Fight to beat this depression
Im falling back into depression. Its been years since ive had an episode. Well at least this time I didnt run to food pizza cookies chips choloclate icecream you know Its so bad that doctor gave me xanax I dont want to take it. I am taking my supplments xtend dialene to prenatal fish oil and biotin. Im scared of xanax because I dont want my body to shut down. People around me dont understand why i eat the way eat why I want to exercise. I hear you are going to look like a man or you are getting to skinny (obviously most of these people are not in shape) They dont understand that I love an atheltic toned body its what ive wanted for so loong on top of all my other personal issues I just feel like Im loosing control right now. He told me to take 3 of those pills today. I only took one and I dont want to take anymore. I need to find a way to deal with my depression. You know he told me to write 10 things down postive about myself and Im still thinking. I know I cant compare myself to others but I see so many sucuessful people and I want to be one of those people. I guess I have to keep pushing. Hard work and thinking postive is what got them there I need to think and beleive the same thing. I have to get over this fear that is occupying my mind its going to destroy me if i dont
September 29, 2009 at 5:41 pm
get it out girl! you can beat this!! with much beauty comes much burden!
September 29, 2009 at 5:42 pm
I’m sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. I’m glad you didn’t turn to food though- that is something to be proud of. I don’t think you should take the Xanax because it’s highly additive. I’m not sure what you believe in, but getting in touch with your spiritual side will help. It is also very important to think positive- the power of the mind is immense.
You have accomplished a lot this past year, and you are beautiful- focus on the things you achieved in your life and keep pushing toward your goals
September 29, 2009 at 5:44 pm
That’s a really brave post. I wish I had some advice but I can relate to what you’re experiencing to an extent. Fighting the things that go on in your head can be really hard.
The fact that you know what it is that and what you can do to make it better is huge. Many people live with depression but don’t even realize it.
And if you don’t want to take the pills then maybe you should find another doctor? Or find a professional you can speak to about it.
You’re right not to compare yourself to others. Often times people seem like they have it all but they’re miserable on the inside or have major issues they’re dealing with. I used to compare myself to others but I learned not to do it or you’ll never be happy.
If you can’t think of 10 things, ask a few people who you are close with. I bet you’ll come up with much more than 10.
September 29, 2009 at 5:45 pm
It sounds like you’re thinking in the right direction. I added the Bible to my life, and it’s gotten better. A good support group can really help and staying away from negitive people is a plus too.
September 29, 2009 at 5:48 pm
first of all, you look amazing.
I battle with depression too. I think its best to realize that it comes and goes, and it will definitely pass. Just having faith that it will pass will keep you from the worst trap of it, which is the feeling that it will never go away. I know you can’t wish it away or ‘just change your mind’, but it will pass.
September 29, 2009 at 5:48 pm
hi joojnla
my name is rachel. first of all… YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL
you sound A LOT like me. briefly… i have been off of xanax and cymbalta for about a year now! i too was fighting with anxiety and depression and constantly scared.
i just want to say… either you are on it or you are off of it. you cant go up and down. it will only mess with you more. some people really do NEED medication, but our minds are the hardest and biggest battle! i overcame… i got rid of all the other crap in my life causing me to be anxious and depressed… ultimately being able to get rid of the pills (which i also HATED taking) when coming off of them i realized how addicted i was to them by then
it was long and hard, but i haven’t had a single one of either since.
its hard to write compliments or good things down about ourselves that we don’t see there… we know everyone else sees it, but we just don’t… and to even say it or think it brings you to tears because you just don’t believe it! i also saw a couselor who made me do the same thing… she made me say things out loud that were good about me, but that i hated saying. its really hard, but i really believe you can over come it
i know its nice to hear you are beautiful and sweet and a good person and bla bla bla from other people… but i also know it doesn’t satisfy long term. if you ever need to talk just email me.
:)
September 29, 2009 at 5:50 pm
I was diagnosed with depression 5 years ago. So, I know you how you feel. People who say "snap out of it" and other stupid ****, don’t understand.
Weightlifting has been my only outlet, so much so that I stopped taking all medication last year and I feel great. Of course I have down days just like everyone else. I can cope with them better now. If I really get down, I just go to the gym and work it out.
September 29, 2009 at 5:59 pm
See that…… you have friends here that if anything are more than willing to just listen. We work out so that we can help friends bear the load. You’ll always have friends here on BB.com.
Peace!!
September 29, 2009 at 6:03 pm
Another idea, if you can’t think of anything in yourself, is think of other people’s good qualities. Compliment or encourage other people and help them if you can. There are lots of people that would take your advice and want to achieve what you have, I’ll bet. That has a certain positive effect too. My friend told me to do that years ago, and it took me a long time to even try it.
September 29, 2009 at 7:01 pm
If you want to talk, PM me;) With support you can accomplish anything.
September 29, 2009 at 7:37 pm
I have to say thank you to everyone who took time out their schedule to read my blog. Depression is tough to deal with and I live alone and I really dont have anyone to turn to who will understand what I have to deal with. Getting fit is my main source of happiness right now so I am glad I can come here and get support. I have to work on getting my mind stronger and fighting this tough battle
Thank you everyone you guys are fabulous!
September 29, 2009 at 9:29 pm
YOU have been fearfully and wonderfully made, made in His image, He knows the plans He has for you and they are good. Baby you are NOT alone not now not ever. I was diagnosed June 2008 and delivered June 2009. Send me a pm, heck I’ll send you my phone number so you can call. whatever you need! I stand against the spirit of depression for it must be cut at the root for it has no place in your life non the lives of those who currently deal with it. I Jesus name it must cease to exist…I speak life, you speak life, speak to that thing tell it bye bye