where oh where oh where is jul?
Here I am she shouted from the pit of frustration! Her voice seemed small, but as she worked tirelessly to climb out she found her voice getting stronger….
So, I am a little dirty from climbing through all the muck….and there is stilll much muck to get through, but I am here to say that I believe trials will refine us. My focus has been on things that matter most….my children, my relationship with God and my friends and family… Instead of fitting my life around my workouts and diet, I have repatterned my way of living to make my love of fitness to fit around my life… and I have to say, I am much happier now.
I also would be remiss in saying that when you are on this site daily you become desensitized to the garbage on it…(the constant slimy men hitting on you, the glamourization of the body, and the lack of indescretion…) I have had to even look at my pics and ask what message I am sending people…. I want to feel attractive and fit, but not at the expense of having people think I am glorifying my body above all things. In life…I want people to see me… not my outside…. my outside, no matter how hard I work at it, will fade away and probably never be what I want it to be… but my inside… that is what makes me… me….. so my goal this time around is to make sure that people see me…. the real me.
November 6, 2008 at 8:03 pm
Very, very true words. Glad to see that you are happier now and have put fitness in its proper place! But I have to say, too, that those who read your blogs know you not as attractive and fit (you are those things too), but as a beautiful person because of who you *are* on the inside.
November 6, 2008 at 8:07 pm
Great goal. You’ve been missed. Hope all is going well for you. Keep moving forwards, and enjoy your journey.
November 6, 2008 at 8:16 pm
I have missed you. You always had so much to offer…kind words, encouragement…I always saw the INSIDE of you and knew what a great person you are. Life throws us allot of curves, it is what you decide to do with them that determines your fate.
I am so happy to see my FRIEND here.
November 6, 2008 at 8:21 pm
awww.. wendy and mama thank you for your kind words… you know I think the world of you both and am so thankful for your constant reminder of all that is good in the world…. both of you are so special!!!
thanks, Dad… I have missed all of you so too!!
November 7, 2008 at 10:15 am
It sounds like you have had some time to truly reflect and draw some sound and wise advice for anyone to follow. I am glad you are back and stand beside you in your quest. You are an awesome person Jul and have always enjoyed calling you my friend!
November 7, 2008 at 2:10 pm
Glad you are back and happier overall. Sometimes we do have to take a step back to refocus on what is most important to us. You have been missed and a very warm and big welcome back.
November 7, 2008 at 11:10 pm
nice to see you back beautiful..inside and out.
Your words are true..we are never happy ..when we should be always happy…
no matter what we look like..
November 7, 2008 at 11:51 pm
Welcome back, precious!
November 8, 2008 at 7:27 am
Welocome back Jules, I was wondering where you have been. Great post. I think you hit the nail right on the head about this place. Good to see that there are people around here who are here for the right reasons. I wish more people would follow your example.
December 8, 2008 at 12:49 pm
Welcome back and I completely agree with Wendy. I have always wanted to emulate you not just in your dedication to being fit and healthy, but in your dedication to making the whole you better. You are a beautiful person on the inside and that just makes your outside shine ever brighter. Stay true to who you are!