Jeff Jones

To answer your first question. "What do you mean, ‘if it also reflects you life during that period of fat as well?’"

For me, I realized there were many parts of my life that I let spin out of control, mainly because I had no self respect. I have let my marriage get away from me, I’ve had no close friends that truly understand me, and all I have done is commit my time to my job not allowing anyone near me. I honestly believe my weight, and my self perception, all add to the feeling of "I don’t care". This is all hard to explain, but I hope you know what I mean. In my own I was arrogant towards my appearance, and quite frankly, I was Jeff Jones - what was there not to like about my fat ass?

Everyone has always told me that I am "big boned" and that I would never be small, and that I carried my weight well. I really believed it for years, and years. Now, I see from this site, that no matter where you start as far as body type, you can change it the way you want too.

Since losing weight thus far, and seeing my body change from the weights, I have learned to look at things very differently. Instead of placing a lot of blame in different places I have started looking at myself, I will ask if a certain event is really someone else’s fault, or could I have changed the outcome? Now I look at me, and my actions, and ask what can I change about me? All of the sudden I feel a great power that I had never felt b4. Though I am lite years from being the person I should be, I feel this transformation has reached well beyond just weight and measurements. I find myself on a high one day soaking in my changes, and then I catch myself still staring at this body wondering how anyone could love me in a sexual and affectionate way - life is quite the ride on some days. How’s this for laying all the chips on the table, a bit exposed here, but of course that first progress pic of me was the height of exposure.

Moving on………..

My blood pressure is now down and staying down. I am carrying stress to the gym and releasing it like a mofo. I am actually looking for a family doctor as I have not had a physical in about 10 years. I used to avoid doctors unless it was an ER. I did not want to hear the lectures etc..

Two years ago in November I went to the ER and spent the night in ICU with chest pains. My blood pressure was dangerously high, I was dehydrated, in terrible shape, needless to say. Stress seemed to be the culprit. Still I did not quit smoking or drinking (not that I drank that much, but I was always ready for a good party with women, spirits, and food), and I still continued to eat enormous amounts of food. Food is a drug, and I am an addict.

I have been uninsurable due to my health, medications, smoking, blood pressure, and obesity. Although, there are many people who are far larger than myself, and have far greater problems, the weight related issues have still been enormous for me.

The lifestyle changes are hard, but I have prevailed. I have been so hung up on the 12 weeks, that sometimes I worry what will happen after the last day of the transformation period. I continue reminding myself that I cannot go backwards, not just from the weight aspect, but also, the "downer" mode I seemed to live. I hide it well, I have to with my job, but I am truly hoping the demons of my past will disappear 4ever, and that I will find happiness within myself. I want to be a great Dad to my son, who is in the military, and want my twin girls to love and respect me forever. There are other areas my life of which this forum is not an appropriate avenue to convey, I know you all understand.

One day, when I am at 210 and looking rather hunky, and feeling hunky as well, I would like to tell my story to those who are just starting transformations. I want to reach in their hearts and let me them feel the power of change, and I will be there at the end of the 12 weeks congratulating them on not just changing their weight, but changing their lives.

As we have spoken b4, the power of the mind is quite——mind blowing.

:)