kiszes’s BodyBlog

Jamaica (the caribbean), we had a hurricane warning yesterday so the last thing I make sure I did before the light went out was did my 45minutes exercise, I was so proud of myself. We had heavy showers of rain and lightening throughout the night and morning, there was no water and no light, I was getting scared for a minute that being today my seventh day, I will not be able to exercise as there was no light and the two crucial workouts that I do, are on the internet.

I was so excited in the evening when the light came back at approximately 5:00pm, I changed instantly and started working out, I was successful in completing my 45minutes and very very happy to say I have completed 1 week of exercise consistently.

I cannot begin to tell you how happy I am, because I am never good at completing a week when it comes to my diet and exercise its always off and on.

As a result, as of tomorrow I have decided to eliminate sugar out of my diet for the second week and still maintain my exericse, I dont care if I lose weight and then again I wont know as I dont have access to a scale. But I can say this for sure I am feeling so much better, I am not so lazy, lazy or cranky, cranky.

So I here I go into my second week of a healthier journey.

I am so very happy, I finally got internet at my new address. Looking forward to getting my life together. For a moment I started to believe it would never be fixed but surprisingly after such a long wait of trying and fighting to see some light at the end of the tunnel.

I must say not only did I receive my internet service today, but after 2 months trying so hard I finally got a job in which my first day is tomorrow.  I am looking forward to it as I have been trying hard for so long, the sad part of the story though is nothing fits and god bless the few pieces I will have to cram myself in to look presentable for the next three weeks because after that I will not look the same way I look now and I will not feel the same way I look now.

As Jordin Sparkes said in her song "One step at a time" and thats about what I am going to do to get my health and fitness in gear. Its a great feeling to be back. 

I got home last night and decided, I needed to workout before I hit the shower.

I was so upset with the decision that I hated myself the first twenty minutes of doing it, but you know what? I did it! had my shower after, get ready for the bed, felt great and had a great night sleep. I woke up this morning and decided I am going to sacrifice and work out in the morning before getting anything else done, at least it would be out of the way for the rest of the day.

I am feeling great right now, not because I exercised but because I get up off my rump and did not listen to that little inner man who keeps telling me to wait until later, tomorrow or next week to start exercising. This will be treated as my baby steps and I am going to take it making all the sacrifices I have to. I know after a while it will add up and I will see a difference.

I cant beleive it almost one month since I have been here, that reminds me how much I need to be more serious with my time instead of wasting it.

I got lazy and started eating more, exercising less if not at all. Then tuesday June 17, 2008, I walk off my job, it was a bad decision and a good one but looking at it now, I am going to see it in a positive light. Its a bad decision, because I left it and now I am unemployed but its a good one because to my surprise, I no longer crave sweets and I am not eating less each day, furthermore I am not as emotional as I use to be. Not that I am saying my job was the worst thing that ever happened to me but the truth is my diet and emotional status has changed for the better. Which is good so now I need to go job hunting.
But I am ok now, better than before, I started my exercise routine this morning.

Since last tuesday, I make sure I dont eat after 6pm and I cant begin to tell you how much better I feel, its unbeleivable how the few days of just cutting back on my night eating makes a huge difference.

For the last week and a half I have been putting off working out.

I woke up this morning not feeling like going to work, due to eating alot of junk, feeling depressed, feeling hopeless just wanted to stay in my room and hide. Anyway as I go through out the day, I built up a drive and decided to get it over with instead of telling myself to wait until tomorrow morning, so I did 10 minutes tae bo, 25 minutes cardio using dumbbells.

Can I tell you, I feel great now. At first I hated it, I kept saying to myself for the first 5 minutes when is it going to ever end, but then as I continue, I was just going through the motion and all of sudden to my surprise I was finished and I was like whaaaaaat is this for real I am done. I went to have a shower and change and right now I am feeling on top of the world. I am so glad I took this plunge and did the exercise. Now I cant wait until tomorrow morning to get out of bed and do another 35 minutes before I head to work.

Well what can I say, all it took was one step and now I feel like I won the lottery.

I swear I am brain dead, my mental state of mind refuse to allow me to get out of this rut. I am so comfortable in my rut, I am like a pig refuse to do anything and refuse to move.

Why cant I find the drive, why is it I am so hopeless, I cant explain it. I will plan and in no time I fail. 

I am so miserable and confuse.

TOM is here and interesting enough, I am shock, I was not expecting, its so early, especially in a week where I have been doing so well.

I must say however that I feel great, its been 9days that I have been fighting the urge to eat whatever I want, but whether or not I wanted to, I could not, as a result of my tongue piercing and that makes me happyy that it takes something this painful to cut down my bad eating habits. Well I must say my tongue is much better today. I speak better but my eating challenges are not over yet, as a result I am still cautious as to what I put in my mouth.

I am happy to say I am now 207lbs I am excited and I am so looking forward to the rest of the week I did not exercise yesterday nor am I exercising today, but I will be back on track tomorrow for sure.

With this continous commitment I am sure I will feel just as excited next weekend as I am this weekend.

Yep! Today I am feeling much better as the scale actually going down, I must say piercing my tongue gave me a boost to watch what I eat and as a result I exercise daily when I realise that I could lose weight.

I must admit I am feeling so much better and loving every minute, I am now praying with clasp hands that I remain consistent with this exercise not so much the little bit or no diet but once I can I hope I stick to clean eating.

Would anyone be kind enough to tell me what is eating clean or possible a section on bodybuilding that I can find that information.

As I need to know what I can eat and drink and what I cant. Please keep in mind I am in the caribbean therefore some of the foods you might suggest willnot be at my disposal.