i_m2much4u’s BodyBlog

Wow… I’m making amazing strides in so many aspects of my life. It seems I’m more focused on myself. At the gym, my "head is in the game". I am visualizing my goals and they are becoming reality. It’s also a good chance for me to be alone, clear my head, and do some soul searching. I’m gaining a better understanding of myself, of what I want in life, and what I deserve.

 My fitness goals are easily obtainable. I feel like a sprinter in a marathon. I can see the finish line and now I’m sprinting full force to the end. 30 lbs from goal!! That’s it!! I’ve already lost over 82 lbs…. What’s 30 lbs more??? I just can’t get there fast enough now… lol….

 I can’t even lie. I love the compliments I’ve been getting lately. Everyone seems to notice the new me. I’m smaller, healthier, and happier than I have been in a very long time!! Even in the gym… Random guys have stopped me to tell me what progress I’ve made or they noticed how hard I work when I’m in there and respect me for it. I’m talking about people I’ve never even seen before. It’s flattering (and a bit nerve-wrecking) to know I’m being watched at the gym. Guess I’ve been so focused for so long, that I haven’t been paying attention to things around me. I’m going to continue to focus on my goals while I’m there, but will try to be gracious as possible whenever needed. Don’t get me wrong!!! I ABSOLUTELY appreciate the kind words, but I don’t like my workout being interupted.

Also, I’m picking an occassional workout partner. Usually it’s a girlfriend from my old gym, but I’ve managed to drag a co-worker with me a time or two. She’s trying so I’m going to be supportive as possible. The days I work out with her, I usually go back later and do my regular workout alone. I feel like I’m not gettingmuch out of it when I’m training her. And I think the wierdest part is working out with a couple of the trainers. Kat is amazing and has really given me some new insight! I would have never imagined I could do pull ups or chin ups all on my own. She forced me to try… and what do you know??!! lol… I can do it. Now I’m working on my one-handed pushups!! I’ve almost got them and wow-they are killer!! I feel like GI JANE doing them!! haha… And my pal, Sean- he’s not even training at my gym anymore, but is willing to drive across town to workout with me. He’s giving me some great pointers when it comes to working my glutes and abs. And Sean is a BIG GUY!! He was 2nd place Super Heavyweight in the same contest I want to do this summer. So- he’s been a wealth of knowledge. And, I’ve been running into my ex-fiance alot lately. Don’t want to date him, but I am certainly enjoying the laughs we are having now. Might even ask him to train with me a night or two, to keep my lifting form in check. His brutal honesty will make sure of that. HAHA… I’m just glad that I’m doing so well at the gym that I can feel comfortable enough to joke with him or even train with him again.

Had an incredible workout yesterday. Sore as heck today, but getting ready to go back and hit it some more! I’m on my way and I see where I want to be. It’s so close I can taste it… And it tastes GOOD!!!

Anyone got any pointers or tips?? Think it’s time to shake things up a bit.

Oh wow…. I have a confession….!!! I think I have been in a bit of a self-destructive mood lately. I work so hard in the gym every day, then go and blow it by going out partying. Think I was feeling a void in my life for a little bit. It took an absolutely crazy night this past weekend for me to come to my senses. Drinking is just delaying my progress!! What the heck am I thinking???? I did manage to hit my mini-goal! I’m at 125lbs!! YAY!!! But I could have been there alot sooner if I would stop with the alcohol. So- As of today….I think I’m totally giving up alcohol! It’s just not what I need. What I need is the love and support from my friends! I went years without drinking before, so I can do it again. Problem is…. I’m single and have lots of single friends (guys and girls) that I hang out with that LOVE to party and drink. I’m just wondering if anyone else has this problem. It’s not really peer pressure, but I feel guilty if I don’t party it up with them. Isn’t that dumb?? Or maybe I need to cut way back when I go out.

 On another note, a big thank you to those friends who have really been there for me. Chris (MrKleen), I love you to death and thank you for always being so positive and keeping me on track. You are incredible!! Of course, fighting inner demons can cause you to feel a little self-conscious (especially when you aren’t hitting goals that you should be). I’m so blessed that my other pals have lifted me so high lately. I actually feel like I am on a pedestal lately. Thank you so much!!  I forgot how far I have come. I went from a size 22 to my current size 3!!! (my daughter hates it because we are almost wearing the same size in everything! lol). That is an accomplishment. I feel good and have more energy and really live life!! Thank God for my blessings!!!

This past weekend I went out and bought me the super duper jumbo George Foreman grill and proceeded to cook my food for the week. Grilled chipotle chicken breasts, grilled lemon pepper tilapia fillets, and seasoned steaks. YUMMY!!! Also made myself a snack mix of raw almonds and fresh blueberries. I’m reading a great diet plan Chris sent me (from Team Scivation). It’s a precontest diet. Getting ready to start it. I have 25-30lbs to go. Wondering how long it will take for me to drop it and shred up right! Any sugggestions out there are always welcome!

 Thanks to all you friends that I have made on this site. You’ve been wonderful and I have much love for you all. Yourkind and encouraging words mean so much to me!! Should be posting up new progress pics soon.

  ~ Hugs, Kisses, and Protein Wishes! ~

Wow… 2009 should be off to a great start. I have to admit I was tempted over the holidays to splurge, but luckily my conscious (Shane- lol!!) was there the whole time to help remind me of my goals. I’m looking forward to another great year of change. If I can lose almost 80 lbs last year, then I should be able to drop 30-40 lbs this year. And thanks to my Santa (Shane again- lol…), I am even stocked up on my fave Redline Extremes amongst other things.

