Read My Mind!

It’s so hard to look lean when you have loose skin and are super sensitive to retaining water. I’m going to be the fat girl on stage. I do have a winning attitude, but i’m not out of tune with reality. I tan these competitors on a regular basis. I know how their bodies look UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL! After looking at the competitors online on photos from a couple of recent shows I worked at, I realize how puffy I am going to look compared to the rest. I’m ok with it, but I’m just in awe after all the hard work I’ve put in. I mean, how much overdose do you have to do on cardio to get that damn fat off! At 11 days out, almost 10, all I can do is continue to give my all with the regimen I have. It’s too late to regret the cheats in the middle of the diet….I can’t forget that each of my falls were learning spurts. While I continue to see progress, I am trying to accpept that there’s only enough time for slight improvement, but this is the overall look I will have on stage…..hopefully the water depletion will help significantly.

I talk to Mr.Trainer in the morning. Wish me luck.

Not to panic! I got this….consistency is key. Just stay off the cheats (hence SUGAR) and progress will come. I already have no problem putting my time in at the gym…I just need to make the right choices when in between my meals. Coffee and gum only go so far. I suppose those cravings will have to be tamed with other forms of enjoyment. I think the thoughts of cheating come in because I am constantly thinking about making sure to stay on schedule with my meals that food is always on my mind. When that happens, thoughts of the bad foods come to mind. Then the body reacts. Best thing to do is fill up with water and trick my body that I ate something LOL. Seriously, why must I watch the Food Network while i work out?! LOL

 Today I worked out at a different gym because I wanted to stay focused on my workout without getting distracted talking to all my peeps at the gym. I know so many people there, and the folks that work there are like family because I’m in there so much, that I either get approached or feel the need to slow down to talk.

 Imagine 25 days of no cheats, consistent full portions of diet food only, and upping the pump weight….along with hardcore cardio sessions…you got yourself one lean machine by doomsday!

 WHERE’S YOUR STRENGTH? SEND IT TO ME!!!

OMG I just posted pics that read 4 1/2 weeks out!

 I guess I need to enter into the contest now, ha?

 Think I can do it?

 all arrows pointing to the goal…..

I need to keep this inner strength for the next month. ALL MENTAL PEOPLE!!!!!!

Remember to look at my blog site - the link is on my main profile page…and look under My Competition Prep Journey for the latest progress pics (more than I show here).

 packing food for another out-of-town trip. rush rush rush…but don’t stress…that has adverse effects……SIGH!!!

Enough time to lose 15 pounds of fat?

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Yes…6 weeks out and I binged for 2 days straight! I say it’s stress, friend says it’s my body. Either way, my mental strength weakened and I gave in. The regret is unbearable. But why is it that I don’t learn enough from the experience? I continue to go through a roller coaster of being straight for 5 days then BAM, i cheat. I have really intense issues going on in my life right now….but I was fully warned that life was going to happen during these 12 weeks and I needed to just continue with my routine without thinking too much about the things that may make me get off track. Tonight I lay here again, putting the beginning of a binge to an end after a few hours this time around - thank The Lord. But i am FIVE WEEKS OUT! I don’t want to panic, I want a plan…..an item of motivation…..a reminder to keep me strong at my weakest minute. Please share your expriences and ideas!

Without you two working in partnership, I would not be able to roam free with bass boosting music in my ears that make me pump hard, step fast, and have fun while hours and hours pass at my workouts 3 times a day. Thank you Black Eyed Peas and Sean Paul for making booty shaking music that make me totally unafraid to enjoy each of my movements no matter who’s watching. I love that I can feel that comfortable in my gym and around all them regulars to be myself and zone out. Otherwise, I don’t know if I could ALWAYS watch the Food Network and not get slobber all over the machines

 I’m definitely visiting all them Diners, Drive-Ins, and Dives when I’m done with this competition though!