Mom’s BodyBlog

I am trying to see if my theory works.  You see most of the time when a particular person with a bs here visits my bs, one or more of my pictures get taken off.  Yeah, you are right…that person seems to be keeping tabs on me and reporting on me.  I have more or less narrowed down to a certain person and I want to find out for myself if I am right.  As far as I am concerned, I don’t think I have anymore “unsavory” pictures on my bs but still I get the feeling I am being “watched” by some “voluntary police”…definitely not people from the BS Admin.

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I got up early this morning to go for my usual 5 km walk.  I did a brisk 3 km yesterday so I was looking forward to another brisk one today.  Turns out ( I still do not know why…) after I made my shake & packed some muffins for my girl friend & her kids in a zipper bag, I almost blacked out.  Nauseous, and barely conscious, I couldn’t even send my girls to school.  I went back to bed.  Didn’t have any other choice cos I couldn’t even hold myself up awake. At just past 8 am I received a phone call from the office.  After attending to it, I dozed off again.  After about an hour or so I got yet another call from the office.  Took the call and noted the task.  You would think by then I would be ready jump out of bed after being awoken.  Nay!  I promptly fell asleep again!!  Only managed to drag myself up at about 1030 am.

I haven’t felt so bad for such a long time.  The anti-depressants really "gave" it to me last night.  One of the side effects is that there would be lots of dreams.  Unfortunately for me, the series of dreams I had was rather unpleasant and the worst part about them was that it continued on each time I fell asleep.   And there wasn’t really anything I could do about falling asleep.  I was just so weak and knocked out.

So today was a rather unsettling day.  Cos when I finally got out of bed, I found out that my darling cats had "ambushed" the muffins in the zipper bag & brought it to their "room" for a feast.  Now we all know cats don’t care for sweet stuff. Each & every one of the muffins had their tops  nibbled off.  Consolation was …they knew I was mad at them…grounded them in their room for the day after I cleaned the mess.  And the mess was confined to their room only.  Thank goodness!!!

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In less than 2 weeks I turn 40.  I must admit I am quite nervous about it.  And although I have had 3 people yesterday & another 2 people surprised that I am approaching 40 so soon & they insist I do not look it at all.  Perhaps it is my approach to life nowadays.  Two guys commented "yeah, they know I have kids" cos my girls go everywhere with me but they never expected me to be "that" age.  Plus they also said I have lost weight over the years.  (If only they knew…that it wasn’t pure hard work!!)

Hey all of you 40 up…what is it like over there?  Is it really the new 20s?? 

THIS SATURDAY 28 MARCH AT 8.30PM YOU CAN VOTE EARTH BY SWITCHING OFF YOUR LIGHTS FOR ONE HOUR.

I believe I have just done my part willing or not.  Not at the precise time but rather from 9 am till well past 5 pm today we had no power supply!!  The substation in front of the house blew up and repairs took forever to restore the supply to the area.  So what did I do since everything I need to do seems to rely on electricity.  I couldn’t even do the laundry!  So I decided to scrub & wash my little girls’ socks ….by hand. sigh….I know it is no big deal but I am allergic to washing detergent.  Then my elder girl asked if we could wash the cars.  So there!  We washed two cars between us.  Good cardio and great bonding.    As we were getting done, the power supply resumed and here I am at my desktop before I hit on my orbitrac.  I am already soaking with sweat so I might as well sweat out more!! LOL

