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My hair finally stopped dropping & there’s new growth. I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel, just that now it is further off. These few weeks are really trying for me as well as tiring. Now that I am well into withdrawal, I could feel something was wrong. No, I didn’t imagine it. I did some things I wasn’t supposed to do. (No, I am not telling.) I could tell I was out of control especially where my extremely short fuse is concerned. Last night my little 6 year old told me I should start taking my medicine again. That time , I brushed her aside. But later the night, after numerous other unpleasant incidents, I made up my mind I wasn’t going into relapse and that I had to check matters out with my psychiatrist. Turns out that everything seems to be timed. He said to go back on half dose…5 mg Lexapro for a week and see if it is sufficient. If it is I stay on that for 3-6 months. If it wasn’t enough, I would need to have it upped to 10 mg….the original dosage… As though like clock work ( I hadn’t even started meds then…) by afternoon my body gave way. It was horrible…I had spasms like earlier this year when I was first treated. Then nausea got really bad…so bad that I, who do not really believe in afternoon siestas had to lie down..not to sleep but to get over the spinning. And yeah, I was shaking like a leaf…goes to show me how drug addicts suffer on withdrawal.
The kitchen sink is overflowing with dirty dishes waiting to be loaded into the dish washer…but no…I am not gonna do it today….maybe tomorrow.
Tomorrow I have made up my mind to work out whether I am tired or not. I know I definitely do not have the strength to do a proper workout but I’ve gotta to do what I’ve gotta do!!
And I know for the next few weeks, I have to be even stronger cos the antidepressant is gonna cause havoc for me. Plus, I would have to be mildly tranquilized during the day cos the anxiety attacks are getting worse & more frequent.
October 3, 2008 at 8:15 am
stay strong. we are here for you through good and bad.
October 3, 2008 at 8:17 am
You know, have you ever tried anything natural? I don’t know what you were told you had, but when I was 35 I was having hot flashes, mood swings, depressed, etc. My doctor told me she could put me on 4 different meds or take my girl parts. I said, no way. Why is it doctor’s always push drugs. They don’t seem to look beneth the surface. So, a friend who was an Arbonne rep talked me into trying their natural progestrone cream, after about 2 weeks, I no longer had hot flashes, my mood improved (I did not lash out at my 9 year old for no reason any more), and I was not tired any longer and got my drive back. It worked for me, not sure it would in your situation, but worth checking out. Since that time, I decided to become a wholesale buyer to get the product cheaper. I am not trying to push the products, but it did help me.
Also, my neighbor had the problem with her hair falling out all the time recently. She started taking a good vit and flaxseed oil. When she takes those, her hair does not fall out. She could not buy it for 4 weeks and the problem returne, so she realized she need to keep taking them. Good vits and Not from Walmart. You would want to go to GNC.
Anyway, all I am saying is that our hormones do a lot of stuff to our bodies. Doctors always want to put us on meds that give us a ton more problems. If you are interested in just getting more information, let me know. I can email you a buch of info. that is back by a doctor on natural progrestrone cream- he even wrote a book about it.
Good luck in the meantime!!
October 3, 2008 at 12:27 pm
Working out may boost your endorphins and help with your overall mood. Hope you get to feeling better soon and glad you are getting help!
Fazer