Mom’s BodyBlog

I washed & waxed my other car..to make sure I made up burning calories since they are both not very big!!! 

How many calories burned in a manual car wash complete with waxing & internal vacuuming & upholstery cleanup?    I did it all in one afternoon and although I must say I am extremely exhausted, I am glad I managed!  Yes, I still am feeling nauseous but I just kept myself going.   Stubborn "old" woman!!! Ha ha… and Yay!!!

Not all things bad, are bad.  Good do come out of bad, too.  I make it a point to see that.  I have been in a torture the past few weeks and the worst were the past few days.  Over side effects, over being unable to workout…

I knew I hit a plateau where my weight is concerned sometime back.  It simply refuses to go down.  I am not hoping that my weight goes down to where I started on a profile on BS …hmm…that was the peak of depression and struggling against side effects, too over the previous anti depressant.  Anyway, today I was pleasantly surprised that instead of going up, my weight actually is down by more than 1 lb.  No great significance but I am trying to see the light of things here..    And although I can’t be sure how accurate my weighing scale is ( I have read about how inaccurate weighing scales are in calculating bf%) my bf has dropped a bit ,too. 

Exasperated to a point of frustration, I insisted my daughters to help me tidy up.  Trying to confine them to one level of the house…of course they came up with the usual excuses. "Mom, I need a drink, " said No. 1.  "Ok, make it quick."  Then little one piped, "Can I have an ice lolly?"  I didn’t answer.  She announced, "I am going to have an ice lolly."  Being one who is always short of liquids, I didn’t protest.  Even an ice lolly is better than no water at all.  After a long while, I went down to check.  No. 1 was actually looting the cupboard attempting to bring more books into their bedroom.  And No. 2…. was sitting at the dinner table in the kitchen with her legs propped up high on the table exposing her undies under her skirt, enjoying her fast melting ice lolly.  I tried to look stern but I was amused at the sight.  It does look a lot like a pic off bb.com’s main page!! LOL!!!  OMG if only she knew what went across my mind! My baby girl.  She was quick to say, "Mommy, you are GRINNING!!"  She knows when mom grins, it is always good.  That she was not that mad at them  and especially not at her anymore.

OK I managed to clean one level of the house.  I am close to fainting cos today is somewhat a repeat of yesterday, with cold sweats up to a threshold but today I pushed myself a little harder than yesterday.:)

For me, this is also time where friendships are put to test.  No one likes to be around a wet blanket.

If you have suffered clinical depression, you will know what I am talking about.  To a lot of people, we - the sufferers, the patients, the ones who are unlucky enough to have the dreaded depression & its cousins and kins, WE ARE A BUNCH OF "FEELING-SORRY-FOR-OURSELVES"  PEOPLE.

But our side of the story, if we pluck enough courage to talk about it, it most likely would save our lives.  For me , it did.  For if I didn’t, I would have carried out some horrendous hit job on myself.  No jokes here.  I speak for myself.  When I slip into the verge of giving up, I have no doubt many of you have seen some of my blogs which I have removed since, there was real danger lurking.  This time round, I am nowhere near that danger I talk about.  But I must say the suffering is real, especially when the side effects get too much and there were many times the past few weeks I wanted to trash the anti depressants yet at the back of my mind knowing I cannot afford to.  It is pure torture.  I know I will get through it but I don’t know how much longer it will take.  I just wish it would be quick! 

I want to get well

I want to get out of bed tomorrow morning

I want to get back to my routine of working out

I want my life back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so exasperated with how things are turning out. 

With medication settling in, I am in the mood for some naughty fun.  More of a hypothesis.  If I was available and looking, would there be anyone interested?  LOL

The ad would look something like this

WANTED

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A MAN -MUST BE CONSIDERATE,LOVING  & FINANCIALLY STABLE

MARITAL STATUS : SINGLE/DIVORCED

SPECIAL NOTE : MUST BE AT LEAST 5′11" TALL

IMPORTANT : MAIN "PACKAGE" COMES WITH "EXCESS BAGGAGES"

p.s. Let’s just face it , I am bored stiff right now….

:)

But I think the medication is finally working although I do feel a lot more tired & look tired more often than not.  But at least I can smile now.

I am keeping my fingers & toes crossed.  So far I am responding well to the additional dosage of Luvox.  At least it is not that hard getting out of bed.  Side effects?? Doesn’t seem as though there is any major ones for now.  Only feelings of anxiety every now and then as well as light headedness.  That is so minor compared to what I had been going through.  I do feel a bit more productive today although I totally forgot   I was supposed to collect my little girl’s multivits at the hospital.  Must go & get it tomorrow.

Yesterday I took Cosy & Furry to the vet for their routine de-worming & vitamin dose.  Both cats now at about 6 months old weigh 3.2kg (more than 7 lbs) each.  These cats were raised by me from the time they were a few days old when I picked them as strays. I was concerned Cosy had a bulging belly and wondered if she’s pregnant.  Vet asked if I heard any cat calls.  Nope, I said but my little girl had told me she saw a pink thing at Furry’s "private part".  So, the vet sketched the cat’s penis and asked little one if that was what she saw.  She nodded shyly and said it looked like a "star-fish" .

It was only today I thought about the incident.  There I was at the vet’s with my little girls and his nurse was nowhere to be seen.  And we were talking about the cat’s male organ and about mating.  What a dingbat I was!!!  I wonder what the vet thought I was trying to do!!! Boy, am I embarrassed now that I think of it all.

And just the other day when I wrote in my blog about not liking being called a "hot ass" and I got some remarks as to how to describe my cats…. yeah, nice pussy, cute kitty…

On a more serious note, we have to find a good home for Dot & Spot.  I cannot cope with 4 cats & 2 girls turning the house upside down.  And kitty poop STINKS!!!!  Despite maintaining the litter box a few times daily.   I am reluctant to give them away since they are part of the family but with my condition with medication and all, I think kitty poop will drive me insane!!!