CONFESSIONS OF A BB HOPEFUL

energy levels are surprisingly high…last time i tried to train for a race and bb at the same time i was soooo overtrained and felt like poop!!   maybe supps are working   did chest and tris at gym this morning and did alot of weight and high reps..hubby said arms are getting too big…he’s just jealous..ha ha…did 30 min. tempo run on tread at home, felt good but was tough running fast for extended period… my rear is soooo freakin sore from yesterday too so the run just kicked the soreness into high gear and i probably won’t be able to get up from this computer..   i hope this running leans me out..want to seeeee my aaaabbbbbssss!!!!

began 5k training on monday…  feelin better on my feet, alot slower tho but i’ll speed it up eventually..  decided to do half marathon in febuary… not for time, just need some motivation and i miss doing that distance… it gives me a deep sense of satisfaction.  the 5k training is for speed and i’ll be doin my test run in 3 weeks then the second test will be 4 weeks after that.  switching up my bb training has proven fruitful but i’ve lost some bench strength because i haven’t had a partner to spot me..  i’ll just have to start buggin whoever is at the gym   still want to bench body weight…  so many goals…so little time

for frickin clydesdale!! ran 5 miles on the greenway today and felt like a frickin lumberjack!!  my body is not used to runnin with these extra lbs…. i’m goin in circles of not wanting to run because everything hurts because i’m heavier but i have to run to not be heavier… ugh…. i’m definately sucking it up but just had to vent… 

had a great workout to ring in new year…also so i won’t feel guilty having a bit of good cheer   incorporating some sprints during lifting to continue to burn this dreaded fat around the middle… weight is same but i see muscles in legs defining…  the abs will come… i’m sure of it   may everyone be safe and and have a happy new year!! 

5 days on and 2 days off of strict dieting is working for me… lost a lb. before christmas…probably put it back on over the holiday but i’m ok with that…those home-made goodies only come once a year and we must’nt deprive ourselves of that!!    trying to focus on leaning out so i’m stepping up the intensity of my workouts..less rest between sets and more sets with less weight… except for leg day cause i gotta get these babies BIGGER!!  sprints on the treadmill are really helping to define the muscles in my legs and making my hams pop…  found jamie eason’s workout on her b-space…gonna see if i can keep up with that for a couple of weeks..think my routine needs a little shaking up to shock my muskles  

so far so good..not really fighting cravings..wonder if the flaxseed oil is actually helping with that…  feel clean and and my energy is actually up…wierd…thought i’d be wanting a loaf of bread by now   this is only a test and i’m not expecting a big weight loss in 5 days but this is the first time i’ve tried to follow a specific diet plan..and i don’t mean diet like to lose weight necessarily.. i want to incorporate this nutritionally into my every day life… i want my body to be fed in the right way so as to grow and also stay lean….i think giving myself short term goals is whats going to work for me…baby steps…

started a 5 day diet plan just to see if i could actually stick to something strict!   mostly chiken and rice, protein shakes, a sweet potatoe here and there… and LOTS of water…no carbs after 3…  its that last part i have such trouble with..  i always want a huge roll or cereal around 7 or 8   i made the goal short in hopes that i could see the light at the end of the tunnel.. plus i want to eat on christmas day!!  my tummy is already grumbling….oh no!!

i want to go to the next level!!  i want to see how far i can take this body, shape this body, mold this 35 year old body… i want people to look at me wierd cause i carry a gallon of water around with me everywhere and a cooler in my car…  i want people to roll there eyes when i say sure i can go but i gotta go to the gym first… this is my life and i want to look amazing and feel amazing and wear a bikini while all my friends are buying tankinis… and mom jeans… not me sista!!  i’m fighten the good fight all the way till the end!!  don’t they understand that fit and happy is so much more fun than fat and miserable??  now, if you’ll excuse me, i’m hoppin on the treadmill!!

great back workout yesterday…worked out my sadness over losin my hubby as a workout partner cause of his new job…its a blessing but such a downer cause we have so much fun in the gym…it just won’t be the same

did upper and lower back in same day and thought that it would be too much but i ended up pushing myself really hard and my lats feel like i used a meat mallet on them… and oh the hamstrings and glutes are soooo sore!!  deadlifts rock!! 

i need a partner!!  i hate goin in there alone!!  lol

lost 4 lbs.    7 away from goal…the running is helping plus trying to not eat carbs after 6pm… doin 5 miles in the mornin…longest i’ve done since injury…we’ll see how it goes