hotshot1’s BodyBlog

well here we go again?? torn frigging hamstring..same one i tore back last summer mowing the stupid yard and tripped backwards over these damn rocks i had put around newly planted popus grass?? as i sit there on my ass in the dirt the very first thing i thought of was?? i am not going to be able to do squats?? or leg press?? i thought?? what the hell am i going to be able to do? it took me months to recover. dont get me wrong..i worked my legs, i just done what i could which was still alot. now i am back at that point again around 12 weeks out from my competition?? this sux..i dont remember when i was 100% heathy without working around some kind of injury?every injury has been on my left side for some reason? it must be my weak side. wrist..ankle..shoulder..elbow..now hamstring twice over. this tear is right where my leg meets my ass cheek..lets just say sitting on the toilet is a challenge* i have worked through so many injuries i dont even freakout on it anymore. stupid dumbell thunges got me this time? hell i havent even been doing them at all until latetly. i am a squat/leg press guy. i was just trying to get some seperation in my quad area by doing them?? yeah right..i got seperation all right..seperation of my ass muscles**i quess any kind of mass building is over before my show in aug?? i have no choice but to do what i can to my legs and take what i have to the stage and hope my diet will bring out what hard work i have already put into them..

hey all* just wanted to thank bb.com for choosing me as there over 40 amatuer bodybuilder of the week for the week for may 5th.. as i sit here and write this blog i realize all the years in the gym, all the pain and suffering through injuries is starting to pay off? no i didnt win the lottery or get a big multi million dollar endorsment deal. but i am getting reconized and noticed for all the hard work and yrs in the gym. to me that is a big deal. i use to be cautious about telling people how old i was because i didnt like the thought of getting older?? but actually now i am very pround to be middle aged and look the way i do* it proves to the world that you can slow down the aging process and take back or add years to your life..if i had a way to bottle my passion for bodybuilding i would be that millionare. but this is something money could never buy!! its my determination and strength of mind that has put me where i am today. yeah all my co-workers and people in my gym know of me and how i train..but i want more?? i want to be a spokes person for a supplement company so i can show all the world that your never to old to look good and with the right tools and the right resources you can achieve your loftiest fitness goals? yeah i want that trophy in aug and again in sep..but most of all?? i want to represent what bodybuilding has done for me and can do for people!! talking about bodybuilding gets me all geared up and excited?? thats passion..thats motivation..thats desire..thats whats pours out of me on the gym floor..people see it in me..they cant help but feel it when they get near me..they want to know?? but are afraid to ask out of respect for my training style? being a spokes person for a supplement company would give me that chance to teach people and show them how bodybuilding can chage there life forever in such a positive way..i have paid my dues under the iron..now i would love to give back????

just wanted to tell all my friends to check out feb issue of muscular development magazine. i had sent a pix of myself to the mag back in nov 07 telling them how much there mag inspired me and how cool it would be to see my pix in there mag..it was wild..i had a friend at work come up to me and ask me if i had seen who was in the mag for this month? he said you are? i said yeah right* he opened it up and there i was in the mailroom section. i thought it was pretty cool. i know there are alot of guys and girls that see themselfs in mags all the time..but not me..so it does give me alot of motivation to see myself in a major hardcore mag like muscular development..

dedication to the iron ! that sound? what an motavational sound? you know that sound? don,t you? you should if your hardcore ! that metal sound? the sound thats lets everyone in the gym know?? YOUR IN THE HOUSE** oh yeah..that sound?? 45 lb metal plates being loaded on the bar..that sound is like nothing else..its a sound of stength and power. its music to a true hardcore bodybuilder. that sound gets into a bodybuilders head. the clagging? its like some old spirtual chanting that makes a true hardcore bodybuilder seach for the answer of its power? you dont hear that? you cant hear it? why? your not there yet* your not true to the iron..you dont respect its power.. only a few can hear it and know its power.. and if you are one that can hear it? you are truely dedicated to the iron****

