My getaway sabbatical, thinly veiled as a work trip, has ended. It happens...things end...it doesnt negate the wonderfulness of the experience, it just marks the need for what comes next...striving for ongoing happiness in all I do.

Its been an incredible eye opener for me, even moreso than I thought possible. I impressed myself with my ability to find great personal strength. I wowed myself with my willingness to cut loose and enjoy friends without inhibition. But mostly, I amazed myself with my genuine engagement of honest emotion. Im smiling from the heart. No rationalizations...no compromises...no fakin. I know me better now than Ive ever known me before. 

As for my body...it effin ROCKS. I know this because I put it thru the ropes all week and it performed FAR better than any 40 plus bod likely would...I get that...and I appreciate it. My trainees were inspired...my friends in awe...and I know I have built something to be proud of.

As for the next chapter, Im back in my little town...and putting my rejuevenated spirit to the test. And tested it will be. But Im not aprehensive...I am fully in tune with ME and the unfreakinbelievable energy I have to exude the Love of LIVING. And that trumps all other challenges. Afterall...my middle name is Maria. PS

"When I'm with her I'm confused, Out of focus and bemused

And I never know exactly where I am

Unpredictable as weather, she's as flighty as a feather

She's a darling

She's a demon

She's a lamb

She'd out pester any pest

Drive a hornet from its nest

She can throw a twirling dervish out of whirl

She is gentle, She is wild

She's a riddle, She's a child

She's a headache

She's an angel

She's a girl!!

Many a thing you know you'd like to tell her

Many a thing she ought to understand

But how do you make her stay?

And listen to all you say

How do you keep a wave upon the sand?

Oh how do you solve a problem like Maria?

How do you hold a moon beam in your hand?"