Innerbliss’s BodyBlog

Holy crap I have gained 6 pounds.  Yup, it’s time to hit the gym…again.  Okay so that means I gained 1 pound every month.  That doesn’t sound too bad but when you total it it’s bad.  Especially on a petite frame like mine.  Crap…..that’s how I feel.  Drinking lots of coffee again, low energy, no motivation blah, blah., blah.  I felt wonderful before.  I lost 12 pounds post baby fat.  How could I have let it slide from me?  That great feeling, you know endorphins, is great when you get it but it dissappears even faster when you don’t attain it.  Crap.  I need to get to the gym.

I have been heading down that road again.  The one where you are lazy, unmotivated and lack energy.  I don’t know why this happens but it does.  It’s amazing when one little thing sets you off you can go down this road and everything follows.  Your diet, your energy, your motivation, your spirit too.  My problem is balance.  I need to attain it and keep it.  Balance is so important to me. It keeps me sane and calm and happy.  So what should one do when your rhythm or balance in life goes to shit?  I totally fell off the balance beam and I feel like I’m hanging on by my fingertips. 

Today I had a horrible, terrible lunch.  Then I went to the market bought some flowers (cheery ) and then bought tons of produce and water.  I think I should start fresh today.  It all begins with the diet.  I need to get in touch with the women who got me here in the first place too.  I call them my mommie motivators. 

My life is abundant in health and wealth.

this is a great website for daily affirmations. 

My faves:

"Love, health and wealth flows abundantly into my life."

" I have abundant energy, vitality and well-being."

"Beyond positive thinking is positive believing"

" I focus my power. I change my life."

I joined a gym.  I have been working out in my garage on my treadmill, with free weights and my balance ball for about 6 weeks now and I needed to upgrade.  I am so happy I made the decision because I felt like I was in a plateau and it was getting boring being in my lonely, cold, dirty garage.  Let’s pump it up Marzia

The last few days have sucked.  My workouts are suffering because I can’t seem to find the time to workout.  I have two little ones and when they go down for naps then I can work out.  But lately it’s been a challenge.  If it continues I am going to be so upset. 

All I ask is for alittle time for myself.  And I choose that time to workout.  My hubby btw is snowboarding in Mammoth.  He owes me big BIG time.  HMMMM- maybe I’ll go spend some money.  that always makes me feel better. 

I am officially with Marzia and getting training from her.  I am excited about the journey and the fact that I am changing my life (hopefully forever)  I just started and so far so good.  I always wondered about going the online route but it all comes down to you no matter if you see the trainer everyday or never at all, as in my case.  The fact that I am using someone who  is so knowledgable and that this is their livelyhood makes it all the more comforting in knowing that I am getting help from the best. 

Everyday can be a bit of a struggle with trying to workout, taking care of the girls etc… but I manage.  I wear gym clothes all day because I never know when I am going to get in 30min or 1 hour of working out. 

Then there’s the mental part.  I hate cardio!  I have to do it 5x/week if I want to drop the body fat and tummy fat.  This is where I struggle the most.   I start thining about it and all of the things I hate about it.  My mind starts to take all of the negative things and puts them there for me to focus on. UGH  The mind is so powerful.  So I turn to this website for encouragement.  I love to see the faves on here that have changed their bod’s for the better and I know I will get there someday.  When it’s really bad I just pull up photos of myself now and let me tell you I am running to the treadmill. LOL

I have my own mantras and conversations with myself to get me going.  Positive reinforcement to get me going.  It works.   What your mantra?

2009 is my year to change in many levels. 1) to accept my life, which is now filled with sleeplessness nights, messy hair, no makeup, sweats and very little  or no time for myself but it’s all worth it because it is now filled with love, laughter, silliness and the occasional tantrum outburst from my 2 daughters.  2) to allow for more "ME" time so that I can have peace, sanity and appreciation. 3) to change my body, make it stronger, healthier and sexier 4) to not feel guilty if it’s not perfect all the time. 

This is my year and with the support from my hubby and children I can make it a wonderful one.

Everyone here has been so helpful and motivating.  Bodyspace has become my latest addiction.

As far as my training goes I am starting slowly.  Having two little ones leaves me with no time for myself to work out so I try to bring them with me on walks.  Right now it’s all I can do but I guess it’s better than nothing. 

Today is the day……

I plan on making my days of depression, whining, crying and complaining dissappear for good. 

I am eating clean, taking my supplements and looking to better and brighter days. 

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