lil_death’s BodyBlog

So, I did nothing Thursday evening… like absolutely nothing.  I was so debilitated by anxiety that I had gone straight to bed after I came home from work.  I brought it upon myself, though, otherwise, I’d probably have no anxiety to deal with… other than the usual I deal with on a day to day basis.

At any rate, I felt good enough on Friday to get at least 40 min on the treadmill, but didn’t get the chance to lift.  Nor did I get the chance to lift or do more cardio on Saturday and Sunday was a bit of walking outside, but not much of it.  Too cold.  Couldn’t lift as my basement is all topsy-turvy due to my mother’s insane idea of starting a licensed day-care… bullshit.

So, I’m hoping this week will be a better week.  We’ll see.

Yes indeedy I am.  Which is great.  Eating was OK… still clean, though… not meeting requirements.  Workouts are GREAT!  After having driven close to an hour to CT, I ate a meal, digested a bit and spoke with Marcus, and left to lift and do some cardio.  Which I did, thank you very much.  I had done legs and shoulders, then proceeded to do my 40 min on the treadmill.

I went home feeling accomplished and STARVING.  )  Needless to say, it was great.

Saturday, the same!  However, it took me a little while to get motivated, so I was only able to bang out 30 min on the treadmill… better than nothing.

Overall, I’m getting there… still trying to meet meal and water requirements on the weekends.

So, it seems weight gain for me is inevitable these days.  I just still find it very strange that I can easily gain fat and water since after my surgery.  After having seen the surgeon and having blood work done, nothing reveals anything to be wrong.  However, when I visited with my homeopathics specialist, he did state my metabolism was slow.  Next visit, I’m going to have to bring up that whatever he’d given me isn’t really working anymore.  I mean, I used to gain a few lbs off season, but all I had to do was clean up my diet and I would lose just fine.   Not to this time… I clean up my diet and I’m still either gaining water, or something.

At any rate, last night I made a point to get my workout in before heading out to see Watchmen with a friend.  However, when I got home, I wasn’t feeling the greatest… could be nervousness, or anxiety.  Once I felt a little better, I had my shake and banana and headed down for 40 min at 4.5 on the treadmill.  I never got the chance to lift, because once I was done, I had to shower and head out.  I even thought I may have had the chance to lift when I got home, but the movie turned out to be like 3 hours long.  Not a biggie.  I plan on going to Cardio Express today and getting my cardio and lifting in.

Still trying to hit 3 liters of water…

… on track.  I need to start posting on here.  Seemed to be the only way to motivate.  I really have nothing going on aside from work, so I should have no excuse… well, my nephew is staying over a lot lately, and he’s more active these days.  He’s almost one!  Just a few more days!  So, when he’s over, I pay attention to him.  Then, lose motivation for actually working out and eating "right".  Not that I eat unhealthy, I really don’t, but I haven’t eaten like I used to.  I used to eat less protein powder and more chicken, fish, etc. with veggies.  Gotta start doing that and stop being so freakin lazy about it.

So my agenda for today… well, my meals aren’t where I"d like them to be so it’ll be the usual protein powder and oatmeal for breakfast and snack, tilapia and broccoli for lunch, protein and veg for snack (maybe egg whites if I get the chance to eat them before my work out), 40 min treadmill, muay thai (maybe… depends how my shoulder feels… trainer likes the bag on Wednesdays… I hate it), weight lifting immediately after… maybe before… I should probably do it before, but it sucks going to kickboxing after… hmmm…  And hitting 3 liters of water today.

Wish me luck!  Oh, gotta call my friend Marcus as well.