With a 3 hour lay over in San Francisco I FINALLY found some time to blog! And with this blog, comes an epiphany...
The past 2 weeks I have been vacationing in Texas and altho just being in the kissing cousin Country to the South, I felt a world away. Removed from influences that have clouded my mind, I was able to whole heartedly absorb my freed Spirit.
Major changes in my life this past year have tested my Steel in a way I never anticipated. Workouts continued as always, I found self therapy thru blogging here, and comfort and support thru the incredible friends I made thru it all. Not a day passed that I didnt anxiously await putting my thoughts to blog and interacting with others...but now something has changed. I have lost that blog lovin feeling...
At first, I thought it was because of the changes here on BB...so many of the near and dear peeps I call friend left when BB Admin thwarted the social interaction the blogs once had. But in the past, no matter what travels I had on the go and despite the changes I ALWAYS blogged...it was as essential to me as breathing.
But, as I sit here alone in an airport...returning from spending time with the person who has given new meaning to my life...I realize it was me that changed. In the past few weeks, I didnt once feel a need to blog...I did write one, but more out of a feeling of duty. See, I dont NEED the blog therapy anymore. The deep personal struggle I was being strong for has been replaced with complete and overwhelming Happiness.
And just as the blogging was never intentionally planned to help my personal strength, but did...this new Love has unexpectedly all consumed me...and sent my need for emotional support packing.
Ill still be around...but I lay down my Blog Whore title and replace it with my New Stainless Steely smile!