kalonkakon’s BodyBlog

Okay, so my posts and my workout journals have dropped off dramatically but I haven’t stopped working out.  As a matter of fact, my intensity has increased because Sheepherder is training me.  I tend to get better workouts and thus, better results simply because he pushes me farther than I push myself.

My main problem, like always, is my eating habits.  I am by no means out of shape or obese when compared with the average woman. I am out of shape and puffy when I consider what I WANT to look like.  It used to be enough to work out, look the way I do now, but eat whatever I wanted.  I eat poorly.  I eat pizza, ice cream, mexican, sloppy cheeseburgers, I eat practically everything!  I tried to eat clean in the fall but quickly got bored with it.  I think that if I make it a slow transition then it won’t be so noticable.  I think that eating shit one day and then the next day eating cottage cheese, egg whites, chicken breasts, and the such is a stark contrast between the two.  My body goes through withdrawls.  I swear.

I start my new job on Friday.  Random day, but the beginning of the pay period.

Today was an awesome workout.  I very rarely have bad workouts unless alot of cardio is involved.  Ate well.

Slept very badly last night, quited restless and animated.

Once again I had a fantastic workout.  I did back and biceps, followed by a 1.5 mi run and 1 hour of flag football.  I am tired and deserve to sleep

My mood has been a bit crummy lately, I think it is the new birth control.  It makes me want to snap off at a moments notice.  The man doesn’t like it so much.

So its been a few days since I’ve written a post.  I don’t exercise on weekends but that doesn’t mean I don’t need to check in and post regulary.

The best thing about having a fiance that is a bodybuilder is that he runs me through some pretty grueling workouts.  Last night was great.  I’ll actually post the specifics later…

It was a chest/tri night.  Tonight is back/bi’s.  I’m in a super pissy mood.  I was restless all night, had horrible nightmares with panic attacks and this morning I woke up with cramps and lots of bleeding.  Menopause will be a blessing.

So, today I did not lift any.  My back is dead from last night!

Instead, I ran two miles.  Split the miles with pushups and situps.  Had to walk a little bit because I was going fast enough to keep up "Meat".  While I’m not short, I find it hard to keep up with a 6′5 sprinter.

Food was kept to a minimum.  Not the disaster of yesterday (but it was international night…)

I discovered plantains, how freakin’ yummy.

Feel so fat.  Ate way too much today.  Or so it feels like.

Good back and shoulder workout.  Wasn’t in the mood.  Did it at home.  I just find that I have no motivation to go to the gym.  ???? Why is this so hard when it used to be regular routine.  Scale pisses me off.  Scares me.

Alas, it goes again.

I did wonderfully this summer.  I was happily fit.  Then I quit smoking, life resumed its normal hectic pace, and I forwent the gym for peace and quiet.  I’ve gained a good bit of weight.  Nothing drastic.  The typical 10 lbs from smoking I think.  But I need to go back to the gym and find it hard to make time.

So, for tomorrow the goal is:

Back!  I’m in a back mood.  Followed by 30 minutes of cardio (because I f’n hate cardio).