I will admit my focus has been out of sorts lately, but I am back on the ball full steam of ahead. In fact, I had the most interesting night at the gym. I’m currently going through some personal issues, so I decided to take my frustation to the gym. (Second trip of the day there for me). I did a nice back/bi workout and was on the elliptical trainer (pounding out my angst and turmoil to some nice liquid metal…Hatebreed, Godsmack, Metallica, etc) when I happened to notice my ex-fiance. Yes, the one that broke my heart because I wasn’t a "fitness model". I hadn’t talked to him over 10 months (he hadn’t seen the new me either!). I decided to go and say hello which turned into a 2 hr conversation. I’m very happy to say he made me feel good by admitting I had come a LONG way and was doing better than he had ever seen. It was such a sense of accomplishment. It warmed my heart to know that we may be able to be friends again. Even if he could be a jerk at times, he was a wealth of knowledge for diet and exercise. Quite a bit of what I know, I learned because of him. I’m also grateful that this year’s motivation isn’t out of anger at him, but out of love for myself!! I’m over that and feel so much better for it. Now I can truly work on the task at hand.

With all that being said… My sexy, ever-so-sweet pal Chris (MrKleen) has convinced me contest prep is the way to go. I’m NO WHERE NEAR that, but now I have a goal to really focus on. So- any of you ladies out there with advice for a newbie… please give! I’m all ears!!  I will try to get better about posting blogs and pics. When I weighed in this morning, I was at 127lbs. I usually don’t chart that as my weight until I’ve maintained (or dropped below it) for 3 consecutive days. My old goal was around 105-110 lbs, but now I’m thinking I want to shoot for 90-95 lbs (right below my high school weight- and high school was over 15 yrs ago for me). I think I will celebrate in little increments. Every 5 lbs…. so when I hit 125- it’s mini-VICTORY time for me.  {Let me preface this by saying I haven’t been under 135 lbs since I was pregnant…lol}.

Wish me luck, kick my butt, or lend some friendly advice! Always open to hear suggestions!

Thanks to all the wonderful new friends I have made on here! You guys ROCK!!!!!

~ love ya all!! ~

So a brief update… I haven’t been by a computer much lately other than what I can check from my phone. I’ve been in the process of moving. No fun!! but - what I can say is…. When you have to move all your furniture by yourself down a couple flights of stairs, you can really kill some pounds!! lol… I dropped 4 lbs in 2 days. I am battered, bruised, tired, and sore as hell- but I did it. AND… I still went to the gym everyday! I’m motivated to have a new me for the new year. Ha… Maybe if I’m lucky, I’ll even have a man too!! (Sometimes being single sucks!…) I am looking forward to the day I can have a man in my world who will appreciate all the hard work I put into myself (and maybe he’ll be a good workout partner too!). Sorry, after moving myself the last few days- I had too much free time of the brain and heart! lol…

A friend of mine found a link for a trainer that I’m going to check into and he also found me new motiviation. Another contest- even sooner than I was planning. So I can’t goof off!! My workout is coming along… Just need everything else to fall into place. Doing a bit more target exercises on the back after I saw my pics that I posted for this challenge. Haha… And I’m doing LOTS of ab work too!! Even started doing the exercises and machines I didn’t think I could do! Chin-ups, parallel bars, knee raises, ect… I’m really proud of myself for even trying it. My gym is packed full of pretty little ladies that never break a sweat and here is my chunky butt sweating to the oldies!! lol… I am bound and determined to make this happen! I will not fail. I can not fail.

 Please keep in my your thoughts because I’m going to need every available push to break through to the next level!!!!! And as soon as I get my computer set up in the new place I will get back online and offer my support to everyone else like ya’ll have done me!! Thank you! I am forever grateful!!!!!!!!!

So I’ve upped my workouts and intensity and decreased my poor diet choices, but I still have weekly cheat days. I don’t go crazy on cheat days, but i do allow myself an indulgence. What I’m learning is the more I’m away from something, the less I truly want it. The other day I really wanted this cookie someone bought me. I found that after three bites I couldn’t handle the flavor. It was (dare I say… ) too sweet for me to like! Can you believe it?? lol… I’m glad that body is finally starting to work for me instead of against me. I’m now trying to do target exercises for the parts that I need the most work (lower back, back, and torso— mainly abs…!!). I know abs is mainly diet, but good Lord- how much diet can i do?? lol… I’ve eaten so much chicken and turkey that I should grow feathers! lol…. Keep focused is hard at times, but i’m trying to stay positive. I’m working on the new single HOT me! lol… I want to be bikini ready for next year. Also- side note…. Going to Vegas in March with my sister for a girl’s weekend. I’ve got to look good by then! Pray for me, wish me luck, kick my butt… whatever… but help me keep moving forward!  

So, Yesterday I joined the "Unwrap Your Abs for Christmas" challenge. I even took full length (ewh!!) body pics for it. It should be just the motivation I need to get me where I want to be. I’ve done pretty good with losing most of the weight and toning up my arms and legs. I have a huge problem with my torso. So, I’m open to any suggestions or tips. The pics say it all. You can see where I need work. I know alot of it is diet, so I’m definately all over that!! But, please feel free to help me with any input! I’m always willing to try something new. Never know what might work for me!!

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