hwy2hottie 
"Goals on hold for a month. If you leave a message, give me some time to get back to you. Keep lookin in the mirror and believing in yourself!"
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October 28, 2009
Definitely. I am binging. It has not stopped since Oct 10 so what does that make it? 18 days? 18 days and 25 pounds up. Isn’t that depressing? YES! And I run bootcamps, I inspire women AND men on and off BS, I train hard at the gym, I competed on stage!!
Yes I’ve heard this already - "I put my body through a lot of stress and deprived it of many thing during my prep. I will bounce back in no time because I already know what it takes to get there." Well, that’s great words of encouragement and I DO appreciate all of your support.
But how do I get the confidence to be seen again? I have never really been embarassed to walk into a room. At 210 pounds I could steal the eyes of many. But now I want to go to the gym when no one is there and wear my hat really low. i want to stay in for Halloween when I have 4 invites for some sexy costume parties!
I have tried to evaluate why I feel this way. I do know better. Trust me - I DO! I take value of people for what they are on the inside and I expect the same, but when what I do for a living depends on an image, I feel I have failed to represent that now. I ripped my own self off of what I worked 3 1/2 years for. I didn’t go on stage to compete. I set that goal to force myself to get to that size within 2 years instead of a lifetime of rollercoasting.
But i appear to have BUILT the rollercoaster for myself. Don’t hop on this ride. It may never end.
Studying a binging article right now:
http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/drryan30.htm
Posted in Training
October 28, 2009
Posted in Training
October 25, 2009
I started a camp to reach out to friends and family that want to lose weight, get healthy, or get motivated but don’t know where to start. I was once in that position, and I feel that I am still early in my journey enough to remember where I came from and the challenges I once faced to help others to see that they can make their own transformations or accomplish their goals no matter what they are. It’s once a month held at a different outdoor venue each time with a 100 mile radius. I bring in a certified trainer and a guest speaker to educate the campers and conduct two workouts within a 6 hour camp.
Yesterday was our first camp and it was absolutely wonderful! I couldn’t have asked for a better first group and while a couple struggled more than others, they continued to push through and make strides! I was really proud to see my friends doing something rewarding and realize that they have more power than they think and have higher goals to accomplish. The weather was gorgeous and so was the view! We all woke up with a significant amount of soreness, enough for a wake up call to always keep pushing yourself to the max and make newer levels of resistance or to change things up a bit. I look forward to our next camp just a few weeks away, rain or shine on this highway to hottie 
After only 3 hours of sleep the day before and two intense workouts under the hot sun, I’m surprised I still had the energy to go out dancing that night with one of my friends/campers. Here’s me at the diner at 2am grill still shining!
Posted in Training
October 23, 2009
I am realizing it’s time to reflect on where I’ve been and where I am at now. Doing Crossfit this week really beat me up. I have been doing nothing but cardio during that last 4-6 weeks from comp. I felt very out of shape - which I am with this sudden added weight. Even my breathing sounded really bad - asthmatic and I don’t have asthma.
I have been stressed and while I have started a new diet, I am still having difficulty with snacking. I’m hoping that I can get it contained over the weekend for a more successful next week.
Gaining all this weight and not gaining control when decided to can make you feel very incompetent. But I was blessed to have created a HUGE SUPPORTING COMMUNITY around me that failure is not an option for me. I will continue to pick myself up and try again: emotionally, mentally, physically. It’s time to show the world that you can always strive to be a better You!
Posted in Training
October 20, 2009
Ok y’all! I never believed it was possible to gain 20 pounds in a week! But I have proved it to myself! Yes, Monday morning I weighed in at 159! It’s a damn shame but I’m hoping that 15 of that is water weight - and it certainly LOOKS like it. You can see progress pics if you like, but the look of excess water retention compared to extra fat content have 2 totally different looks and feels.
I obviously did not put on the weight continuing with the contest diet. I BINGED! i BINGED ON cheesecake, chocolate, chips, burger, fries, etc etc. I did not drink enough water and so my body just held on for dear life with all that I bombarded it with. There were about three days when I was laid up in bed because I felt like I have the flu ten times over….nauseated, headache, bodyaches, diarrhea (YES I’M GETTING BLUNT WITH YOU ALL SO YOU LEARN!)….I went from a diet solely of protein veggies and minimal carbs and zero sugar/preservatives/sugarfree stuff to SKYROCKET FAT/CARB/SUGAR intake…it was like poison to my body.
My trainer said what I SHOULD have done was stuck to the same diet and then day by day slowly introduce good carbs and fats back in. But of course once you start you can’t stop and it can go on for more than a day or a week! It just doesn’t stop cuz your body thinks it will never have it again unless it makes you crave it.
So I finally had an emotional breakdown about it today. I knew I was going into the gym for Crossfit and I had to face the music of looking pudgy. I got through the Crossfit session and I had just done is a couple weeks ago like a champ. This time it went just as reality says - 20 pounds overweight! I was slow and heavy and not as strong! Needless to say, I keep telling myself that most of this is water and soon enough it will be back off of me. In the meantime I’m dealing with the clothes not fitting, the tightness I feel on my insides and skin, and the fact that I have not yet been able to enjoy the new me.
I’m excited to have a new regimen with Schuh. It is totally different than contest prep and will make me a fat burning machine! I will never go hungry and I will have tons of energy for my workouts - which I’m excited about - the workouts will be off da hook!
