Read My Mind!

Okay, where do I start? This is way past due.

 On March 12th I began a new journey after attending Jen Hendershott’s PhatCamp in SoCal. It was a life-changing experience in my fitness journey and I have had a wonderful new perspective, motivation, and drive since. The next day that I got back from the camp weekend, I started a new meal and training program.

I have been eating the same meals everyday for the past 8 weeks. I have been doing cardio for 40 minutes 6xweek and training a different body part(chest,shoulders,back,arms,legs,abs) 5xweek.

 In 6 weeks, I went from a size 12 to a size 8, but only lost 6 pounds. This is great!! You have no idea what it had done to my ego.

These past two weeks have been challenging. I began to get sloppy by cheating with late night cereal meals, glasses of wine, and extra portions. After analyzing this morning why I binged all day yesterday with junk-food snacking, I realize that I have reverted back to my old self in my eating habits because I am going through some personal issues.

 How do I cope with my personal issues without using food to get through??? Some people punch a wall, go to the gym, or take it out on other people. I apparently turn to food. I don’t want to go back to my old self. Someone showed me a picture the other day of what I looked like a year ago at work. It was so pathetic.

 Along with this newfound body comes a responsibility to treasure it. I never had to worry before, but now I have to be aware of my exposure, the attention I’m attracting, and to preserve my values. I also have to care about what I’m putting in my body, to love it and nurture it. It is a new experience for me, and I am learning.

 I still have 15 pounds to lose by June 30th to fulfill a deal I have with someone, and the rewards are great. But now that I’m midway through, I feel like I’m trying to get over a hill rather than a hump. I need someone to hand me a rope to pull my way up the hill, or someone to get behind me and push. All the supplements in the world couldn’t do it.