Ego Deflated, but Not Giving Up!
I got the ole body fat measured today and was told by my trainer that it is @ 17.5%–I was shocked since it was supposedly 14.5% last month, but he made a mistake and was looking at the tables for males. I’ve been strutting my stuff around the gym like a proud peacock (and still will strut). I have also been spending way too much time in the buff in front of the mirror—miss too sexy for herself (lol) and miss I can now wear shorts to the gym w/o grossing myself out now. I was a little bummed at first, and definitely humbled. However, I am proud of the progress made this far and am glad I have reclaimed my body.
I’m encouraged and know that it’s time to turn up the heat and blast the rest of this fat even though I’ve got more body fat to lose than I thought, a knee injury, and scars on my face from passing out recently. I’m als dealing with comments from family/friends such as, “you need to eat more… or look at your face, it’s too skinny….or you know you have two babies and they need you so don’t let that man hurt you (as if my trainer is trying to kill me)”. On the other hand, my 7 year old son said to me this morning, “mommy I see why you’re dieting, you’re skinny now…” So with that in mind, I’m going to dig a little deeper, work a little harder, and reduce this body fat to 12%. It’s not enough to have a closet full of lose fitting clothes, I want more…. This is funny because when I started working with my trainer I only wanted to lose 12 to 15 pounds and didn’t care about fat loss percentage. I just wanted to lose those back fins. My how a little progress and a lot of encouragement has changed my perspective. I’ve entered the MuscleTech contest, which should add to the progress momentum. Additionally, I think I’ll try entering an amateur contest in the fall. I have nothing to lose and think it will be fun (well not the dieting part), but it should be exciting for me, the neophyte, to be back stage with other body builders. With this in mind, I’ve come a long ways, but understand that I have a lot of work to do.
April 12, 2008 at 3:04 pm
This blog has me cracking up b/c it descrives me to a tee! I can relate to all of the comments–which have been coming in droves, lately. I’m ‘too thin’ or rumors of me being ’sick’ are abound. Like you, I started to lose a few pounds and get the ‘pre-baby’ body back. Now, I know I can do way better. Lately, I have caught myself somewhat sabatoging my efforts out of fear, I think. I have lost my hips and its been a bit alarming. So, I had my share of homemade banana nut bread the other day. But that was one day–I am going to call it a ‘re-load’ and continue to see where I can take this body. Keep going. I can’t wait to follow your journey to competition and to a WIN!