Kimberlie Martin’s cuteTrainer

=( what bad timing. im also a runner & the "authorities" said it was bound to happen sooner or later; this cuts my running season short along with leisurely park rollerblades, any high intensity cardio pre-contest(besides upright biking, I think), & lifting legs. At all.
I first noticed something was wrong after a 12mile run 2 Sundays ago, came home to it a little sore.  ran a 6mi and rollerbladed 6mi & did my normal cardio during the week last week along with lifted legs early in the week.  Hurt Fri, ran a 5k & 1mi Sat morning & seemed to be fine(i think it was bc it was like -5°F outside so I didn’t feel ANYTHING!! lol).  Took rest of weekend off working out, back to lift legs Mon & couldn’t do my 1st warm up set on leg press (270lb) without hearing a crunch & intense pain as I was in the concentric phase and my knee passed about a 30° angle!  moved on to leg extensions & did extremely light weight single leg, it hurt and I couldn’t extend it the top 2 inches.  could not squat with just the bar, same crunch at the same angle.  couldnt do freestanding sumo squats with a 55db on my chest, could not do a lunge when left leg was back bc it could not again go past that angle.  hurts directly in front right under the patella. ugh!  I gave up and went to docs next day!  I can’t even walk up stairs without it being painful.=( but at least I can walk normally without as much as .001% of it hurting!
im devastated. never had a knee injury, help!
**nurse practitioner since my doc wasn’t in said its probably a medial miniscus tear, but im hoping not! I have to wait to get an MRI until the insurance approves it, ughhh_she didn’t seem incredibly knowledgeable lol
advice/suggestions/Remedies/support APPRECIATED! lol

My bodyfat is 19.2% according to the electric bodyfat thing???
No way. My buddy was like "what are you, about 12-13%?" and handed me the little contraption. last october when I was dieting but my abs weren’t in yet I was 15.5%, I feeel a TON leaner than back then…anyways: my chest is beginning to see striations(-the diamond shape..like the Hulk! LOL!) when I lift front delts, and my quads are separating.  Can this be due to excess water retention?  I have to be between 12-13%.  I have been taking a legal Winstrol-like supplement (Tokkyo Nutrition’s Winny-V) and this has been putting weight on me (as in I went from 137 to 148 in less than 2 weeks), but not fat…my strength is very high, keeps increasing, while I’ve been dieting…my diet today has been no different from other days:
early in the day:
*5g low carb tortilla, 2.5g fat and 7g protein with reduced fat mexican cheese mixed with fat free cheddar and a sliced piece of chicken breast (1/2 of this per meal);
*protein powder 30g protein 1gcarb 1gfat mixed with 1Tbsp peanut butter, 1tsp canola oil & 1 egg white with a little water x’s 2 at different meal times;
*6 egg whites & 1 piece of turkey sausage;
*deli shaved turkey breast;
*snacks(all of these are eaten in incredibly small amounts, when it’s not time for a meal and i just need a few bites of something): piece of a rice cake, small asparagus & broccoli, celery w/ peanut butter (not usually over a teaspoon), a deli pickle slice and/or grape tomatoes throughout the day…
this is about all I have every day, the macros are all around the same value (keto-diet, <20 g carbs & the peanut butter is the only sugar included, high protein, moderate fat (but still do lower fat….I have to have 15g protein with each the WInny-V pills I’m taking (I take them twice a day as it says to)-I don’t necessarily have 15g fat because for my size that is a LOT, but I will have it with a decent amount of fats as noted above)). Definitely not a diet that puts me in the 19.2%bf category…lol…
This is why I am almost positive it has to be the Winny-V pills-I was lifting, on this diet, incline DB pressing 55’s…military pressing smith bar + 60’s on each side…those pills have to be legitimately insane, and also have to be making me retain a shit ton of water. =( …=/…heelllpp! has anyone taken these pills before? opinions comments etc..

I love running races, from 5k’s to marathons_tomorrow is my first 1 mile & 5k of the year, falling 6 weeks out from my first show.  I have been strict keto dieting since last weekend but tn I had to carb up for the races at 9am tom.  I had canned peaches, a handful of light popcorn a bowl of pasta with spray fake butter, and some baguette with the same spray.  seems to be enough to help me make it thru the am with hopefully some pr’s or at least enough to beat last years times, bc earlier when I was rollerblading I was absolutely exhausted from the get-go & wasn’t sure how id even make it thru the rest of the sesh let alone
make it thru the races.  I decided I absolutely had to carb up right before bed (only 5 min ago I stopped eating) & I am hoping that this won’t affect my ketosis that much since I will be doing strenuous cardio in the am & again lifting legs and more endurance cardio later in the day.. I feel guilty for eating the carbs, but should I really? they are for a total reason lol obviii and I love running too, I hope its just not a setback! [and my tummy is starting to hurt already, haha] opinions?

