lcamino’s BodyBlog

I love the dizzy feeling I get when I get a good pump.  I guess the nox-plode helps a little, but a great high.  I ‘ve been working hard, but still struggle with my balance issues. I don’t know if surgery would bring a greater sense of connectivity with my left side.  Who cares really, I am seeing results and getting stronger.  I wonder how many people have the same experience.  It is pretty strange some days.   I think I feel best in the gym, so I will put off the surgery as long as possible, maybe forever.

I definitely notice a size difference.  Arms and shoulders are more full.  Maybe I am just a little fat.  I had a few cheat days in a row and haven’t done any significant cardio in a wekk.  It’s been too f’n hot in NY.  And if it isn’t hot, it’s raining cats and dogs.  I gotta live sometime.

I had a great workout today.  It was back and bis.  For the first time in a very long time, I felt even.  No fade in my left side whatsoever.  I know each day is hit or miss, but what a great feeling.  I tried a little "Super Pump"  Maybe that had something to do with it.  Only time will tell.

I get very excited every time I feel a little something.  I did some heavy pulldowns, really concentrating on getting a full stretch.  And there it was, a little twinge of action on my left side.  It has been so hard to get the muscles on my left side to fire.  So, with a little confidence I hit it pretty hard.  Hopefully, I won’t pay for it with some neck pain tomorrow.  Who cares.  I miss the feeling of that great pump.  I used to be extremely back dominant, maybe I can get a lttle of that back.  I am very excited.  Very excited.  Maybe there is still hope without surgery.

Well, I reached some of my goals for the 4th of July.  I hit my weight, but not my bf.  I went on vacation and gained seven pounds in 4 days. 4 days of drinking and eating badly quickly took their toll.  By the third day the changes in my body were quite apparent in the photos.  So now it is back to work.  I don’t know whether I can do it or not, but I want to put some size back on and continue to drop the body fat.  I will just continue to pound away even though I can’t really feel it as well as I would like.  I am sure the weight will come right off, a few gallons of water and I am sure it will disappear.  Gonna try some different supplementation, don’t what yet.  It is time to set some new goals.

Every day gets better and better.  I suppose there was nowhere to go but up.  Less pain and soreness in my neck, but I still have a hard time getting an even response from my left side.  Getting leaner, but probably not going to hit my BF goal by next week.  I won’t let myself get too disouraged.  I have made a lot more progress than I tought I would ever be able to again ever.  The endurance is increasing as is the strength.  I am just trying to keep up with my girlfriend’s progress, she is kicking my ass.  How humbling is that?

I am down about twelve pounds.  I am starting to look more fit than scrawny.  The weights aren’t picking up, but blood volume is.  I get a good pump at least.  I’ve been hitting it pretty hard and not feeling too much pain in the neck.  I get more stiff than sore.  Pre-exhaustion seems to be my best route.  I have been doing a lot of giant sets and drop sets.  The endurance is picking up, but the left side wants to fade with heavy weights.  I should probably give up on the idea of reganing any real mass.  Maybe I should try and look more Mens Health than Muscular Development.  It is hard to let go of the quest for mass.  The psychological battle is the hardest now.

Just finished my shoulder workout and I feel great.  I know my neck will be sore tomorrow.  I just can’t seem to feel a pump on the left.  But the muscles are feeling a little harder, even if they still don’t look the way  I would like.  I just keep telling myself babysteps.  As I get older I hope I will learn patience, but just haven’t found that zen frame of mind. I tried upright rows tonight, not too bad really.  With me, the true test is tomorrow morning when I wake up.  We will just have to see.  I dropped to 212 lbs. doing 40-50 min of cardio everyday.  I keep going back to the gym, so I still have hope.

Feeling the results of just a few good workouts and I am already down 4 lbs.  My left side is a little stubborn.  It doesn’t always want to respond.  I don’t know how many others have felt a similar feeling, but it is like I am using someone else’s arm.  The weight doesn’t necessarily feel heavy, the muscle just doesn’t seem to want to fire all the time.  My chest workout was ok, I just feel a little lopsided as I go through it.  Did some bench dips with no problem, however, I have a hard time with real ones.  I go up really crooked.  All in all, the workouts have been better than they have in a long time.  I can’t seem to shred myself the way I used to.  You know the feeling when you have nothing left.  I think I will try some preloading to really get at the muscles tomorrow.

Just got back from the gym.  I feel amazingly good.  I still get a little worried with presses.  Thank God for muscle memory.  I used to have an overpowering upper back, now my front is starting to pull me forward into a slouch.  That’s the last thing I need.  As humbling as my workouts can be, I’ve got to keep my head up.  Literally.  I got a pretty good pump, no strength though.  We will have to see how the neck feels tomorrow.