Read My Mind!

Last night I got my lifting stats and posted them up today. It was awesome to keep adding weight with my trainer to push myself to the limit. I couldn’t believe I deadlifted 195 lbs!!! 

This morning I put on some size 12 pants that I bought about 2 months ago. Well, they are useless now. I’m definitely a size 10 now. I’m wearing them today like Irkel with my husband’s belt on me and covering all the looseness with a sweater. 

This woman loves to shop so I just can’t go to the mall every time I go down a size….it will cost thousands with my taste!!! So I’m going to hang on to all these clothes until June 30th - the short term goal that I’m in progress with right now. Down 3 lbs and at least 17 more to go! 

Today I noticed facial expressions in my face that I couldn’t see before. My dimples are becoming very prominant again….after 10 years! What a good feeling this is. People are calling me skinny around here at work. I’m going to post an old pic of me today that will show what I’m going back to. I told y’all I’m bringing sexy back!!

Today is Day 1 Week 3 into my new nutrition/cardio/training program. After being out of commission for 3 days due to a crummy cold last week, I hit the gym hard yesterday. So much that I drenched my sweat towel and left the gym floor shaking. That protein shake hit the spot when I reached the stool at the shake bar. Chocolate protein with 1/2 scoop of peanut butter in water. I felt so pumped all day long, recovered from feeling guilty for being sick and not exercising. Yeah yeah, we should never feel guilty - but it’s there…I can’t deny I felt it. Today I’m going to see my trainer for some tips on my training program. I’m going to make him perform them for me!! LOL I warned him I was leading this session and that I’m going to make him sweat! ….yes, at the gym….sickos

 I’m still on this positive high. Very confident. Very optimistic. I CAN envision my end results! It’s crazy how one even such as a weekend at Phatcamp can change your outlook on life. I am truly thankful for that. I’m being told in person and on here that I am an inspiration…what? me?? the couch potato all her life and didn’t even know how to read a nutrition label 2 years ago? The one who was the bigger girl of the bunch, even when I was a size 9? Oh yeah, the guys called it something different - T H I C K. Well I’m going to be a different kind of thick when I’m through with all this…….I’m gonna make the Commodores get back together just to sing Brickhouse to me!! Now there’s some optimism.

BE PROUD OF HOW FAR YOU’VE COME AND WHAT YOU WILL ACCOMPLISH!!

I’m sick!!! wahhhhh!!! I had my bag packed last night to go straight to the gym and do an hour of cardio and hit some machines, and do some core work….but I woke up at 5am feeling like sh**!!! So now I’m home in bed moping….trying not to fall off the diet and knowing that I have to feel better by tomorrow to get back into the groove of things. I’m starting to see definition in my arms and legs. I’m amazed whenever I walk past the mirror. I actually have bicep lumps when i flex…yeahh boyeee!!

Please tell me! I need new ways to eat them. I really am not supposed to add anything to them but pepper.

 I have bought "All Whites" in a carton.

I have bought them fresh and separated them.

I have microwaved.

I have pan fried.

I WILL NOT EAT THEM RAW!

I DO NOT LIKE GREEN EGGS AND HAM, SAM I AM!

Boy this is a change from previous plans!!! I have never eaten so much protein!!! Day 4 today:

 5 egg whites, 1/2 grapefruit

1 cup oats, multivitamin

1/2 cup steamed white rice, 6oz chicken, italian dressing

 lowfat yogurt, handful almonds

1 large rice cake, 1 tbsp peanut butter

6-10oz chicken, 1 sweet potato, 1/2 cup chopped asparagus

2 small protein pancakes (egg white,bisquick,sugar-free applesauce, splash of honey_

protein shake.

I think I’m already getting sick of the 5 egg whites in the morning with grapefruit and cofee….not a good combination only a few more days before i change it up though
 

I am sitting in the lobby at a hotel in the LA area, sore but truly alive!! I just finished Jen Hendershott’s Phat Camp and I have gone through some serious training and learned an extreme amount of information to reach my goals. I am almost in tears writing this. This weekend, I pushed my body to the upmost limit - wait a minute, my body has no limits! I had a revelation after experiencing a strive to keep pushing and pushing and pushing until my body just couldn’t hold itself up anymore - in other words my mental was there but my body wasn’t…..because I pushed myself but my body didn’t respond, I got emotional and started balling uncontrollably but kept going….well because I was crying, I couldn’t regain my breath to go on. I had to roll aside for the others behind me to continue…I was holding up flow (these people were crawling forward on their hands and feet). I couldn’t believe I collapsed!! That is not where my mental was and I was sooo frustrated with my body for it. It was like I was having an asthma attack. Jen brought me outside for some fresh air (it was hella stuffy in there after a major major core workout). I regained my breath and listened to some really motivating advice from JEN HENDERSHOTT AND ADELA GARCIA, one on each side of me……what a memory!! Anyway, after I recovered and talked it out with them, I started walking back to the room - Jen said it’s ok. I said, "I gotta finish my round".

I went in and everyone in the room had finished their their sets. Jen came down right beside me and did this crawl with me the whole way. I did it with ease because I had regained my breath, 24 girls were cheering me on, and Jen was right there beside me doing. At one point towards the finish line, she looked back at me and smiled and told me I was almost there. That look instilled a permanent picture hanging on the wall in my head forever!! Now, everytime I think about that experience, I am overwhelmed with emotional drive to accomplish every single goal in my life!!!

 I’m not a good writer. I’m not able to express the amazing experience I’ve had this weekend. I’ve met some great people and learned from the PROS!!! THere is no stopping now. I start my 8 week program with Jen tomorrow morning bright and early. Watch out 2009!!!

okay. once again i have to thank the site. ever since i joined a week ago, i have been so conscious!! i wake up remembering to pack my gym clothes, i only grab healthy foods to go, and damnit i do stare at my body in the mirror in the bathroom at work! every day i fantasize about how the results will be at the end of each of my short-term goals! i feel the fat layers around my arm muscles to be really soft and stretchy right now. i hope that means i’m melting! gimme another couple weeks.

I just joined this site and am amazed by the support that everyone spreads around. So many positive people out there!! Positive people accomplish high goals. This site is addicting because it’s food for thought and mental strength. So many people have inspired me in less than a week. I have even been told that I have inspired others. With that said, something I learned in my past year is that you have to make fitness/nutrition a priority. Up there with work, school, family. It has to be next on that list. Before gatherings, friends, relaxation!! You have to turn down some things that you wish you could be at to take care of what is most important for your personal health and future.

This is the hardest thing for me because I’m a party girl and love to socialize. I love attention and with work, school, familiy - I’m GIVING attention instead of getting it. Is that selfish? Is that self-centered? I am just being honest with myself. Maybe it has something to do with my childhood, whatever. I always enjoyed acting and dancing in school - that’s performing on stage. Maybe that is why. I suppose this is a good attribute for when I compete in 2009……daydreaming.

Okay here is a typical day for me. It’s about 1365 calories intake.

Meal 1
1 cup nonfat milk
1/2 banana
1.5 cups of cheerios

Meal 2
1/2 cup fresh pineapple chunks
4 oz cottage cheese

Meal 3
Sandwich containing
2 slices medium tomato
1 tbspn light mayo
2 oz honey roasted turkey
1 carrot
2 slices 100% whole wheat
3/4 cup of romaine lettuce

Meal 4
1 medium orange
2 string cheese

Meal 5
Salad containing
1/2 tomato
2 oz skinless chicken breast
1.5 cups romaine lettuce
3/4 cup cucumber peeled
1 cup raw spinach
1 large boiled egg
1 tbspn Italian dressing
1/4 green bell pepper