Jul’s Journey

Today is a day off for me, ahhhhhh… how nice it is to not have to worry about anything except laundry and getting prepped for this week….(oh, and eating clean too….)

This past week I have lost 1/2 inch in my hip and 1/2 inch in my waist…. that puts me closer to my body stat goals!  and it also means I am starting to trim my backside!!!! Yahoo!!!! 

I am enjoying the changes to my diet too…loving the extra protein and fat!!!!!  still not really missing the carbs….

hope all have a great Lord’s day!!!

I had such a great leg workout yesterday…. enjoying the burn right now….love thaaaaaat tired feeling……love that feeling like you have worked your muscles…  Enjoyed my day of eating yesterday.  It felt so nice have fat and I didn’t miss the carbs much at all…..today I am having a few more carbs in the morning and will cycle off them by the end of the day…….  the scale was a nice suprise this morning….down 2 pounds…… (water weight is finally going I think) and I could see some changes in my abs today.  Ah,…..

Now I have to be careful to keep eating so I don’t start looking emancipated…..thinking about trying some beverly products…. heard you can do some great things with some of their products…… and I do know I like to have fun foods to eat!!!

Today is 45 minutes of HIIT and then abs and tomorrow is nada….nothing …. just letting my body recover……    should be good…..

still stretching the arm/shoulder…..have feeling in one of my fingers, but still the thumb and pointer are numb….. will keep resting….oh, to have it back by the end of the week….

Okay, my mom always used to say to me that when things were bad, to go to bed and things will look better in the morning…..that’s just what happened to me today!  Thank goodness for mom’s words!!!!  They are amazingly encouraging and helpful!!! 

Changed my diet, tweaking my workouts, and happy to say that I feel much better….not flat and definately hopeful that my body will respond to these changes.  Will see in a week or so, but regardless I am just thrilled to be blogging on a site that has such wonderful people willing to share their thoughts openly. 

I hope everyone has just a wonderful day and can enjoy all the blessings in their path!!!!

Okay… I have been all over this site today…almost like an addict……searching…..looking high and low for the answers to my fat loss, muscle gain, when will there be progress I can feel great about questions…..many of you have chimed in, offered solid advice and have spent much time typing me words of encouragement and giving suggestions on food intake and cutting programs…..    From the top of my three story house I yell THANKYOU!!!!!!

And as I have re-read what I have written, I realize i am starting to sound like a whiner…this is NOT what I want to be….I want to work hard, do what I can to have good balance in my life, enjoy the gifts that God has given me and bask in the beauty of each day…..instead….I have been obsessing…..

SO, i am going to have a protein shake….take a shower and go to bed early…giving my body the rest it needs to repair itself and get pumped for a great leg day tomorrow morning…..and a shorter cardio time….Yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And for those of you who care….I think the peanut butter jar lost it’s battle today…..:)

today is picture day…. sometimes I like this day….sometimes not…. It helps to see how things look, yet I find I expect my changes to be more than they really are.  The reality is I should refer to yesterdays blog and remember that focusing on results will not bring on the changes…today I am going to continue on focusing on what I can do to change, so on Oct. 6 my pics will show me more results. 

I still can’t believe that I missed my first goal for my figure show.  No suprise there….I did not clean up my diet like I should. Kept waiting until the next day to get my eating down….string together 7 weeks of those and competition blown.  The good news in this????  I know that the diet is critical…… if I repeat that mistake the next 7 weeks….. I will be forever eating this crazy diet…… it is like the movie groundhog day….remember that???  Yup, well I am living it…..

I put my pics back up…I struggle with this…. For me, as I look through other profiles it is the pics that motivate me so… but some of the pics are over the top for me….I am just a mom…not a supermodel, not trying to be…. just a woman setting a goal and trying to meet it.  I am just trying to document my transformation.  So, hopefully you will see these pics as just that….

Alright….I give up…. I will now officially give my arm/back some rest in hopes of getting the feeling back in my fingers.  Yesterday I got an hour massage….which was wonderful, and that seemed to relieve some of the numbness….and have been using heat packs and heat rub on it and stretching….

Today, doing back and chest, I thought I could do light weights and more reps, but that didn’t seem to do much for me, but frustrate me and the fact that my shoulder and arm are just not working like they should.  So, it’ll be cardio…..abs and legs for a while and I will see where I am in the next few days after rest and stretching.

Lets see….I have found that the fat burners make me sweat….really sweat…. which is nice, as I feel like I am actually accomplishing something….but is very messy too…..  I am loving doing interval sets with the jump rope and am actually getting a bit better with it.  (The little victories.)

So, today I am thinking about a quote about change….. if you focus on results, you will never see change, if you focus on change, only then will you see results…… I LOVE THIS QUOTE!!!!  I am such a result oriented person and the reality is, if you want to have those results, you have to focus on changing the behaviors that are keeping you from that goal.  For me it is the battle with the peanut butter jar.  I am sure many of you are thinking….just throw it away….but I have three younger children that love it….. and it is an easy meal for them….I just need to CHANGE my relationship with that jar…. no more late night dancing with it…. no more mid-afternoon dips….. what goes in the cuphoard must stay there…..

If I change that behavior, maybe then I will see the results in my backside and abs….. will let you know….

SO, today is the last day of summer vacation for my kids… this summer has flown by.  And thankfully, I think I am still making gains in my body, though I really was hoping to lose more weight  by now. That is the result of me not sticking like glue to my diet.  Today I will….(didn’t I write this last week??)  really, if I don’t what is the point of even doing all this? 

Was at gym at 5:30 did cardio….biking with jumprope intervals for one hour….time really flew….and felt like I got a good workout (which is good as I never feel that way most mornings)  Will go back for legs (with glute concentration around 10am)….  and maybe finish the night with some more jumproping???  will see…..about that….

Started a fat burner in my last ditch attempt to lose the fat in my backside….. I chose Lipo 6…. on day two with it…..the cool part about it is with the caffeine in the pill…..I find myself drinking more water and no coffee….so, maybe I can keep myself consistently at a gallon and 1 quart now….. will see…..

Hmmm….lots of will sees in this post……

So, for the last week I have been dealing with what I thought to be a pinched nerve in my back/neck…. I am really starting to wonder if it is more than that….My thumb and first two fingers are numb and their is tightening pain in my back near my right trap… my right arm is significantly weaker and I am having a hard time now with tris/bis and shoulder excercises….esp. shoulders…. It is crazy, I start lifting and my right arm just stops….WEIRD…..now, I don’t want to injure this any more, but I also don’t want to lose my little muscle I have developed… HelP???  The chiropractor didn’t seem to help…will try massage this week….what can I do???

Ok, now I understand that i am truly a stress eater….if things are going bad….the food in my cupboards start to quake…. they know I am coming….that in a moment they could be scarfed by a crazy, stress-laden mother of three that can not control herself…….   im thinking about hiring someone to wire my mouth shut…..Can you do that??