I’m 32 and don’t have many wrinkles.  I have a lot of energy and a generally positive outlook on life.  I attribute this to my not eating crap, and this fasting I’ve done from time to time.  I currently follow the warrior diet protocol (google this for more info) and am getting some great results in the gym.  But I need an extra push.  

At this point I’m going to admit a few things to you guys, stuff I can’t just tell the people around me.  I work in a gym and people see me as a positive force in some respects.  My friends look up to me as a dependable friend.  I don’t want to shatter these images with my confessions.  Why should anyone know this stuff anyways?  

I’ve been abusing my body for years.  Cigarettes, alcohol, drugs, crash diets, bulimia and huge amounts of stress.  Whenever things would go wrong I either turned to dope or the bottle trying to numb myself to the reality I would have to face the next day.  On top of all this I took birth control pills, prozac and tetracycline in my teens.  I’ve still got 10 pounds of extra fat I’ve been carrying since my teens and am convinced I still carry toxins from that time that are interfering with my hormones and endocrine function.  I’ve got to do some next-level detoxing to get rid of all the extra estrogen, pesticides and DDT circulating in my system.  I think I’ve taken the exercise/healthy diet protocol as far as it naturally can go.

And before all the naysayers speak up (and please do, as conflicting opinions help my outlook) keep in mind that you don’t live with my body and may not have the scars I see in the mirror everyday…huge layered pockets of cellulite (despite a nice shape), stretch marks and veins.  I’ve done enough reading online to know that a good cleanse will help with all this.

But besides the cosmetic improvements, I really want to get that feeling back I had at the end of my previous fasts…mental clarity, enthusiasm, and positivity.  So I’ve been thinking about it for months and now is the time for action.  Since there’s so many fasts, here’s a list for your info from slowest to fastest in terms of detox:

1) vegetarian (cooked/raw including dairy and eggs)
2) vegan (cooked/raw, no diary, no eggs)
3) vegan raw (fruits and veg)
4) fruit/veg juices (fresh)
5) water

Since I’ve been eating a clean diet for months, I’ll start in at #3 - fresh fruits and veg.  I just ate the last of my tuna and eggs and have a fridge stocked with carrots, apples, and avocados to start off the weekend.  I plan on taking it from #3 straight to #1 after a few weeks.  I’ll keep on doing it until I feel the time is right to stop.  Stay tuned for further news, and thanks for listening

a)  my training is going good, I’m building muscle
b)  my diet (intermittent fasting/warrior) is going great, I’m losing fat

I’m also going through some hard times with this damn economic downturn.  I won’t get into it, it’s depressing.  But I’m broke - NOT poor, but broke, as I’ve been so many times in my life.  And sometimes I am hard on myself, criticizing my body…the way I look - a mask covering up my discontent with the way things are in general.

But I’m trying to see the brighter side.  The powers that be…the gods…never put more of a burden than our shoulders can bear.  I just pray it will end sooner rather than later.  I’m just building my body, gaining strength, boosting my self esteem - and all this incorporates in my mantra - ‘healthy body=healthy mind’ - and just trying to minimize my stress while dealing with it all.

So that’s it for now folks.  To all those going through tough times - seriously…keep your heads up.  Others will wallow in self-pity and a pint of ice cream.  You all get to the gym and boost those endorphins ya hear?  Keep your head up.

Much love and support,

C

It feels like everything and nothing is changing.  I’m not going to eat oatmeal anymore.  It gives me heartburn, and I can’t figure out why.  My bod is just not compatible with it.

On the eating front, I’m following the warrior protocol - one big meal at night before bed, and fruits/veg during the day.  Feels very good, and I feel leaner.  I’m not sure if any pounds are gone, but getting on the scale depresses me, so I’m not doing it anymore.  And that’s all for now folks.

So I did it, and now its the next morning.  Do I feel really bad about it?  Yeah…..but  its done and it’s history.

I’m not counting calories anymore, but if you look at my chart I’m slowly losing weight now unlike when I was counting before.  It doesn’t seem to be something I’m naturally compatible with.

I’ve got to be kinder to myself and not so harsh when I don’t see day to day results - it just doesn’t work that way when you’re in this for the long haul.  I’ve done so much crash dieting and used to seeing myself shrink day by day, so this slow method makes me go mad at times.

All this reminds me of when I used to play blackjack at the casino.  For those who know, you could have stacks of chips in front of you, but a few minutes and a couple double downs later they could dissapear almost instantly - we say ‘easy come, easy go’ - well I think the same goes for weight.  If you lose it really fast, it could come back really fast.  I’m sick of the roller coaster ride I’ve been on with my weight.  I want to do this right this time.

I don’t feel like counting calories these days.  I got some bad news.  I won’t get into it.

I’m still eating clean but doing what’s easiest - a pre workout meal of oats and fruit, and a post-workout meal of lean protein, veggies and some seriously fibrous rye crisps.  That’s all for now.

At the very least, I got the gym to look forward to.  My muscles are starting to show through now thanks to this fat loss, which is increased thanks to the HIIT I do in the morning.  

Meal 1

1.5 cups Oatmeal
2 pears
2 coffees  

410 cals

Meal 2

Apple  100
Pear  80
Cookie  50
Espresso Freddo   50

280 cals

Meal 3

3 pieces rye  270
mackeral  270
salad  50
carrots  50

640 cals

Total for day:  1330

Apple  100
Pear  80
Oats  100

Total 280

Meal 2

Rye Bread  90
Tuna Salad  270

Total:  360

Meal 3

15 ounces roast chicken  825
huge salad  100
3 tbsp olive oil  360

Total calories:  1285

Total for day:  1925

not bad, considering I’ve been eating like a pig these past two days.

I injured my knee today, such an idiot am I.  No, it wasn’t at the gym, and no, it wasn’t while playing sports.  

Neither was it a work accident, or the fault of someone else.  I walked into a friggen doorway, and it hurts like a bitch!!  

It hurts like I did a million squats, letting my kneecaps pass my toes, with 255 kg on my back, while twisting and grinding the joint like beans in a coffee grinder.  Lets hope its one of those injuries that will miraculously go away by morning.

1.5 cups oats  150
apple  100
espresso freddo  50

Total calories:  300

Meal 2

3 rye crips   60
apple  100

160

Meal 3

crackers  200

Meal 4

2 bags cashews  1000
2 beers  360

Total for day:  2020

2 cups oats  200
2 pears  160
espresso freddo  50

Total:  410

Meal 2

(Went out to dinner with friends)

Beer
Bread
Salad with tons of dressing
Meatballs
fried zuchini
2 other appetizers with greek names I can’t translate
Creamy dessert thing with chocolate sauce

Total calories:  1,000,000

Total for day: 1,000,410

1.5 cups oats   150
pear   80
espresso freddo   50
espresso freddo   50

Total:  330

Meal 2

rye bread   90
apple  100

Total calories:  190

Meal 3
apple   100
espresso freddo   50

Total calories:  150

Meal 4
mackeral   270
rye  180
carrot  30

Total calories: 475

Total for day:  1145