotions are flairing….i need to go punt me a kitty….

(hhahaha jk)