Mom’s BodyBlog

Off to a short break 4N4D to neighboring country. I know it will be mostly walks, walks & walks …water world, zoo, shopping… so I am gonna challenge myself to eat cleaner than all my previous holidays! 

Let’s see what next week brings!!

You are so right! I kept a stricter watch on my diet and found out that the layer of fat that was there is melting though very slowly.  Well, what do I expect when I am not doing much workouts?  Good thing is although I still get nauseated from time to time after switching to current anti-depressant, this one allows me to get on with daily routines which I have nothing to complain about.  I believe my metabolic rate has somewhat picked up although I also found out yesterday I was NOT wrong in NOT pushing workouts yet.  I was rearranging furniture as well as scrubbed down a bathroom, vacuumed & mopped two rooms.  I was close to collapsing.  At least I found out my threshold for now. 

I have also accepted for now I need slightly bigger pants so as not to get depressed each time my pants won’t go past my FAT thighs so I got some.  It is pretty tricky trying to balance all these little details.  I don’t want to do anything hasty cos the fall will be harder.  yeah, I will work out but I WILL NOT let myself get upset if I am unable to.  At least for now I have to give myself a little lee way and slowly build up my strength again.

YES, I am a STUBBORN woman & no, neither depression nor fat is gonna get in my way!!!! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=et_ifrIG2Ls

Has anyone tried this out?  Does it really work? Need feedback….

I picked up one yesterday.  It does feel good, though.

My number 1 girl turns 10.  I can hardly believe that it has been 10 years since I first became a mother to a tiny little baby girl who was given to me.  I had no idea how to be a mother first of all and I had to get instant training.  Picked baby from the authorities and went straight to my parents’ home where I left her to stay for a month.  I went there daily and took care of her under the supervision of my mother.  Mom made me take her home during weekends and the first weekend was the longest weekend I ever knew.  A helpless little baby and an equally "helpless" gullible mother!!  

To think I have been a mother for a decade now. It is such a strange feeling.  And to celebrate it, I went out and got myself a piece of new equipment.  A leg trainer. 

In the evening I installed a basket ball hoop for the birthday girl.  It takes only 4 wall plugs but during those couple of hours I missed my dad so much!  He was the one who showed me the ropes in jobs like these.  I used an impact drill for the first time and installed the wall plugs the first time.  I didn’t know how to do it.  There were some brief instructions on the holding carton but not much help.  As a result I damaged the first plug I hammered in.    From the time I couldn’t get the drill to make a real hole, I racked my mind to try remember….and then recalled , " start with a smaller drill. make a smaller hole before using a bigger drill to get the size you need."  No short cuts.  I tried  using the biggest drill bit at first but it just made a dent. LOL!  I finally got the whole thing up! 

p.s. Current anti depressant seems to work…fingers & toes all crossed!!

The delivery guys came by to deliver a box of printer toner I ordered online today.  Damn!! They addressed me as "Aunty".  Hmm… do I look anything like that, I wonder?

What a day!! I switched over to a different anti-depressant  today.  The side effects haven’t really set in yet but I am already suffering withdrawal from the previous anti-depressant.  Brain zaps. Disorientation. Numbing headache.  Why , I almost slammed into the back of a truck while driving.  Wonder why I didn’t notice it when it was right in front of me???!!  Nope, I am not gonna drive the rest of today.  Too scary cos I did lose control o fthe car a few times as well as drove on when it wasn’t my right of way!!  PHEW!!

To top it off, little one said to me, "No matter what you say, I am gonna watch tv!" Stubborn , like her ol’ Ma here…." 

I took a picture (again) today.  I was surprised that it turned out pretty well and it is on my profile for now.  And today, I also made an appointment to see my psychiatrist.  Before I can even tell him my findings why I am putting on weight he goes on to tell me I probably am too tired out by the sedating effects of the current anti-depressant to be able to work out like I used to.  And he wants me to try out yet another anti-depressant which I start tomorrow.  I don’t know what to expect.  Neither do I want to imagine what would happen.  A wee bit skeptical.  A bit worried but nevertheless life has to go on and I have to try my best to make the best out of it!

Was pretty down the past week or so cos of body weight issues.  I was ready to blame everything around.  The anti-depressants -yeah…it MAY BE just it!.  My tight & hectic schedule -hey, if you don’t make time for yourself, who is?   My food intake -ok, I just found out after a big roundabout that I am consuming just about enough for me to get on each day.. meaning, nope I didn’t over eat as I initially though I was.  I actually sat down and calculated calories intake & output and hey, hey, surprise! I am not eating very much but neither was I burning enough calories to lose those stubborn lbs.  Sure I run around each day but the fuel is just enough for "normal" daily routines and not enough for working out.  Alright, the medication is probably making me more tired than ever.  So? I just have to fight back, right?  I am not gonna make any promises to anyone , not even myself until I am in the position to do so.  Meanwhile I took some pics, yeah took a peek at the scales and finally picked up my guts to take measurements.  And boy, was I relieved to find out that the measurements weren’t THAT bad except for my thunder thighs.  Must be a result of not walking a few times a week since I switch medication.  Still , I have no excuses as I DO have an orbitrac & a mini stepper.  So I am back on my stepper while ironing & folding the laundry. Yes, I mean it.  It is possible, with the ironing board raised to the maximum height.  What better way to multi task!

That was what little almost 7 year old said when she saw these.  She gave me a knowing smile…"They look like …p-e-…." I replied,"That big?"  She immediately whispered back, "I mean there are big ones, right?"

But still I know I won’t be satisfied to hide my body under tents.  I really dunno how, but I have to find a way out of this rut!

pics look Ok… Skin glows.. Mind in much better place… Just that my scales r going the wrong direction. I’m feeling so down!