CONFESSIONS OF A BB HOPEFUL

did 45 min. spin class in am yesterday, followed by heavy leg routine in the afternoon… trying to get really focused on my leg growth since i’m currently unable to run.  decided to try 5×5 routine on squats and i went heavy as i could, followed by front squats, leg presses and extensions…  i have gotten so many gains through visualization in my running that i’ve decided it might work for muscle growth too   each set was intense and i thought about the muscle getting bigger and stonger… i actually talked to them this morning too  ha ha…they better listen!!  

my upper body responds so easily and yet my legs, while completely solid, just won’t gain any mass! i want that sweep!!  i suppose the running has something to do with it… when i start back, i’m going to focus on smaller aces, 5ks, and do lots of sprints etc… did you guys notice the quads on those sprinters in the olympics?! HUGE   that’s what i want!!

i’m off to have a conversation with these sticks

i have stress fractures in BOTH feet?! i mean, come on!!  so, the outside of ONE of my feet has been really bothering me lately, so i went to doc to make sure everything was ok… and then he tells me BOTH feet are hurt?!  this is sooo frustrating…  i knew i was pushing it but i thought a few days off here abd there would do the trick   i guess not… so now i have this half marathon looming over my head in seven weeks and i can’t run at ALL for at LEAST a month!!  plus, i sliced my finger open with a window scraper this morning!!  what a day!! 

so now i have to reconsider my goals and a HUGE part of me wants to throw my running shoes in the fricken trash…. but, ….  ok , maybe just into the very back of my closet… those things cost ALOT   doc said i could still do non-impact cardio…whatever that means… i mean, what can you do that will keep you in cardiovascular strength like running does?  my 2 hour mark may be doomed!!! 

someone tell me this is only a small hurdle cause it feels like a fricken mountain!!

did speed work this morning but it was cut short with stomach issues.. can’t get diet/ timing right!!  schedule is busy with law school and trying to train for this half marathon and keep up the bb training, it’s a bit much to juggle but i’m just gonna keep right on truckin… doin back tonight, hopefully be able to do at least one set of pull-ups unassisted how do all of you guys take such great pics?  mine never look like all the great ones i see    i guess it helps if ur a hottie… ahhhh one day i’m so proud of all you beautiful, healthy people!! 

does it drive anyone else nuts to take a rest day?   i must be obsessed

i guess its from the race and then doin lots of leg lifts in the gym… did’nt get to do long run today…getting frustrated… i’m really struggling to find a balance with running and bb… its coming tho.. i guess u have to work out all the kinks… i’ll get it fine tuned eventually gonna really focus on my running goals for the next several weeks tho as the race is coming up in less than seven weeks…  really want to say i did in under 2 hrs.   i can do this!! 

5k was great this morning!!  completely pumped that i got 3rd in my age group   and that the boro represented the top 3!!  such a great start to a beautiful weekend!!  now….for that 10k next monday…. gotta train my booty off so i can get that 55min. goal!!  hope i can maintain my muscle untill this half-marathon training is over….cause then, look out!!!  this mom is gonna get super buff  

back in the gym this week… 3 workouts and my whole body is sore!! i couldn’t even run yesterday because my legs and butt were blasted!!  have a race on saturday… hope i can pull it off   my main focus is a 10k on labor day, so i’m not gonna stress this one… just gonna enjoy it… alot of friends are doing it too so it should be a good time…  diet is cleaning up and i can tell i’m leaning out a bit…  did several pull-ups by myself yesterday!!  getting there… my husband said he’ll be mad if i start doing more than him.. heh heh, you know that just makes me want to…

gotta go… butt too sore to sit in this chair for too long…. 

about three years ago, i started running…  and around a year ago something clicked inside of me… i began to push myself and thru that i began to realize i had a seed of competitive spirit… i wasn’t pushed to do sports growing up… so i never felt what it was like to expect things out of my body… what it was like to set goals, and meet those goals..and what meeting those goals did to your self-esteem and desire to push for more!!  it’s like i’m a new person!!  i find myself secretly competing with other girls in the gym   my new thing is to bench my body weight and i saw a girl the other day bench my goal and it hacked me off cause i’m not there yet silly huh?  anyway, we did chest yesterday and i’m only at 3 x 10-12 @ 75lbs.  i maxed at 105 last week but could only get it once!!  anyway, when u set a goal its like you get tunnel vision untill you hit it… at least that’s what its like for me   untill then, i’m keepin my eye on that girl and she better look out!!  ha ha, she’ll probably go up by the time i catch up with her…it’ll be never ending :0

saw my first bb competition this weekend! it was so cool seeing all those dedicated individuals, with the balls to get out there and show it off!!  so in awe at that type of focus … yay to all of them!! 

at least i think this is why i feel like POOP… irritable and hungry all the time and every workout since my race has sucked and left me feeling completely drained… i usually feel revived … this sucks so bad … gonna take sveral days off… running alot and lifting is hard to maintain i suppose… should i revise my goals or just really pay more attention to appropriate rest?  seems like alot of people on this sight do cardio sessions in addition to their bb routines, so am i just not in shape enough to handle all of this?… so irritated… want to workout!!!  having to force myself to stay home, but i definately can’t deal with feeling like i’ve been run over by a semi    ugghhh!!