what do I do? =( what do you all do?  as I have said before, I keto diet (extreme low carb).  I pee on paper every afternoon to make sure my ketone count at least comes out as "small".  
however a little bit ago around 10am because of a prescription med I took on an empty tummy I was on the verge of puking during my chem lecture. I didn’t have any food or drink with me so I left & ran to mcdonalds and got a mcdouble.  NORMALLY I would eat saltines toast & potatoes or something starchy & greasy which has always worked, but now im 6 weeks out & that is not an option! Anyways I picked off as much cheese & katsup as I could and didn’t eat the pickles or onions or bun-i did however pick a little at the bun bc bread usually helps settle my stomach [but im talking I only had about 8g carbs from the bun, prob less](which is very difficult due to my keto dieting) & about 18g fat, approx half sat.  I feel sooo guilty but it was either that or throw up within a few minutes.  im just going to cut out my low carb tortilla(5g carb)/reduced fat cheese quesadilla and peanut butter(5g carb/2Tbsp) that is usually incorporated into my daily diet for the rest of today & stick to plain, boring chicken w marinade & a little parmesan for the rest of my meals & a protein shake (only 1g fat & 1g carb).
I will usually make chicken soup (Mrs.Weiss’s and drain the noodles) but was not home & couldn’t wait; I add a small amount of lemon to that as well.
any helpful hints on your upset stomach remedies?

ULTIMATE PROTEIN BROWNIE
(1 serving)
((again, helps us who pee on a stick out[keto dieters!]_i get bored & enjoy creating healthy concoctions like this, I would LOVE to open a rest. that serves this "genre" of food!=))

1 scoop or equivalent to 30g protein (pref. chocolate)
1 heaping Tbsp regular peanut butter
1/2 Tbsp canola oil
1 Tbsp egg beaters
water to be added for desired consistency

  Mix the above ingredients in a small glass bowl (I use small ones usually for dipping sauces), saving the addition of water for last.  Mix until it is of a batter-like consistently & pop in the microwave for anywhere from 20 to 40 seconds.  I have a new crazy fast mic. so I put it in for 14 sec, stir, and put it back in for another 8 sec.  if you put it in too long it’s no longer gooey and gets hard, dry, and chunky = EW!  It might just be the protein I use, so try it yourself & let me know what works for you*
  I use Bio-X Whey Protein Isolate (30g protein/1g fat/1g carb) which I love; I will never go back to a standard powder again.  Downside, however, is that its EXTREMELY pricey (5lb for $80).
  This is great for am or pm! (for breakfast I couple it with 1/2 omlette with beaters, turkey bacon, red. fat cheese, & mushrooms; before bed I will add more pb-Im sure you all understand the mods I make for different times of the day so yes!)  Enjoy!
  Remember, this works for ketogenic dieters very well & those required to take fat with certain supplements(as I have to with a Tokkyo Nutrition product-it says take 15g w each pill and I take 2 daily_I don’t eat THAT many grams per pill but I will make sure to take it with some fat); it can also work for others not ketodieting as long as you count your macros first!

a good friend (and her husband) are judging this newly founded division in a large NPC show & told me what they have been told numerous times by commissioners:
"do not place anyone with any hint of abs, shoulder caps, quad sweeps, etc". This is about the extent of the orders-so as long as you’re not fat and have visible muscle (aka CRACKED OUT TWIGS, as we were joking about) you’ll be looking to place.  =)

my ex and I have been going through a really rough break-up for the past month, which just happened to fall in the middle of my prep. It’s honestly taking a toll on me & im crying a lot, naturally, because he was/is a total ******* who has never: done anything for me, gone anywhere with me, gone out of his way to show he cared.  He always prioritized friends over me, lied to me, ignored me, & the final blow came last friday morning when we were supposed to go to the Arnold so I could see the figure contest & he refused to wake up, even though I was paying for him & driving.  I ended up literally running home from his place in tears so I could go myself but by the time I got there I was just too upset to do much of anything.  I called him when I was half way home, crying, & he neither had anything to say nor any motivation to come pick me up.  This bs relationship lasted a year, so I am pretty heart broken.  I’ve never asked or expected material things from him, just affection & the "little things" do mean the most to me.
I am really worried all of this is affecting my prep.  I haven’t like gone on crazy eating binges or anything, I mean I had some donuts, cookies & pizza one nite last week and I just had to have a carb load meal last night (i would have probably ate worse than oatmeal, granola, bread, pretzels, potatoes if it would have been in the house) honestly just from the stress and hormones and feelings & stuff.  I already did 2 hours of cardio & am going back to do 2 more and lift in ten min, and on mon I did a little over 3 to make up for it (and I have not missed one day of cardio so far).  Im trying everything in my power to be the best I can be in this really hard time for me right now bc I want a win more than anything, but any advice on how to help get over it & focus better?  I started taking cortisol blocker today with hopes it will alleviate a lot of this stress related behavior.  Its not out of control or anything, I just want to be emotionally okay & not feel like shit.

Just curious on opinions…
last spring when I competed I was told by one judge that my legs were just “too big” by all means…whereas another judge told me my symmetry was amazing.
This year contest time is fast approaching as as I transfer my lifting regiments to lower weights and higher reps I’m not sure which comment to regard more.  I am short and stocky-as in I do have very short legs and a very long torso…my legs are large and my shoulders are wide, which makes me think I do have nice symmetry (or so I think…) I could always use an opinion.  I have a narrow, long waist which makes my abs less noticeable since they aren’t compact; rather long and odd-looking.  I personally like my size, as you can see in my progress pictures; but is it just too big for figure? should I trade in the big boy weights for tiny ones and do like 300 rep sets? lol Ive tried cutting the weight down and even taking 2 months off lifting and it was still easy for me to get back to using weights that seemed absurdly large for a 5′2″ figure competitor…thanks for the help! x0×0-K