TLC: Trust, Love, Consistency

Sometimes I wonder what other competitors motivations are. Do they still look in the mirror and not like what they see? This is totally not the case for me. Every morning I step on the scales, but I’m not so phased by the number that comes up. I could have eaten too much salt or rice the day before and then I’ll hold up to 3kg of water for the next day or so, so I write the number down and get on with my morning cardio. It’s when I look in the mirror after my shower that I really take notice. Every day I’m happy with what I see but today my abs were looking amazing, my biceps were popping out and my legs looking firm and shaped. I actually thought, this is perfect, do I really want to cut any more? I’m actually scared of getting skinnier. I love the way my body is now.

Is this just an excuse for me to be slack? I certainly couldn’t step on stage how I am now. So I move forward with excitement and trepidation. I tell myself that my arms are going to look firmer and more muscular and that soon I’ll have a cool little V on my belly and that I’ll only be ‘too skinny’ for a week or so and maybe I won’t. Maybe I’ll be solid carved granite.

In other less positive news I rolled my ankle this morning pushing my bike through the pedestrian underpass. It’s pretty sore to walk on but I managed my bike to work within my usual time without too much pain. I’m now going to hobble down to Woolworths to get some frozen peas to ice it. Maybe I can eat them with my sweet potato and kangaroo steak later.

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