hzagadinow’s BodyBlog

I am starting to fall into the typical fat American battle with food struggle.  I eat healthy and mean really healthy.  I’m talking eggs with tomatoes, mushrooms, onions, and turkey along with turkey sausage and a bowl of old fashion oats every morning.  Then I eat chicken breast (2-3) with rice, every other day, and medium bowl of broccoli.  Then I have the same thing for dinner.  I have a protein shake in between each meal and one when I wake up for a total of six meals a day.  The hard part is I’m sneaking in a roll every now and again during lunch or dinner, even sometimes dessert.  I’m not really a dessert guy but it tastes good at the time.  When I feel drained or just tired of eating clean I binge on soy-milk and sugar cereal.  I feel like this fat kid eating in secrecy because most people look up to me for eating clean most of the time and they try to entice me with the unhealthy foods so they can feel better about themselves.  How do other people battle with this problem?  I can’t take the bad foods away because I’m in Iraq and it’s a big Chow Hall (DFAC) area.  I have to sit with my crew/co-workers all the time because of my job.  I feel pretty isolated and alone at this moment.  I will continue to fight the battle; the toughest part is when I have to prepare for contests.  I’m a raving loony when I am dieting without cheating.  Oh well, I guess I’m using this post to vent.