Read My Mind!

Okay. I realize that we need to write down and reiterate our short and long term goals. I set my long term goal about a year ago. It is to compete by 2009. However, just changing the diet/training/exercise is not enough to get you there. You need inspiration and motivation along the way - whether you find it in yourself, others, or through items or occurences - OR ALL - it just has to happen. Sometimes, we just look for it as it comes. But I realize today that motivation can also be planned.

I have set up two motivational events for myself all in one day. 1 - go to a bodybuilding competition in november. 2 - go to jen hendershott’s phatcamp again (www.getphatwithjen.com). More motivational events to be scheduled. I have to do everything to ensure my success this time.

Wow, week 2 already? I made it through but boy do I feel the effects of being away. I was there Monday thru Friday. But Saturday and Sunday I was bedwritten - flu

I was sore the next day after working every body section. No running first week - stuck to Precore machine 30 minutes. I think I felt the most effects from leg training. Those lunges and extensions had me walking funny for a couple days. There were times where I had to keep the weight really low - felt wimpy and a loss of strength that hurt. But I surprised myself in the ab department - go figure. Diet was lightly chaged,

This week, my goal is to stick to the food choices that I know are healthy, get into the gym everyday, and get a tan for my senorita costume to wear this Saturday!!! Last night I did a run5/walk5 session for cardio 30 minutes. Again, one of those moments where I surprised myself after 2 months of being away.

Have you ever fell off the bandwagon? Well, I did and hurt my bum! Just about two months ago began a chain of events that just didn’t allow me to think about eating right or exercising…nor did they allow me the time. No need to get into detail…the end of the matter is that I gained…gosh I don’t even know how much weight I’ve gained in the past two months….but I’ll tell you tomorrow.

You know how an alcoholic or a smoker can always be tempted by their old habits? Well sure enough, I was stressed out and started pigging out…not so much overeating, but bingeing on junk food specifically without a care in the world. I go through some mental process with it. And I don’t do something about it until I’ve gotten so sick of it….kinda like watching your favorite movie over and over again - you realize it doesn’t do it for you anymore.

 Well, the truth is, just a couple months ago I bought a size M shirt - one that buttoned up but just a lil too snug. I told myself I would wear it soon because I was on my way down the scale. Well, that same blouse was put on for work yesterday….except it was worn wide open with a tank top…I’m talking about 5" wider on each side. I must be a XL. I mean, the blouse went right along with the 14 pants that didnt need a belt. Mind you, I was just a size 10!

Now that things have calmed down and I only have to worry about my immediate family, school, work, and gym, I can really feel back on track with my diet and sanity. I missed the gym and the people in it - my trainer, my friends, the staff, the shakes…My first day back was Monday. I was about to start my workout when I got a cell phone text in the locker room. It was a friend asking to be my gym partner. Well, now I have a workout buddy…now this will ensure my committment when it’s the hardest  - the first month. I see my trainer in a few weeks, wish me luck.

P.S. What a way to end my 30th year, ha?! Boy what a rollercoaster year. I just turned 31 last Tuesday. 31 is looking like an ease downhill - I’m over that hump! I’ll have to push that JR costume to next year. That’s okay.