josvin’s BodyBlog

Wow ! Calm down guys, calm down !

If I wrote "under construction" that meant it was exactly under construction. Then please, before leaving bad comments, wait for the post to be finished. And let me explain its title, I’m sure you’ll understand.

If you’ve read my last post, you know my situation. You know I’ve always dreamt about getting fit and building muscles. Somehow as I was in an internship I didn’t have the time to do so and I had to wait until september to start, right ?

This month, I called my "probably future gym", the one I was sense subscribing to and which would have allowed me to fulfill my dream. Anyways, I called them just to know what they exactly offer as a gym and -here we’re coming- how much it cost. I don’t know how the other gyms cost, less again the US gyms (’cause I’m French), but they told me it cost €672 ($930) a year !! God damn ! It’s f***in huge for me ! You know, I’m just a student and I can’t afford such an amount.

Consequently, I think I am kinda -totally- desperate. I was over motivated, I had everything to reach my goals ! Everything except the money. That’s the explanation of my post’s title. Fortunately, next year I think I’m gonna have a free gym inside my campus, that’s the only solution remaining. Anyways, for now, I’m wondering what I’m gonna do, I duno. Can anyone help me ? Maybe not, most of all when I look at those crappy comments …

The wish has left, the will is still here.

Hi guys !

Well, let’s start my bodyblog !

As I wrote on my Bodyspace, I’m a French guy of 19 (then please excuse my bad English). When I was younger, I used to be a fat boy. I hated that, not because people were laughing at me, that didn’t happen so much, simply because I hated myself, all of my body. Now I’m in better shape, well not perfect but not fat anymore. I still got that stupid little spare tire. Somehow, I still hate what I look like, still hate my body. By discovering this site, I’ve decided to change my life. To feel good in my body for the first time in my life.

For now, I haven’t started anything yet. I’ve already tried to work out several times at home by my own means but it never worked because of a lack of motivation. I always gave up for, well, no reason. This summer, I’ve decided to subscribe to a gym and to eat healthier (though I don’t think I’m eating so bad). I think that’s the only solution for me not to give up because my money will be involved (LOL) and the material as nothing to do with what I have at home (2 weights and a couch…). The transformation will probably begin in September when I’ll come back from my holidays.

Waiting for that period, I’m reading a lot of your Bodyspaces and Bodyblogs. I’m asking questions and advice to each one of you. I’ve already learnt a lot of things. One word comes to my mind : F***K ! This is gonna be a freakin’ long way to go and freakin’ tough. But you know what ? I think after all these years hating my body I’m completely mad about transforming myself and getting the body I want. I think I’m ready to everything. Then, changing my diet, waking up f***in’ early to go to the gym, suffering might not scare me. This is the dream of my life, this is my own battle. I want, and am going to prove to myself I can be better than what I’ve been until that day.

My goals ? Simply lose the little rest of fat I have and gain muscles. I jus’ wanna have the body I’ve always dreamt about.

I know I’m just dreaming for now. I know I look like a little boy screaming "I want this, I want that" but I’m really motivated. Well, for now my motivation is huge. Perhaps in September it’s gonna be something else when I’ll be faced with the reality of what’s expecting me. I know it from all the times I gave up before. That’s why I really need your support. I can’t do this all alone, I now I won’t do it if no one’s here to kick my ass.

Then, let’s begin the battle of my life.