well im about 2 weeks out from first fitness photo shoot and have been on diet for 12 days as of today. The dieting is really stricked, hard and i have found myself many a time, falling apart crying and uncontrollable thoughts and fears running through my mind. there is nothing that can prepare you for dieting and i have found out, whatching my girl friends diet last year for there comps i thought yeah.. i got this!! no probs!!
WRONG!!!.
family dont understand and it is easy to stay away from them, i have a small network of great chics that i train with and we are all in contact all the time as we are all in the same boat!…with out these girls i wouldnt have gotten through the first week!… it makes it hard to being buy your self…. some nights i wished i just had someone to cuddle up to and sleep!! i find it really hard at night, sore , stiff and hungrey! and unable to sleep that it hurts.
well i have dropped off all my christmas weight plus some more and under 60kg which was my goal for about 2.5 years so im stoked with that. which means i have about 4kg to drop and im confident that it will come off. my head space is clearer now and i will at lest feel like i gave it every thing i had for the photo shoot…
next week i have "fit Camp" with Mel Zimmerman.. australian international fitness pro…she actually one of my mates and i particapated last year and will be going back this year as a transformed person!..
im off tomorrow to run stairs and get my ass kicked for about 3 hours, with low energy levels and a heavey heart and a self asteem as big as a peanut!….its going to hurt but it one step closer to becoming a PRO!!
so when i get my pics i’ll be using them..
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