Esan’s BodyBlog

Well now I ripped my damn shoulder.  I can still move my arm but can’t lift it too high or actually do anything with it.  I think it’s just muscular or ligament rippage but seem quite serious.  The doc’s ain’t gonna do anything like usual, so I don’t even see the point going to them, they’ll just prescribe pain killers.  So now i’m out again, I can possibly do legs and abs that’s about it.  But it’s chest I need to concentrate on dammit.

26 years wasted and my wrist is destroyed can’t use it AT ALL for anything!  How much am I gona lose this time that i’ve worked for?!

Back in action again.  Nothing much to report except my wrist has gone bad again and i got gum soreness from trying glutamine for the first time.  I figured out it was that due to Columbo detective work.  Glutamine can kiss my ass.  What a useless load of crap.  Didn’t do anything but give me a problem.  So forget it.

Deadlifting accident yesterday caused me to wreck my spine again.  Who knows why but I did back at the gym instead of my own gym yesterday and maxed out on deadlifts.  Now I already have a dodgy back so one moment lapse of concentration means dead meat.  It was going well and got to 5 and on the 6th rep I noticed a pair of idiots staring at me like they’ve never seen such a freak.  I didn’t realize i look that much of an abomination!  I mean it must have been that.  I was only deadlifting somewhere around 250lbs.  Although that’s a lot for me cause my spine is dodgy in the first place and i’m only 130lbs myself a tiny frame….  :-O  Thing is I know I can do more but the danger and the idea of six months off lying on a bed if something goes wrong isn’t a nice thing.  Anyway back to the two goons, I duno why I let it distract me but it did and then I thought damn better put it down cause it felt dangerous.  As I put it down I felt the pain of a cutting sword.  A familiar pain.  One I didn’t want to feel again!

When I woke up the next morning couldn’t even get out of bed.  But after a few hours forced myself up and walking, so it’s not as bad this time as the major issues of the past where I couldn’t walk, sit or stand for months on end and just had to spend them lying on a bed.  I’d crushed my vertabraes before and another time slipped a disc.  Those two were the ultimates, far beyond this.  I was on a bed for months those times.  Had a trapped nerve in spinal area recently too….  That was another month off….  :-S  Well these are the best explanations I could get.  Doctors here don’t do anything and don’t wana know as long as you can eat, sleep and slash they think that’s enough of a life.  Luckily last time I couldn’t walk for months my Hokuto No Ken box set helped me through and inspired me to recovery and buffing with more rage than ever.  Hah.

But anyway this time hope i’m not off too long.  It seems i’m so used to getting crippled that this pain which I know should incapacitate at least to some degree i’ve managed to force through and still do things.  So it seems i’m used to being crippled and can withstand it more than a regular person now.  Not that it’s a good thing.  It’s bad that i’ve had such experiences!  It’s just an observation, so i’m wondering what I can force myself to do even when in this state.  I duno when I can buff again though.  But atleast I walked around and tried some mowing today….  :-S

Wana try and buff tomorrow if I can get up in the morning.  But if it feels stupid like it’s gona be dangerous i’ll wait another day.  It’s a month off kinda injury but I wana see what happens if I try and force through the pain this time.

Maybe it’s a dumb idea but gona see what happens and see how I feel over the next few days.

Been back in action for over a week.  It’s going ok but lost a lot of strength naturally.

And now my backs popped today on top of the arm and wrist injuries.  And I haven’t even done anything but cardio for weeks, due the arm and wrist injuries stopping me using my arms at all, which means no upper body.  And did legs a few days ago and then a week prior.  That’s all, nothing that can affect the back, especially in the last few days.  WHY I ask WHY?!….!!!!….?!?!

Well right now my right arm is injured around the elbow to the extent that it is completely unusable.  And my left wrist is injured to the extent that it is also unusable.  So basically I can’t do anything involving arms, even mild stuff.  So it looks like a lot of legs and cardio until it heals.  That really ruins my routine though darn it.  I guess I need to lose some blubber though so maybe the cardio will be good.  I can’t even do fist stuff unless it’s just kicking.  Got some new stuff for my gym though a new heavier set of dumbells (45kg each / 99lbs each) yesterday, two commercial flat benches the day before and a gymnastics mat today.  Got almost everything I need now.  Just a few more items (and I need the injuries to heal) then i’m gona attack it with more brute force than ever.  Damn it just when I thought the back and ankle injuries were starting to improve this happens.  There’s always something.  Damn genetics, because my body isn’t naturally built to be that of a physical person.