jacquidube’s BodyBlog

Well its 2009 and its time to take things serious, Im tired of saying Im going to do one thing and then I dont, but this year I am determined to lose fat and get big, yeah! Watch this space in the next couple of months, x x x x x x x x

Continuing to lose a little weight but my back is killing. I think its the lifting with the bending thats doing it. Not used to it I guess. Feeling good though and still as determined……lol, when I want to be that is.

Today is the day I have promised myself to hit the gym hard and when I say hard I mean Im going to lift heavier weight where I can just about manage it instead of lifting weight I feel comfortable with. Im going to see if it works for me. I am determined to stick to this as I have found lately I have been letting myself down. Get ready in the next couple of months for some good progress photos coming in. I really do need to see a change happening.

I am so happy. I gave up smoking 8 days ago to take this bodybuilding seriously and I have even lost 2 inchs off my waist. I can now concentrate on building and losing bodyfat instead of rushing off to have a cigarette. I can actually taste my food and I can breath alot easier. I am so looking forward to looking good and building more muscle.

I had some photos done today and saw the real me. My butt looks horrid and my overall appearance is terrible. These are the times you just want to starve yourself. I have so much work to do. I am so embaressed. How could I let myself get like this. This is not right. I really need to do something but I know it takes alot of work.

I managed all through the week training myself to drink just water and eat sensibly but come the weekend I messed up because my husband bought me a bottle of wine and I drank 2 glasses. It must of been on my mind because I felt sick the next day. Its so hard for me. I wish I had motivation. Maybe if I could just see a little muscle pop out from somewhere, just anywhere would be fine and I am sure that would give me the motivation I need. Well here goes to another weekday. Already failing. I didnt go to the gym this morning because I still felt sick. This is so hard guys.

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