Chronicles of a Grumpybutt Part Infinity
Contest dieting is really getting to my head and I feel like I’m on nonstop PMS. Speaking of PMS (WARNING to those not wanting to know things: scroll down a couple lines), the last time I got my rag (last week), it was late and when it arrived, I …barely…got…it. Like, I was spotting a TINY bit for two days, and then it was gone. I still felt all the hormonal fluctuations, but the bloody mess was not present.
I have never been more in touch with my emotions than I am right now. Since I’m not a bitchole, bitchunt, or bitchwad, I’ve been nice to everybody and have internalized my emotions, instead. Before, I could shove my feelings aside without much of a problem, but now I find myself constantly facing them. I’ve gotten so good at biting my tongue that I’m surprised there’s any tongue left TO bite. Eeh, a lack of a tongue wouldn’t be so bad right now, anyway; that way, I’d be devoid of taste buds!
I am doing keto for these last two weeks with extra lifting and extra cardio in hopes to speed things along and get me shredded as soon as possible. Desperate times call for desperate measures and I feel I am flabbier than I want to be two weeks out. Instead of stressing, I am taking action and hoping that the action will produce some sort of reward. If it doesn’t, I’m not going to walk away angry; I’ll wish myself better luck in the Gainesville contest and remind myself that after all, this is my first contest, this is a hobby, AND this is supposed to be FUN. Plus, one of my best friends is going to be there with me cheering me on!
Who knows… I may just be too hard on myself and my competitors may actually look flabbier than I do 
(highly doubted, but I like to stay positive sometimes…)
July 8, 2009 at 9:35 am
Times Past, I trained my friend Karla with weights while she helped me get more into cardio. At 5′9" and 137, young (20) Karla was not far out of shape. Couple that with bad nutrition (it was hard getting her to eat; societal stigma) and all the Training took a real toll on her body: she stopped having periods after a couple of months hard work. Karla freaked out and thought she might be pregnant, wouldn’t listen to my "theory" of how improper eating coupled with all the exercise were the cause. Luckily, her mom was a nurse, explaining to Karla and even sending articles talking about others experiencing similar. Glad you aren’t freaking in the "pregnancy" direction, but do advise you double check your supplementation. Good luck with the contest!
Fazer
July 8, 2009 at 5:26 pm
Dieting messes with everyone’s head. Just hang in there because the end is in sight. I hope you do well in the contest but the real victory is just having the discipline and bravery to step out on the stage. I think you are already a winner!
July 28, 2009 at 3:44 pm
you barely got the rag because you’re turning into a man.
stop working out and PUT OUT.