Dedication to my Journey

I am starting 2008 returning from the desert. I have been living "groundhog day" for the past 130 days of my life, and have come to many great decisions (at least I find them great). I have always been fairly blessed w/ athletism. I am not the most gifted, but I have been told on more than one occasion I should attempt to play golf on the pro level. I have been earning my degree in CISM, and working 2 jobs to support my wife–until I deployed–and also playing a lot of golf, while working on getting promoted. I did not realize it, but I was burnt out…so much so, that I became a complete metal head while overseas. I forgot how much I loved lifting; under the right circumstances, and want to continue when I return…but I must evaluate my future and see what I want to accomplish this year. Intenalizing such issues can be overwhelming, so I decided to write it out:

Pay off debt (wife college loans)

Finish degree

Work HARD on marriage

Bench 405, Squat 495, Dead 525 by summer

Maintain a sub 5 handicap in golf–

Change my wardrobe( I’ve fallen behind…t-shirts/jeans(golf clothes) only last so long)

Meet 5 new people/ hang out w/ at least 3 of them on a reg. basis

Talk to my parents more often.

Talk to my in-laws more often–

Get out and explore–whitewater rafting, mountain biking, hiking, and etc.

Coach youth league bball

Get Promoted( should be higher on the list…)

Drop paperwork to become an officer

Start looking for job’s outside of the military to compare–

Buy a house??????? If the marriage gets worked out–

Take dance class (salsa)–JWhite needs his groove back–haha)

Take some MA classes

Take some language classes…

There is so much more, but I think this is a great start–I’ll be 26 in 8 months…I hope to have accomplished 75% by then…wish me luck!

Life is really interesting. About a 2 weeks ago I was probably the most jealous person I knew. In fact, I might as well consider myself a control freak in relationships too–Either way, I have overcome this problem in what must be record time. I am actually able to trust someone now, and it is the weirdest thing. My wife and I have constantly argued about this–and now; I just don’t care anymore! I only want my wife to be happy, and for life to be enjoyable. The majority of her friends are guys; and in the past I really haven’t wanted her to be out with them alone–basically; I don’t trust a man–period. Now I see how enjoyable it is for her to socialize, and she comes home to me; right? Well…

 I am writing it all down for future understanding–people need to be who they are to grow in life>Control is stooopid! It is amazing how incredibly fast we grow as human beings–That is all…

I will be using this blog to build on my knowledge and create a place of zen for my future training. I will make no promises or undo expectations on how often I will post or whatever, but I’m sure when the time to vent comes along–I will remember this place! I am a busy man, with many goals, and a lot of important decisions to make–It is time to grow up…