Well people…..time to watch me evolve again! Check in on my progress pics weekly 
Posted in Training
October 20, 2009
Hey Ladies, I just wanted to tell ya’ll that I’m a Beauticontrol consultant and we have a product called Body Glue. I put it to the test against Protan Bikini Bite and my product sunk Bikini Bite 10 times over! The stick would even last you from Prejudge to Finals if you left the suit on! Yes, it’s that good. A few of you have tried it and agreed!
So this great product normally goes for $15.50 but I want to offer it to my fitness girls for $12. I always cover the tax and shipping so that’s a flat amount. Please let me know if you’re interested. When I was in San Francisco last weekend and worked Border States this past weekend I acknowledged quite a few unhappy Bikini Bite customers. Body Glue comes in one size = 1oz but you use a WHOLE LOT LESS and get a way better quality that is guaranteed to keep that suit in place!
Christina
Beauticontrol Consultant, 3 years
getbeauticontrol@gmail.com
Posted in Training
October 15, 2009
Here’s something I just wrote from a previous blog in response to a couple great BS future figure competitors:
Awww Ladies!!! That was my only competition. I’m a tan artist
I will do more things though! Indoor mountain climbing, triathalon, etc. I started my own local outdoor fitness camp for those who seek guidance to get started 9
or need some group motivation. I will have fun workouts and guest speakers from all fitness interests, from nutrition to supplementation, from
bootcamps to sports. Also working on becoming PT certified and Crossfit certified…..so the journey does not stop here! I also want to lose another 10 lbs or so.
And this is why I make such life changes…
Posted in Training
October 15, 2009
While the show was still going on, I hurried up and said goodbye to Jantana family and packed my stuff n dragged it to the side door leading to the audience. I let people catch a glimpse of me and had them follow me out the lobby. I had hubby be my paparazzi and grabbed shots every each that attended. I discovered that my longtime trainer, who had also been like a life coach to me, had made miracles happen to show up. When I saw her, i grabbed her for a pic but as soon as I put my arms around her I could not let go and stop sobbing. We both hugged and sobbed for a good 60 seconds before letting go. She knows all the freakin TURMOIL i had gone through for years to get to this point, and she had helped me through much of it. She was very proud, and I was very proud to have made her feel that way. She needed to know that all her hard work in the gym as a trainer DOES PAY OFF! We are not all just in need of a 101 class. Some of us can follow through to accomplish goal after goal! The other person who made miracles happen was her coworker and my previous trainer. He came all the way from Chicago to see me that night and I was honored he found me worth the trip! I’ll never take for granted any little lesson learned or hand reached out….for they all hold a place in the big puzzle. Both of these trainers gave me the tools to be able to take myself to the next level which required the mental strength…something I had to find within.
Posted in Training
October 15, 2009
OMG Finally! While Prejudge rushed through like an elephant stampede, time before stagetime at Finals dragged like an injured turtle! We didn’t go on until after intermission. We are talking past 9pm when the show started at 6:30pm. I knew my peoples were out there waiting what seemed like eternity to them - but at the same time, they were enjoying the performers and even guest poser Phil Heath.
This time I’ve adjusted my suit a million times, I’ve eaten, I’ve practiced my posing, I’ve taken pics n interacted with the girls, I’ve pumped up…everything is in order! They call my number, I come. I’m not nervous, I’m excited because now I feel 100%, now I feel my best! We line up one by one to go out, they tell us to do one pose this time (I’m thinking I’m lucky I get even that). Finals usually give you very little stage time, unless you made it to the top 5 right! Anyway, they say my name and before I even get a chance to go out there, i hear the loudest screams out there - my PEOPLES ARE GOING CRAZY FOR ME OUT THERE! That ENERGY that they SHOT MY WAY made me light up and strut my stuff in the upmost confidence. I could not help but to take my time with my walk and make it sexy, take a nice long pose for my people to observe my hard work - 71 pounds off thank you very much! and to walk to the side of the stage and continue with my cheesy smiles and glance over at them in different parts of the audience waving their signs and hands! I was elated! That luv was the reason I was on stage!!! What a difference from the morning experience!!
Who cares what the judges thought
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Posted in Training
October 15, 2009
The aura of backstage. Hmm, depends on who’s in the room! LOL For any other first-time competitor, these rooms full of incredible physiques would be intimidating. Especially a woman with my physique would feel out of place. However, I am a backstage tanner and glazer. I go to these shows all the time. Many of the women I was in the show with, I’ve tanned or glazed. I had my Jantana family there too….so I felt very comfortable walking through room to room. Sometimes the pump up room would be full of heavyweight bodybuilders, sometimes of master figure competitors, sometimes bikini girls…but I’m bound to know someone so I felt very secure and confident.
The expeditors of the show are very nice and you hear them calling out numbers throughout the day. The girls dressing room is pretty decent size at this venue and so the girls were not too crowded. They had plenty of mirror space to share. There are tvs throughout so you can watch the show from backstage. Everyone brings their own food/water but there are plenty of weights and mirrors around in the pump up room. Some people veg out in the halls, hang out outside by the roll-up door, or may even go hang with family until they figure it’s their time. The others are all taking their time getting ready n the dressing rooms.
I went back and forth hanging out with Jantana where they do on-site tanning and glazing, hair, and makeup (you can sign up a few weeks before a show at www.jantana.com). I also kicked it with Luci (aka BS member gypsie77) and Cassandra (aka Making a Change on BS) and several other hotties in the powder room. There was an incredible humbleness to the ladies, surprisingly. Everyone was very supportive of one another and complimentable. I can’t deny, wherever I turned there was love!
Me n Jon Lindsay Productions
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