Wow! It's been quite sometime since I even logged on. Things in my life got pretty crazy since I'm going through a divorce. Things were set ijn motion recently & I'm still nursing aome injuries but I have been doing what I can 5-6 days a week. So why do I feel so bad? Because I've gone back to an old habit I thought I'd kicked. Since we filed for divorce, my clean eating has been in the tank. It seems like I eat everything in sight when clearly I'm not hungry. I totally binged teh weekedn we split & while I want to say that it's ok to do things like that, I know it's not. I'm not a dog, so I should not see food as a reward. It's only been about 10 days since I complete fell off of my clean eating habits, but 10 days is enough time to do a lot of damage. I looked at myself in the mirror today & just shook my head in disbelief. But I know that things are better; because instead of looking myself in the mirror & feeling sad, I was able to see that I was still syanding. I'd actually accomplished something--I took a step toward my own happiness. Now, all I need to do is be more mindful of what i eat.  A donut here, a piece of candy there--it all adds up. I've been doing pretty well considering my ankle healed . Now I'm just dealing with a weak hip, weak lumabr aream & weak core. I feel liek I'm getting stronger everyday from doing the exercises so I know that I can get back to my goals. So this is my new one.

1. Get down to 19% bodyfat
   
2. 129 total weight
   
3. bulid up lean muscle in my lower body with unilateral training so I strengthen the weak side & erase the muscle imbalance
   
4. complete fasted cardio at least 2x/week
   
5. Make sure to eat every 2.5 hours
   
6. Journal when I get emotional (because it seems like these are the times when I end up mindless eating)
   

I know if I do this, I'll be back on track in no time. I'm going to set small measurable goals & remember that since this is imporatnat to me, it's important to do. I will stay positive & get through this.