hurdlegirl’s BodyBlog

Well, my weight is down (mostly to a lack of appetite) but its coming back and my workouts are becoming more consistent. I also have a temporary motivator…American Gladiator tryouts. Several of my friends and coworkers have convinced me that I need to tryout for the show, and since there are open casting calls next month, I’ve decided, why not? So, i’ve stepped up my training to include a lot more upperbody lifts etc.

As for my emotional healing, I feel like I’ve just been cleared to begin rehab from an injury. Its like I know I’m going to survive, but I’m still fragile so I’m taking tiny steps towards feeling secure & happy again. But as they say, time heals all things, and time is exactly what has helped.

Just when you think you’ve got a handle on things, life grabs you by the neck and throws you to the ground. Never thought I’d be single again, but now here I am. Wow, this sucks. Well, the one good thing about being dumped over the holidays is that I had no appetite, so instead of gaining a few holiday pounds, I lost about 5. I’m planning on training and dieting as if i’m going to compete, but as of now I dont intend to. I just dont have the finances to put towards competing (supplements, suits, fees, memberships, travel), and apparently I’m no good at fundraising or soliciting sponsors.

Anyhow, as sad as I am to be single again, its a new year and life could always be worse. TIme to be selfish and work on me.