hvivona’s BodyBlog

So i’m really struggleing right now.  For the past 2 and a half months I have felt strong, sexy and confident.  Today it seems all of that has disappeared.  I feel manic and fat and obsessive.  I feel like i’m this huge person.  I thought I had moved past all of these feelings of insecurity, but they have once again reared up and I’m not sure how to move forward.  I’m doing all of the right things- working out, eating clean, taking rest days- but in the back of my head I hear "eat less-workout more".  I hate feeling like this and wish I could just see myself for the awesome person that’s here- that everyone else says they see.  I was beginning to see that and it felt good. why is it going away?  this is so difficult! 

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