October 25
I’m doing really well still, but had a binge last night! Some people have a cheat day, or a cheat meal - what I had last night was a cheat orgy: one HUGE chocolate bar, and 5 BIG fudge cookies.
So I did it, and now its the next morning. Do I feel really bad about it? Yeah…..but its done and it’s history.
I’m not counting calories anymore, but if you look at my chart I’m slowly losing weight now unlike when I was counting before. It doesn’t seem to be something I’m naturally compatible with.
I’ve got to be kinder to myself and not so harsh when I don’t see day to day results - it just doesn’t work that way when you’re in this for the long haul. I’ve done so much crash dieting and used to seeing myself shrink day by day, so this slow method makes me go mad at times.
All this reminds me of when I used to play blackjack at the casino. For those who know, you could have stacks of chips in front of you, but a few minutes and a couple double downs later they could dissapear almost instantly - we say ‘easy come, easy go’ - well I think the same goes for weight. If you lose it really fast, it could come back really fast. I’m sick of the roller coaster ride I’ve been on with my weight. I want to do this right this time.
