isabelhotrod’s BodyBlog

IT SEEMS THAT WHEN EVERYTHING IN LIFE YOU THINK IS GOING RIGHT FOR YOU, IS NOT. YOU SEEM TO TRY TO GATHER ALL THAT YOU CAN AND TRY TO PUSH FOR MORE OUT OF LIFE.

THE MORE THAT I STRIVE FOR SOMETHING IN LIFE, THERE’S A SET BACK IN MY LIFE. ALL THAT I’VE AIMED FOR IN LIFE SEEMS TO AT TIMES FALL INTO THE TOILET, AND WITH IT MY SO CALL PRIDE GOES DOWN THE DRAIN.

I CAN’T UNDERSTAND BUT YET I TRY TO MAKE IT COMPREHENSIBLE TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT. ALTHOUGH, I DON’T SEEM TO GET THE PICTURE IN LIFE. I ALWAYS HAVE TO TRY TO PROVE TO OTHERS THAT EVERYTHING IS FINE AND THAT IM HAPPY.

WHILE I WAS AT WORK AT THE HOSPITAL OR WHERE EVER IM AT..I HAVE TO FAKE A SMILE AND FAKE THE CONVERSATION, I THING THAT I HAVE BEEN GOOD AT ALL THESE PAST YEARS…I AM SO GOOD AT HIDING MY TRUE FEELINGS, WHEN DEEP DOWN I AM SAD…

I DON’T TEND TO WRITE THIS NOW FOR EVERYONE TO COME AND CHECK UP ON ME..OR TRY TO FEEL SORRY FOR ME. I JUST WRITE TODAY WHAT’S IN MY HEART TODAY.

I DON’T KNOW WHERE IM HEADING TO IN LIFE, BUT I’M TRYING TO DO THE BEST I CAN IN LIFE. AS I PURSUE MY TRAINING, WORK AND MY COLLEGE DEGREE..I KNOW ONE THING FOR SURE …

NO MATTER HOW MUCH FAME YOU ACHIEVE IN LIFE, IT DOES NOT BUY YOU HAPPINESS. YOU CAN ACCOMPLISH ALL THE THINGS IN LIFE AND YET BE SO LOST IN LIFE.

THIS IS WHERE I STAND RIGHT NOW AS I WRITE THIS. SO I TRY MY BEST TO HOLD MY HEAD UP AND WALK THE LONG JOURNEY THAT IS AHEAD OF ME IN LIFE..HOPING THAT SOMEDAY I’LL SEE THAT END OF THE RAINBOW AND BE THERE IN IT…

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THANKS..

XOXO

ISABELHOTROD

I HAVE BEEN ON A LONG JOURNEY… EVERY SINCE I WAS YOUNG… YES I HAD MY FALLS IN LIFE…BUT IT ONLY MADE ME  A MUCH MORE STRONGER WOMAN THAT EVER IN LIFE.

IF I’D HAD NOT GONE THRU WHAT I WENT IN LIFE IN MY YOUTH…I WOULDN’T BEEN ABLE TO COPE WITH WHAT’S AHEAD OF ME..FOR EVERY FALL THAT I HAD IN LIFE… GOD WAS ALWAYS BY MY SIDE TO HELP ME GET BACK UP.

I CAN NOT EXPRESS THE WORDS THAT FILL MY HEART..ONLY JOY AND KNOWING THAT HAPPINESS IS AROUND THE CORNER. TO MY DELIGHT I’VE HAD A WONDERFUL LIFE THESE PAST 18YRS TO MAKE UP FOR THE LAST 19YRS OF LIFE I HAD AS AN INFANT GROWING UP…

IM VERY WELL AWARE OF WHAT THE FUTURE HAS FOR ME…PERHAPS BECAUSE I’VE BEEN WORKING VERY HARD TO ADVANCE AND SUCCEED IN LIFE. BACK THEN I WAS NOT SURE OF WHAT TOMORROW HAD FOR ME….

NOW I’M VERY SURE OF WHAT TOMORROW HAS FOR ME… A MUCH MORE BLESSING IN LIFE… GOD HAS BEEN GOOD TO ME… AND HE ALWAYS HAS AN ANGEL AROUND ME TO GUIDE ME IN LIFE… I AM A  VERY STRONG BELIEVER..AND I BELIEVE THAT GOOD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE WHO HAVE A GOOD HEART…

THRU MY UPS AND DOWNS, AND THRU MY HEARTACHES IN LIFE… SOMETIMES SAYING GOOD BYE TO THINGS OR PEOPLE WHO DON’T SEEM TO BENEFIT YOU IS A GOOD THING IN LIFE.. IT MAKES YOU A STRONGER PERSON AND MUCH MORE OF A PERSON WITH MORE WILLINGNESS AND EAGER TO GO OUT THERE AND BE MORE OF A HIGHER PERSON THAN YOU WERE BEFORE…

I’VE HAD PEOPLE IN THE PAST LIFETIME THAT WANTED TO BRING ME DOWN AND MAKE ME GO DOWN ON MY KNEES.. AND FOR EACH DROP OF PAIN OR TEAR I SHARED IT JUST BROUGHT ME TO THIS LEVEL WHERE IM AT… THE MORE THE INSULTS THE MORE LIGHT CAME MY WAY..AND WITH IT STRENGTH TO OVERCOME THOSE WHO TRIED IN VEIN TO BRING ME DOWN!!

AND NOW IM ON TOP OF THE GAME AND WITH IT I’M ON A ROLL… ONE THAT NO ONE NOR ANYBODY CAN STOP ME…. NOW THAT IT’S ALL SAID AND DONE..IT’S BEEN A GOOD RIDE FOR ME..AND IT ONLY GETS BETTER FOR ME…

AND ALL I CAN SAY..THAT THE BEST IS STILL TO COME…. I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH LOVING PEOPLE AND FRIENDS ON THIS SITE..AND I THANK GOD FOR ALL OF THOSE WHO HAVE COME INTO MY LIFE… FOR YOUR THE REASON THAT I’VE CLIMBED THAT MOUNTAIN UP…THANKS TO ALL OF YOU…

I’M ONE THAT WILL NEVER FORGET MY FRIENDS AND WHEN THE TIME COMES THAT I GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE IN FALL 2010 AND ENTER THE SUPREME COURTS AND MY BOOK IS PUBLISHED….I’LL ALWAYS BE ISABEL … THE ONLY AND ONLY WHO HUMBLES HERSELF TO OTHERS…

XOXO ALWAYS

ISABELHOTROD