I’m not a wuss. I might even challenge an emo kid at DDR!
For those who don’t already know:
I’m not going to enter a contest in two weeks afterall. I simply didn’t have enough time to prepare. I was told by a bunch of people at the gym seven weeks ago that I could "get in contest shape with no problem" during that time frame and against my better judgment, I listened to them. Seven weeks is not enough to go from 18% body fat to contest lean (8-10%, 11% just to place most of the time). I’m 14-15% right now (not NEARLY lean enough… yes lean and ripped for an ordinary person, but not stage condition at all) and suspect that in 7.5 MORE weeks, I will probably be 10-11% for the Gainesville contest. That was what I was originally preparing for, anyway — if I thought I was going to be competing in St. Augustine, I would have given myself WAY more time.
Some people have called me a wuss for this and asked, "How do you know you’re not going to back out again?" I’m thinking, "Hey dumbasses, I was initially planning to compete in Gainesville only, so I’m just following through with my original plan. If you believe this is so easy, then you should at least attempt it, too." Of course, they won’t, and they’ll give retarded excuses as to why. Thankfully, most have been supportive of my decision, even if they don’t personally agree.
I’m no longer on edge about dieting now that I know I won’t be competing for 7.5 more weeks. My diet is pretty much the same, but my attitude is so much better. I pushed the psycho 16 year old girl away and replaced her with a sensible, grown woman. 
Things keeping me sane right now:
Diet Canfield’s Cherry Chocolate Fudge Soda
Flavored coffee (Joffrey’s Chocolate Butterscotch with Nut Undertones, Mello Joy Southern Pecan, and Godiva: Chocolate Creme and Vanilla Hazelnut)
and, most importantly:
Reminding myself that every day is for myself. FOR myself, not AGAINST myself. I am making a point of doing something for myself every day, even if it is small. Today, I fixed one of my computers and went rollerblading. Tomorrow, I am going to go to the arcade at the mall and rehash fond middle school memories. Maybe I’ll even challenge an emo kid at DDR…
July 9, 2009 at 5:37 pm
You should be proud of how far you’ve come in the last 7 weeks. I have no doubt that with your determination and consistency that you’ll be on stage in 7 weeks.
July 9, 2009 at 6:05 pm
Don’t listen to what anyone says, I bet most of those people saying that have probably never been on stage. It is a very small percent of people who make it to the stage a and I am sure with your attitude you will. Keep up the good work. God bless:)