CONFESSIONS OF A BB HOPEFUL

thought i was getting close to the spray tan…i feel like i look better but got on scale today and actually gained…. don’t know what i’m doing wrong….

2 more to go to get that spray tan that has been my motivation… heh heh.  I’m going to add a short cardio session at end of each bb workout for aprox. 20 min. and see if that speeds things along.  just did great shoulder/tri routine…and abs…did 100 reps fast… maybe shaking my routine up will help as well… i’m trying to be patient but i just want to lean out so bad… i don’t want to lose muscle so i’m going slow but my first instinct is to just not eat and run for like 3 hrs.    i know better tho plus i’ve worked to hard to let it waste away…

long run today … did back and bis at gym…  felt weak when i first got there but picked up momentum after first superset   have GOT to pick up some energy drink mix   weight goal is not progressing… thought extra cardio would help… don’t know what i’m doin wrong… guess still eatin too much…

pull up goal is getting closer   want to do 10 … did shoulders and tri today..felt kinda weak and fat in gym but i think its cause i ran out of pre-workout drink mix…could be in my head but i usually feel better than i did today… did 3miles with speed work on treadmill at home this afternoon… have a 5k comin up on the 28th…  hope it warms up…i hate this cold weather!!

energy levels are surprisingly high…last time i tried to train for a race and bb at the same time i was soooo overtrained and felt like poop!!   maybe supps are working   did chest and tris at gym this morning and did alot of weight and high reps..hubby said arms are getting too big…he’s just jealous..ha ha…did 30 min. tempo run on tread at home, felt good but was tough running fast for extended period… my rear is soooo freakin sore from yesterday too so the run just kicked the soreness into high gear and i probably won’t be able to get up from this computer..   i hope this running leans me out..want to seeeee my aaaabbbbbssss!!!!

began 5k training on monday…  feelin better on my feet, alot slower tho but i’ll speed it up eventually..  decided to do half marathon in febuary… not for time, just need some motivation and i miss doing that distance… it gives me a deep sense of satisfaction.  the 5k training is for speed and i’ll be doin my test run in 3 weeks then the second test will be 4 weeks after that.  switching up my bb training has proven fruitful but i’ve lost some bench strength because i haven’t had a partner to spot me..  i’ll just have to start buggin whoever is at the gym   still want to bench body weight…  so many goals…so little time

for frickin clydesdale!! ran 5 miles on the greenway today and felt like a frickin lumberjack!!  my body is not used to runnin with these extra lbs…. i’m goin in circles of not wanting to run because everything hurts because i’m heavier but i have to run to not be heavier… ugh…. i’m definately sucking it up but just had to vent…