jasmine5882’s BodyBlog

Well, my weight loss is and has been at a stand still for a couple months–at least. For whatever reason (there are plenty of "reasons" I’m sure) I’ve lost my desire to do what is right for my body. I’ve lost the drive to work out…I think my body has gone into hibernation mode since the cold hit. At -40 who wants to go for a walk??? lol But with eating, sleeping and lying around the house like some kind of sloth….I’m starting to look like one too. lol Its not too pretty.

But THANK GOD the weather is warming up and the sun is shining more each day!

This winter has been a bit of a struggle. For years I’ve "dealt" with my dysthymia by just taking medication and thinking that was going to be good enough. Well, I decided to go a more natural route this year and stopped taking antidepressants (gradually of course)…In retrospect, it might have been a better idea to put that off until summer. Going without Lexapro this winter was a little rough. There’s definitely a seasonal element to my depression….

But the important thing was that I made it. Winter is almost over, with the long, dark days almost a thing of the past….It can only get better from here!

I’m hoping with the warmer weather, I’ll stop eating so much "comfort food" and will get my energy back. That’s been a HUGE issue for me the last few months. I just haven’t been wanting to do much of anything that involves being active!

Today has been a good day though. I actually felt pretty good this morning. Got some stuff done. Plus, I wasn’t feeling moody. It was nice. Hopefully it’ll last!

The last month or so I’ve been terrible about eating right and working out. I tend to go through phases. Now I’m going from a lazy phase to trying to get motivated again. I got back on the scale and noticed my weights increased to 160 again. Damn it.

So this morning, I started my Alli again. Hopefully that’ll get me back on track diet wise. As far as the exercise part, I’m hoping I’ll get back into that as well. I’m going to go take my kids sledding in a little while so hopefully that’ll burn a couple calories anyway. Might even go back to the gym. I haven’t been in there for a couple months I think! I’m pretty much just throwing away my money on an unused membership.

It’d be alot easier with some sort of support. But I feel like I’m going it alone right now… Which is making it more difficult.

Well I’m planning on getting my act together and getting this under control, starting today…hopefully this time around, I won’t throw in the towel if I have an off-day.

I’m getting really impatient with losing weight. I know its best to lose slowly, but I am hating being chunky. True I’ve lost almost 20 lbs. within this year, but I still have quite a bit more to lose. I want to be about a size 6, roughly. I’m still between a size 12/14. That’s the frustrating part. I have a really hard time losing weight around my middle so even though I’ve lost so much, I’ve only dropped maybe one pants size.

The hardest part is that I’m by nature a very lazy person, so getting enough exercise is an issue. Also, my hubby loves junk food. That’s a tough one too. Also, since we’re all living off his income right now, our budget can kind of get in the way. Why is it that eating healthy costs so much more than eating crappy junk??? It shouldn’t. I think that would help solve America’s obesity problems right there lol. jk

I think my recent weight loss might be water weight I haven’t been eating right or less, and I haven’t been exercising as much as I should either. I haven’t been making the time for myself to go to the gym-or even work out at home…And I’ve been all about junk food ever since we went back home for a visit. All of that needs to change! I REALLY don’t want to gain my weight back!!! I don’t want to be the fat, frumpy mom I’ve been.

I was just starting to feel good about myself again and I like it too much to go back. I still can’t believe I was so big not too long ago. The last time I weighed myself when I was pregnant, I weighed a whopping 210!!!!! Then after he came home I was down to 180 for a while. Now I’m finally below 160, but my goal is at least 135. I’ve been 140-when I got married. I think I looked ok, but I want to be more toned and I think a little thinner too.

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