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I have been feeling a lot better mentally than I have for quite a while.  Reason being, I changed my routine.  No, I am not working out more.  But instead I am spending more quality time with my girls.  Not very much more than usual but rather doing things together instead of doing things for them.  Like the time I first attempted to make "diet" bread from a box.  They didn’t really like squishy dough stuck on their fingers but they enjoyed the fact that they get to "help" mummy with kneading the dough and watching the dough rise.  Today I tried making white bread from scratch with a recipe off the internet.  Not because I want to have white bread but because my little girl said she wanted "soft" bread and not "hard" bread like the one I made days ago.  Her eyes lit up when I told her I was going to make them today.  She then confided that she likes me to make bread cos she knows I am making it for her & her sister.  In other words, she was trying to tell me she appreciate my efforts.  I let her knead and "throw" the dough  about.  We had fun.  She checked on the dough rising.  She was excited when it was finally out of the oven.  And although she apologetically said it wasn’t as good as the ones from the bakery, she ate quite a bit of it.  It wasn’t that bad, lol.  It was actually good.  But I guess it just wasn’t sweet enough for her…she loves buns which has higher fat & sugar content…and I didn’t allow her to flavor her bread with too much salt…yeah she loves salt!!  I think she was disappointed it wasn’t "square" slices cos I don’t even own a loaf pan!!  She did say she wanted me to make soft sandwich bread    Her sister on the other hand finally told me she was happy mummy knows to make bread and that she liked both the high fiber bread I made the other day as well as the white bread today. 
And even if I still do not lose the weight I am trying to lose….there is always tomorrow ….or next week.. what is important now is that there are smiles on my little girls’ faces and my mental state of mind. 

p.s. little girls said ( a little sadly ) that they wished I would make cookies….and cupcakes.. 

Please don’t blame my punching bag (refer to my previous blog).  It was just hanging there idle.  I haven’t been lifting heavy either.  I don’t know if it has anything to do with Lexapro which I have been on for more than a year already.  The pain just gets worse when it is cold & wet.  

All my fingers (joints) have been hurting lately but the most painful one is the right fourth finger.  Hurts bad when I clench, not too bad when  I stretch my fingers.  Simply can’t put a finger to what is wrong.  Yesterday I had a go at the punching bag hoping it would relieve the pain.  Turns out it helped a bit.  The pain runs all the way close to my elbow when it does hurt bad.  The rest of my fingers are much better except that one.  Does this indicate anything more serious?  Would appreciate advice.  Thanks!

Before I started training my body for a better tone & shape as well as equipping myself against depression, I never took exercise seriously but after doing it for more than a year and seeing the difference in my body and my mental health I think there is no turning back for me.  I begin to look around myself and seeing a whole new generation of younger but unhealthier people.  People who would spend lots of money investing in fashionable clothes as well as the most elaborate makeup & hairdos but not caring what they eat nor how portly they look.  I am serious!! These are the 20 plus people.  I feel sorry for these people cos they do not seem to appreciate what they have been given.  Fine bone structure, glowing complexion, youth…

Just two days ago I read in the newspaper someone I know just passed away leaving a wife & two young children.  He was 42.  He died of a brain tumor.  I suppose it isn’t his fault for having the tumor but what about those who do not care about what they consume?  Those who do not even bother to take a flight of stairs but instead use the elevator?  Those who do not want to walk cos it is too hot under the sun and drive instead even though it is just a block away?

What is it with these young people??

Of course at the same time, I am happy to note there are those who exercise even though it is purely for vanity’s sake.  Those young boys of 14 or 16 into body building cos they want to look good.  For even though they may have started it with reasons of less substance they eventually make it so much part of their life that they carry on doing it….

What am I getting at?  Just ramblings, my friends… Just getting my thoughts off my chest…. making conversation… but honestly it does irk me to see a much younger person with physique worse off than mine….

As for mine, I know I have much room for improvement ….yeah…I am on my way….still working hard… 

Looks like my metabolic rate has gone hair wired.  I was told I should eat more times but smaller portions.  I don’t eat that much.  Neither do I eat many times.  Perhaps that is what is wrong.  I am trying to eat more often now but smaller portions.  It wasn’t making much sense cos I wasn’t taking much carbs.  Maybe that is another thing I am doing wrong.  Too little carbs.  Of course it doesn’t help to have two little finicky eaters….I end up having to eat what they prefer…unless….unless I have more determination to prepare a separate set of food for myself….(sigh) as if I don’t have enough to do each day.

Hey, you busy people who have school going kids & cats underfoot, how do you do it?  Not to forget working for a living and having no domestic help at home.  No sitters.