attitude* yeah i got one. why shouldn,t i have one? i have busted my ass in the gym for these muscles. no one gave them to me! i earned them. and thats how i got them. attitude* having an attitude doesn,t mean your better than anyone else or that stonger than everyone else. attitude is my focus towards the iron. without my attitude i would be weak agaisnt the heavy iron. its not about you? i am not pissed at you. i don,t care about you. there are only three things in the gym. the iron, me, and my bad ass attitude. so no..i am not better than you.. i am more focused than you…

bicep/tricep day. my day. i have already worked out in my mind today. i have already tryed new excersies in my mind today.i am biting at the bullet to get to my gym..my home. i take on a whole differant attitude when i walk in the door..an enegry comes over me.its like an eletrical charge to my mind and body. my focus takes over. nothing else matters now, except pushing my body beyond its pain thresh hole..reaching deep inside my soul for extra strength and stamina. because i know in my heart, these are the days that seperate me from the others. the lookers..the wanta bees..they watch me and wonder why? why does he work so hard? for what/ for who? {they} will never understand the mind and the will of a true hardcore bodybuilder, for we are not to be understood* BOOOOWAAAA!!!!!!!!!

think getting shot with a gun only happens on the bad side of town?? WRONG** it happened in my gym!! oh yeah. last week, two dudes that must have hated each other were in my gym at the sametime..bad deal. dude was in the mens bathroom..other guy comes in and just hay makers the shit out of him and then got him in a head lock and started choking him to death..he was trying to kill him. his buddys tryed to get him to let go because they knew he was going to choke him to death. but..the chokee had a plan* his gym bag was next to him..so he just reached into his gym bag and pulled out a gun and shot dude in the stomach?? oh yeah..a shooting in my gym,,which is in the mall?? imagine that..that takes the fraze..pumping iron to a whole new level..instead of wearing my under armor shirts..i quess i need to wear my body armor vest??? i seen a sign on the outside of my gym that said, gym dues will be going up after new years for new memebers?? i quess they have to charge extra for packing a gun into the gym????

is it just me, or do other guys like me that are bigger than most other guys in the gym have haters or guys that want you to ask you questions on how you got so big??by no means am i a rude person. but knowing how long it took and the sacrifies,the pain, the frigging injuries, having to be close to my food 24/7. sorts pisses me the hell off. i quess its a compliment in a way. but there all looking for an easy answer?? they think ..well its just the juice. and if i could get me some then a month or two i would be like that.HA!! WHAT A JOKE. and these so called workout guys are the very ones who can,t do there first set without chatting with there buddys for 15 min before ever picking up a weight?? it blows my mind. they act like they want it* but there not ready to put forth the effort to get there. and i am suppost to be there information guru?? ain,t happen..i quess if being rude to certain ass holes in the gym is the only way to get through my training day without out being bothered?? so be it!! people you can,t be a social butterfly in the gym and exspect to reach your goals..your mind and body has to be focused..ready to explode on the iron and leave it all in the gym that day..haters..they actually make me get an attitude as soon as i walk in the gym..and thats ok..because i get to take my craziness out on the iron…………………………….

I have to say..i am not beyond making a new years resolution** but mine is more realistic. maybe get some new veins branching out from my front delts ?? more mass on my quads with killer definition?? calves that look like they were chiseled out of stone?? or biceps that look like some plastic surgeon implanted softballs under my skin?? oh well..I think my new years resolution will be simple this year. eat right..train right..think right..and everything will be alright..

the holidays** emotional?  yeah some what.. but my main concern is what time the gym is opening and how early it is closing..I don,t worry about how much cramp I will eat during the holidays..because chicken and eggs are my thanksgiving dinner..this is the time of year when your family,friends and co-workers freak out on you.. because they can not wrap there mind around how you could not eat all this wonderful food thats served to us. of course they want to say your just weird..but really they wish they looked like me and had the drive and the disipilne it takes to get here. but that thought fades so quickly as they ask??? please pass me the mashed taters**