Updates
In the last week the number on the scale has grown . . . like a good 5 pounds. I’ve been sticking to my clean, high-protein diet, continuing to take the EFA’s and glutamine, and switched to a different creatine supplement. I can see a difference in my arms and back that I like and I feel really broad in the shoulders. The other day I felt kinda gross though. Kinda like a man. My clothes are a little more snug and my chest has grown. Now I’m wondering when enough is enough. I didn’t want to do a competition until July or August and if I’m dieting for 16 weeks before that, it leaves me a little confused about the next 7 weeks or so. Do I continue to bulk? I think the answer is yes, but I need to be better about it. I need to cut my cheat day to just one meal and I need to be committed to cardio 5 days a week. I’m proud of myself for fixing my diet and sticking to it, now I need to stick to the rest of it.
I think I might to go the the LA FitExpo and NPA Figure comp this coming weekend. I wish I had someone who would enjoy going with me, but for now I’m going this path alone. It’s funny, this last weekend I was showing my girlfriends and their boyfriends some figure competition pictures from Oxygen magazine and you could tell they thought it was kinda weird and not sexy. My boyfriend even said, "I didn’t know it was like THAT". The thing is, I really don’t care what they think. I think it is sexy. In fact, I even think that girl, Chyna Doll, the former wrestler and current reality star, is DAMN HOT. I like the idea of women being strong and powerful. I know some people think it’s gross, but I just don’t care. (have I repeated myself enough times 
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I am having trouble finding competitions in Southern California. I must not be searching correctly. I’ll have to pull out my video that breaks down all the organizations and google them. I hope I can find a competition in the months that are convenient for me . . . I don’t really think it would be cool to have a competition-style fake-tan while teaching 5 year-olds. I might scare them
Here’s something I’ve been confused about . . . I read women’s posts that say they leg press 4,5,600 pounds. I can do about 7-8 reps of 230 maximum. And I’m not even bending as far as I feel I could or should. I think my legs are pretty big and muscular just naturally. I’m a little hesitant to work them too hard or heavy for fear of making them overpower my upper body. But seriously, how do these women do it? And their legs don’t look like they could handle that weight at all! Is there a secret or something? Or maybe I just shouldn’t worry about shooting for 400 pounds? I squatted 130 on the smith the other day . . . is that good? Legs confuse me!!
The stomach is calling, time for some fuel
February 10, 2008 at 2:43 am
dont worry about feeling like a man you look good keep on keepin on. you are sayin you wanna keep bulking but losing fat. dont over kill on the cardio 30min is plenty any more you could start burning muscle. i am tryin to do the same thing you are lose fat but bulk up at the same time. i dont get any chance to do cardio cause i am in iraq and i know that will help when i get back. but i am doing fine with gaining mass and suprisingly i still feel lean but i can tell i am getting bigger. what other kinda leg workouts do you do. there is nothing wrong with big strong legs they should be alot stronger than upper body its a huge muscle group. keep up with the heavy weight. i love working legs im no personal trainer but i can share with you what i know if you would like.
February 10, 2008 at 2:53 am
I don’t know about you, but when I switched to a new creatine I got bloated like you would not beleive. I think the creatine was working so hard at trying to pull water into mu muscles that it may have just stuck. The first week I started on creatine I put on about 5 pounds of which probably 3 was water. I don’t know if the same thing goes for you.
Good Lick finding a show to do. I live in Montana where they don’t even have show, and the ones they have are set up by the gym owners who compete in them (Set Ups). I try to go to at least one show a year (Usually the Olympia), but this year I would really like to go to the Shawn Ray Colorado Pro. I guess the expo compares with the Arnold. I can never find anyone who wants to go with me either. My brother used to love bodybuilding, but he has recently lost interest so I will probably be flying solo too.
February 17, 2008 at 1:09 pm
Ooh, yeah, Montana . . . that would be hard since you’d you have to travel far to do any shows. I guess I shouldn’t be complaining. I did find some shows in Orange County, so that’s good. I’m not sure about the bloating from my creatine. I do know it causes me bloat right after I take so I don’t take it before the gym. I guess it’s not so bad to gain some weight . . . I am bulking.